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[ Tsukasa fidgets with his phone, jumping when
oh
oh!!! oh ♪ ]
Then it's a date.
[ —aaAAAAAAA HE SENT THAT HE SENT THAT, oh god oh— ]
Friend date.
oh
oh!!! oh ♪ ]
Then it's a date.
[ —aaAAAAAAA HE SENT THAT HE SENT THAT, oh god oh— ]
Friend date.
Edited 2018-02-12 18:14 (UTC)
[ .................fuck why did he say that
he could've said it was a real date ]
Is there anything in particular you'd like to do?
Since I picked our location last time we hung out.
[ god he is such an idiot, he wants to die down here. ]
he could've said it was a real date ]
Is there anything in particular you'd like to do?
Since I picked our location last time we hung out.
[ god he is such an idiot, he wants to die down here. ]
[ ...he opens his mouth, thinks about it, and closes it again, following her lead thoughtfully. He really doesn't consider himself courageous at all, or shameless, or charismatic; he's not like the person in his memories, who can so boldly talk to a girl he seems to like, or tease her, or stand up to people. Tsukasa purses his lips, brow furrowed, before he shakes his head.
It's fine, he guesses. ]
I've surrounded myself with such flatterers. [ He has friends who say the exact same thing. Everyone's cute. ] Thank you, Anya... Maybe I'll believe it some day. Probably when I feel like I've actually become the person everyone seems to think I am.
[ Because he really doesn't feel deserving of those nice words, no matter how many times he's told it. He's ordinary, after all. He's a loser, after all. ]
I'm working hard to that end though~. The other me, um... Suou, he was kind of like that, I feel. Well, he was really resolute, at least. [ eheh. ] It got him in trouble though... His group was under threat of disbandment because of his smart mouth.
It's fine, he guesses. ]
I've surrounded myself with such flatterers. [ He has friends who say the exact same thing. Everyone's cute. ] Thank you, Anya... Maybe I'll believe it some day. Probably when I feel like I've actually become the person everyone seems to think I am.
[ Because he really doesn't feel deserving of those nice words, no matter how many times he's told it. He's ordinary, after all. He's a loser, after all. ]
I'm working hard to that end though~. The other me, um... Suou, he was kind of like that, I feel. Well, he was really resolute, at least. [ eheh. ] It got him in trouble though... His group was under threat of disbandment because of his smart mouth.
[for all of 1.7 seconds anya was very confused.
and then she wasn't!
poor tsukasa.]
silly tsukasa
you should only asks people on dates if you have a crush on them (ノ＞▽＜。)ノ
[AH YES
SILLY TSUKASA]
we can go on a friend date !
maybe ride horses ? is that okay ?
and then she wasn't!
poor tsukasa.]
silly tsukasa
you should only asks people on dates if you have a crush on them (ノ＞▽＜。)ノ
[AH YES
SILLY TSUKASA]
we can go on a friend date !
maybe ride horses ? is that okay ?
[is it flattery.... Anya tilts her head as she listens to him, blinking in surprise.]
Oh! The other Tsukasa was a... Mmm... Xулиган? Troublemaker?
[Not that she sounds upset about it at all? Instead, she laughs happily even as they skate around, holding onto his hand and humming a pleased note.]
What did he make trouble for? Something important to him?
Oh! The other Tsukasa was a... Mmm... Xулиган? Troublemaker?
[Not that she sounds upset about it at all? Instead, she laughs happily even as they skate around, holding onto his hand and humming a pleased note.]
What did he make trouble for? Something important to him?
[ HAHA HE IS
DYING
HE IS DYING, IN HELL. thankfully, goro is giving him more ice cream.
the pain of the heartstone. ]
That sounds good to me.
I'm looking forward to it, Anya!
And to seeing you again.
DYING
HE IS DYING, IN HELL. thankfully, goro is giving him more ice cream.
the pain of the heartstone. ]
That sounds good to me.
I'm looking forward to it, Anya!
And to seeing you again.
