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constellates) wrote2020-01-25 08:03 am
constellates) wrote2020-01-25 08:03 amic inbox.
ANASTASIA
Hello. Call me Anya. (･ω´-ゞ)^☆
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constellates) wrote2020-01-25 08:03 am
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i do not like to
but if it is very very important to yuuko
i will
but please do not make me lie to him
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[ She trusts Anya enough.
So. There is a long af pause. ]
ryoji is my boyfriend
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ok
i am happy if you are happy !
i promise
ryoji is a good person and i am sure he will care for yuuko
but i am confused
i do not understand
what about mikoto
why am i not telling yato
do i not tell aki too
[not that ryoji isn't lovable - she just had this conversation with karkat
and anya can't deny that he's sweet. he made her heart flip a couple times too, even managing to get her to consider dating him (but that door closes so firmly that she internally winces now but it is ok, it doesn't matter if yuuko is happy)
but
????]
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she doesn't think anya's as happy as she says she is, but again, that's another matter. ]
aki will kill ryoji so don't tell her
yato...
he's done so much for me
for mikoto
i don't want him to think that everything he's done for us was for nothing
as for mikoto
i don't know
[ She could be more eloquent about it, but. It's easier to type than the painful truth? Sorry for the ???, Anya. ]
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it's not in Anya to lecture or be strict. it's not. she can be stubborn and hardheaded but she's never been the type to think that she knows any better than anyone else
but this sort of thing... Isn't it kind of - tangled?]
aki loves you
i do not think she will take away someone who makes you smile
i will not tell yato
promise
it is yuukos choice
but for mikoto
i do not understand
i do not know if i will
but i hope you do what makes you happy
[... without making other people sad - is what she wants to say. but that's mean isn't it? she knows yuuko would never mean anyone harm after all.]
if ryoji makes your heart beat faster
and want to say things like love
and believe in kindness and a beautiful world then
everything will be ok !
i hope yuuko believes that too
because we all want you to be happy
but now anya is saying too much
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it's fine
thank you, anya
[ Anya has said nothing but kind things, after all. ]
i...
thought i loved mikoto
but around him, i was scared
that he wouldn't like me
or at least
the parts of me i didn't show him
mikoto's a good guy
but saying all those things, doing all those things for him...
getting his hopes up...
it was irresponsible of me
especially when i didn't believe
that he would love me back
[ And even if he did, she doesn't know if he'd understand her the way Ryoji does. ]
no...
i know that he likes me
but i still can't accept it
why?
[ Because he deserves someone less selfish, and she knows it. ]
...
i'm the worst, aren't i?
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do not think that way
it is because you think bad of yourself
that you were scared to show mikoto ?
yes ?
i think
even though we love yuuko
and we will love you through everything
mistakes are made
i have made mistakes too
i said yes to dates that i did not mean
to people that did not make my heart beat faster
but we are lucky
and we are learning
people love us even when we make mistakes
because we are not only mistakes
we are good things
like being kind and loyal and fun
and yuuko is all of that and more
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that means a lot to me
[ Her friends love her despite herself. Ryoji, too. It's hard not to think about the bad things that have happened or the bad things she's done, but at the very least, it's the sort of kindness Anya showers her with that gets her through the day. ]
i'm not a good person
but i want to give ryoji everything...
so i'll be better
i won't be scared anymore
[ She can't promise this, she knows she can't, but she has to try. She doesn't want to hurt anyone again. ]
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you do not have to be scared
everyone has bad things
if ryoji hid bad things then yuuko would be sad
yes ? like that
it is both sides
i think the best relationship is where you shared good things and bad things
that is love
i hope yuuko finds that love with ryoji
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me too
[ He'll learn in time. ]
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anya will pass on your message
but if he promised to meet you for lunch
then he will be there fo sure
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ryoji always makes good on his promises
spasibo♪ (? i don't have cyrillic on my phone)
thank you♥
[ though really... what's anya doing with ryoji's phone?
she'll have to ask him about that later. ]