[someone help him]
i too
no i mean
me too
it feels a little silly to say but
i miss you already
i hope you get to come back soon
i too
no i mean
me too
it feels a little silly to say but
i miss you already
i hope you get to come back soon
[that's so much more than what she needed to know about horses. but instead she listens dutifully and smiles when the horse butts against tsukasa's hand. she'll reach to give tourmy another affectionate little pet]
Tourmy has a lot of nice things to say to me even when we just met...
[she glances at tsukasa and giggles]
Везучий... I feel very lucky to have a good way to meet her.
Tourmy has a lot of nice things to say to me even when we just met...
[she glances at tsukasa and giggles]
Везучий... I feel very lucky to have a good way to meet her.
Edited 2018-02-13 02:08 (UTC)
[ ... ]
I usually tease people about that, especially since it hasn't been that long, but... Me too.
I usually tease people about that, especially since it hasn't been that long, but... Me too.
it is not silly ?
that makes me feel better
i wish i could be with you all ...
but i will do my best to wait until you are back
that makes me feel better
i wish i could be with you all ...
but i will do my best to wait until you are back
[ A troublemaker... Probably. ]
I think so. I mean, he wanted to join that unit for a while, it seems... He was really excited to be part of it in one of my memories. [ Knights, that wonderful unit that Sena keeps telling him they're in together. Tsukasa tilts his head as they skate, thoughtful. ] But in another, he was really angry at its leader... and he was scared that they really would be disbanded, just because he'd gotten mad.
[ A little laugh. ]
He said— I remember this really clearly— he said that he wouldn't be able to face his ancestors, or any of his unitmates, if that happened... if they lost because of him. His senpai told him not to worry about it though, because it wasn't his fault, and that they'd win like they always do... because that's just what they did.
[ ... ]
It was really cool sounding, actually. ♪ I wasn't expecting that kind of thing out of that senpai, but I guess he's had some cool moments aside from that too.
I think so. I mean, he wanted to join that unit for a while, it seems... He was really excited to be part of it in one of my memories. [ Knights, that wonderful unit that Sena keeps telling him they're in together. Tsukasa tilts his head as they skate, thoughtful. ] But in another, he was really angry at its leader... and he was scared that they really would be disbanded, just because he'd gotten mad.
[ A little laugh. ]
He said— I remember this really clearly— he said that he wouldn't be able to face his ancestors, or any of his unitmates, if that happened... if they lost because of him. His senpai told him not to worry about it though, because it wasn't his fault, and that they'd win like they always do... because that's just what they did.
[ ... ]
It was really cool sounding, actually. ♪ I wasn't expecting that kind of thing out of that senpai, but I guess he's had some cool moments aside from that too.
[ Tsukasa blushes a little, feeling like he's been caught, but grins slightly anyway. ]
You can come by any time even if I'm not here, too. Tourmy's sort of popular, but I'll put in a good word for you so you can see her as often as you'd like. If you want, I mean.
[ ...this isn't an abuse of power..!! ]
You can come by any time even if I'm not here, too. Tourmy's sort of popular, but I'll put in a good word for you so you can see her as often as you'd like. If you want, I mean.
[ ...this isn't an abuse of power..!! ]
[ ♪ ]
I wouldn't want you to be here anyway.
It's kind of pretty, in that underground way, but I think a place with a lot of stars and sky suits Anya more.
A few people I know mentioned they went to a city by the sea, and that sounds really nice... So maybe that'd be better.
I wouldn't want you to be here anyway.
It's kind of pretty, in that underground way, but I think a place with a lot of stars and sky suits Anya more.
A few people I know mentioned they went to a city by the sea, and that sounds really nice... So maybe that'd be better.
[ Okay.
Okay, he kind of messed up, calling it a friend date, but— but it's fine. Really, he isn't sure she would've accepted a real date; he doesn't know if she still loves Yuri, or if she's gotten over him, or if that's something that will ever fade, so it's better to play it safe. That's what he keeps telling himself as he plays with his phone and wonders if he should call her? Text her? Just go to her place? Ask her to meet him at the stables?
He promised her horseback riding, after all. This is the lamest post-holiday date ever—but at least she doesn't have memories of a boyfriend here. Or it's highly unlikely she does. She wanted him to teach her, after all? Which means she can't have any, unless she has some in her past life or something like that, or—
Tsukasa fusses with it until he just plain goes to her house in the afternoon after he's dropped his things off at his house and when he's sure she'll be there, ringing her doorbell. Trying not to let his nervousness get the better of him. It's fine, it's okay, it's good, it's fine, it's okay, it's good. ]
Okay, he kind of messed up, calling it a friend date, but— but it's fine. Really, he isn't sure she would've accepted a real date; he doesn't know if she still loves Yuri, or if she's gotten over him, or if that's something that will ever fade, so it's better to play it safe. That's what he keeps telling himself as he plays with his phone and wonders if he should call her? Text her? Just go to her place? Ask her to meet him at the stables?
He promised her horseback riding, after all. This is the lamest post-holiday date ever—but at least she doesn't have memories of a boyfriend here. Or it's highly unlikely she does. She wanted him to teach her, after all? Which means she can't have any, unless she has some in her past life or something like that, or—
Tsukasa fusses with it until he just plain goes to her house in the afternoon after he's dropped his things off at his house and when he's sure she'll be there, ringing her doorbell. Trying not to let his nervousness get the better of him. It's fine, it's okay, it's good, it's fine, it's okay, it's good. ]
[The door swings open and Tsukasa will suddenly find his arms full of Anya.
She's been greeting people like this all day - with absurd excitement and bright eyes, a shining smile that threatens to split her face as soon as she recognizes them, and a hug that lacks any hint of shame or concern. The most important thing to her at this moment and absolutely nothing else is that she gets to greet the people who mean that much to her. So she throws her arms around Tsukasa's neck and gives him a great big hug, making a giddy, pleased noise as she does.]
Tsukasa is home!
[ - and that's it, that's his welcome
Sorry, Tsukasa.]
She's been greeting people like this all day - with absurd excitement and bright eyes, a shining smile that threatens to split her face as soon as she recognizes them, and a hug that lacks any hint of shame or concern. The most important thing to her at this moment and absolutely nothing else is that she gets to greet the people who mean that much to her. So she throws her arms around Tsukasa's neck and gives him a great big hug, making a giddy, pleased noise as she does.]
Tsukasa is home!
[ - and that's it, that's his welcome
Sorry, Tsukasa.]
[ Any words he had choke up immediately in his throat, and he stiffens in surprise for just a moment before he wraps his arms around her waist, heart pounding. Hugging her closer, pressing his face into her shoulder for a second (she's so soft!!! and warm, and she smells nice, and—) before he lifts it again, pressing their cheeks together instead. ]
Just for a bit, unfortunately...~ I go back at noon tomorrow. [ He regrets every word of that sentence, and he closes his eyes with a soft sigh, holding her tighter. This hurts a lot, because someone fell off a ladder and got all scraped up, but he has a jacket and he's perfectly fine. It's just like earlier, it's okay if it's like this—! ] I already spent some time with Hina, so... It's your turn. You wanted to go riding, right? I think it should be okay to do today, if you'd still want to.
[ ... ]
I missed you, Anya. [ Quietly said, eyes fluttering open slowly. ] I thought about you a lot.
[ He's sure he wasn't as big of a presence in her mind—Anya, undoubtedly, has dozens upon dozens of people to think about, to worry about—but he has the fortune of having very few people to sincerely feel that way about. ]
Just for a bit, unfortunately...~ I go back at noon tomorrow. [ He regrets every word of that sentence, and he closes his eyes with a soft sigh, holding her tighter. This hurts a lot, because someone fell off a ladder and got all scraped up, but he has a jacket and he's perfectly fine. It's just like earlier, it's okay if it's like this—! ] I already spent some time with Hina, so... It's your turn. You wanted to go riding, right? I think it should be okay to do today, if you'd still want to.
[ ... ]
I missed you, Anya. [ Quietly said, eyes fluttering open slowly. ] I thought about you a lot.
[ He's sure he wasn't as big of a presence in her mind—Anya, undoubtedly, has dozens upon dozens of people to think about, to worry about—but he has the fortune of having very few people to sincerely feel that way about. ]
[He really should tell her that she's injured - but for now she accepts this easily. The closeness, the words that she'll hold onto, humming softly even as she remains latched onto him with zero intention of pulling back or letting go. Her head rests against his and she seems to take a moment to consider her words. Her eyes shut and she can't help but think it's a bit sweet - to not be forgotten.]
You did...? [still with a bite of awe, her face growing warm with both embarrassment and pleasure - she does like to hear that.] Mm... That makes my heart warm to know.
Я тоже. I missed you too. Everyone is gone so I... I did not always know what to do, or how to help. Hearing from you and knowing what you are doing... Полегче. It made it a little easier.
[She rests her head against his shoulder then, shoulder shaking with a brief laugh.]
I am happy if you are here. Riding is still good... but I just want to be with you while you are here, if that is okay to say.
You did...? [still with a bite of awe, her face growing warm with both embarrassment and pleasure - she does like to hear that.] Mm... That makes my heart warm to know.
Я тоже. I missed you too. Everyone is gone so I... I did not always know what to do, or how to help. Hearing from you and knowing what you are doing... Полегче. It made it a little easier.
[She rests her head against his shoulder then, shoulder shaking with a brief laugh.]
I am happy if you are here. Riding is still good... but I just want to be with you while you are here, if that is okay to say.
Just hearing from you always made me happy, too. [ He hesitates, then rubs gentle circles into her back. Soft, careful. ] It reminded me that I wanted to be able to come back and tell you how brave I was...
[ That's a little boastful, but it's true. Ayano's right that he could've fought it... but. She hasn't realized yet that he's a total doormat, he's pretty sure. Tsukasa smiles slightly, successfully resisting the urge to kiss her temple or something equally incriminating of his feelings; his face still reddens at the thought, at her words, but he keeps his lips to himself. ]
And... yeah, um, of course it is. I really don't have anyone else to visit... [ Granted, it might be good to check in on a few other people, but he's sure they're busy visiting their own loved ones. He had two very important people left behind in the city though, so he's absolutely decided they get his day today. ] I'll see my family when I go home later after all.
[unless him and hinata end up having a sleepover but that's not really the point, he still has to go there for supplies ]
Whatever you want, Anya. I'll grant any wish of yours right now—just say the word.
[ That's a little boastful, but it's true. Ayano's right that he could've fought it... but. She hasn't realized yet that he's a total doormat, he's pretty sure. Tsukasa smiles slightly, successfully resisting the urge to kiss her temple or something equally incriminating of his feelings; his face still reddens at the thought, at her words, but he keeps his lips to himself. ]
And... yeah, um, of course it is. I really don't have anyone else to visit... [ Granted, it might be good to check in on a few other people, but he's sure they're busy visiting their own loved ones. He had two very important people left behind in the city though, so he's absolutely decided they get his day today. ] I'll see my family when I go home later after all.
[
Whatever you want, Anya. I'll grant any wish of yours right now—just say the word.
[YOU KEEP YOUR LIPS TO YOURSELF, SUOU TSUKASA.
But Anya will pause at that - and wonder gently how selfish she can be. Yato was the person she wanted to see most today - and sure, there are others, but they have their families and other loved ones to look after. If Tsukasa really says it's okay for them to be together...
She'll believe him. It soothes the dull ache of loneliness in her heart to know that he'd be willing to be with her.
When he says he'll grant her a wish, she lifts her head and her expression grows fond - ]
Падающая звезда... Just like a shooting star? [A hum.] Not here for very long, but bringing me joy and hope when you are.
[It's sweet.
She thinks she wants to be like that, a little bit.
She pulls back - just a little bit, just so she can get one hand back to follow the line of his arm until she can interlace their fingers. Her smile is confident.]
Оставаться... "Stay with me" is too selfish of Anya to ask... so maybe "stay safe" instead. When we are apart too, so I do not have to worry. We will both try to be brave.
But Anya will pause at that - and wonder gently how selfish she can be. Yato was the person she wanted to see most today - and sure, there are others, but they have their families and other loved ones to look after. If Tsukasa really says it's okay for them to be together...
She'll believe him. It soothes the dull ache of loneliness in her heart to know that he'd be willing to be with her.
When he says he'll grant her a wish, she lifts her head and her expression grows fond - ]
Падающая звезда... Just like a shooting star? [A hum.] Not here for very long, but bringing me joy and hope when you are.
[It's sweet.
She thinks she wants to be like that, a little bit.
She pulls back - just a little bit, just so she can get one hand back to follow the line of his arm until she can interlace their fingers. Her smile is confident.]
Оставаться... "Stay with me" is too selfish of Anya to ask... so maybe "stay safe" instead. When we are apart too, so I do not have to worry. We will both try to be brave.
[this is still the best]
anya will get last snacks from store
and then valentines marathon with katya !!!!! ♥♥♥
i am so excited
(ﾉ^ヮ^)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧
anya will get last snacks from store
and then valentines marathon with katya !!!!! ♥♥♥
i am so excited
(ﾉ^ヮ^)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧
that is okay
you were with davechka yes ?
more important
i understand
i want to see you when you come home
you were with davechka yes ?
more important
i understand
i want to see you when you come home
[ It gets easier and easier to lace his fingers with hers, even if he still feels a swell of embarrassing warmth unfurl and wash over him when it happens; he knows his face is still heated up and wants it to stop, but at the same time, it's impossible right now, when the girl he's wanted to see the most is right in front of him.
The thought that she'd want him to stay with her is so much— if she wanted to be selfish with him, he wouldn't mind. He wants to stay with her too, and the thought that this work he's doing is just voluntary, that he really could just stay if he wanted to...
Would he?
...Maybe, but it feels wrong to, to not see his responsibilities through. He'll feel better being able to come back having helped in some way—having proven that despite his lack of skills, despite everything, he can still do something. He hasn't quite resigned himself out of the dream of having an ordinary school life, but the feeling of being utterly helpless from Goro when they spoke about his ordeal... it isn't something he likes.
Liked. Likes. He slowly, unthinkingly, brings their joined hands up and— almost kisses the knuckles of hers, remembers himself soon enough when it's in his line of sight that he just squeezes instead. ]
I will. Don't worry about that... I haven't really been chasing stuff that's too dangerous anyway. My first task, I helped out a lot of workers, right? I got a reward from them too. [ It was a small metal cat statuette. For his bff. ] And then my next one, we went to a ladder that was supposed to be infinite... Like, it'd loop around as you went down it, and if you could figure out how to step off of it, you'd become something like a god. It was just really long though, which was sort of disappointing. The people I investigated it with were ve~ry fun though.
[ A shy smile, before he lowers their hands again. ]
And what has Anya been getting up to...? Please don't tell me you've been getting into any trouble. I think my heart would give out.
The thought that she'd want him to stay with her is so much— if she wanted to be selfish with him, he wouldn't mind. He wants to stay with her too, and the thought that this work he's doing is just voluntary, that he really could just stay if he wanted to...
Would he?
...Maybe, but it feels wrong to, to not see his responsibilities through. He'll feel better being able to come back having helped in some way—having proven that despite his lack of skills, despite everything, he can still do something. He hasn't quite resigned himself out of the dream of having an ordinary school life, but the feeling of being utterly helpless from Goro when they spoke about his ordeal... it isn't something he likes.
Liked. Likes. He slowly, unthinkingly, brings their joined hands up and— almost kisses the knuckles of hers, remembers himself soon enough when it's in his line of sight that he just squeezes instead. ]
I will. Don't worry about that... I haven't really been chasing stuff that's too dangerous anyway. My first task, I helped out a lot of workers, right? I got a reward from them too. [ It was a small metal cat statuette. For his bff. ] And then my next one, we went to a ladder that was supposed to be infinite... Like, it'd loop around as you went down it, and if you could figure out how to step off of it, you'd become something like a god. It was just really long though, which was sort of disappointing. The people I investigated it with were ve~ry fun though.
[ A shy smile, before he lowers their hands again. ]
And what has Anya been getting up to...? Please don't tell me you've been getting into any trouble. I think my heart would give out.
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