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why ?
if you are different
that is still ok ?
koushuu you should hope more
if you are different
that is still ok ?
koushuu you should hope more
yes
because the pain of not knowing
wondering
why did they not tell me
did i do something wrong
are they mad
it is
more
it is worse
because the pain of not knowing
wondering
why did they not tell me
did i do something wrong
are they mad
it is
more
it is worse
i
yea
i get that
i'm sorry
i don't know if i need to say so
but i want you to know
i was never mad at you
or anything like that
and you didn't do anything wrong
anya is
no
anya will always be
my important friend
i just
i dunno
been trying to work out
how i feel? if that makes sense
but i know
i still want to be around you
if that's okay
yea
i get that
i'm sorry
i don't know if i need to say so
but i want you to know
i was never mad at you
or anything like that
and you didn't do anything wrong
anya is
no
anya will always be
my important friend
i just
i dunno
been trying to work out
how i feel? if that makes sense
but i know
i still want to be around you
if that's okay
Mm? Auntie? Yes!
[why do her family figures keep giving her calls like this]
Прости? Why?
[why do her family figures keep giving her calls like this]
Прости? Why?
it is okay !
very okay !!!!
[SHE'S TOO EXCITED TO SEND ANYTHING ELSE
DON'T LEAVE HER PLEASE]
very okay !!!!
[SHE'S TOO EXCITED TO SEND ANYTHING ELSE
DON'T LEAVE HER PLEASE]
no ??
does shin want to get stronger ?
train with anya !
does shin want to get stronger ?
train with anya !
[ . . . . nope. She's just tilting her head.]
Mm...?
Malik said to meet here...
[AND SO.
HERE SHE IS.]
Cотрудник... the officer is looking for you, yes?
Mm...?
Malik said to meet here...
[AND SO.
HERE SHE IS.]
Cотрудник... the officer is looking for you, yes?
Ah... some people do not remember.
[A little quieter - some people have even forgotten, acting as if the way she speaks now is how it's always been. Her own mother... but then she perks up again, forcing herself past that.]
Улучшен... It is okay, because it is better now. Do not worry.
Why did senpai ask...?
[A little quieter - some people have even forgotten, acting as if the way she speaks now is how it's always been. Her own mother... but then she perks up again, forcing herself past that.]
Улучшен... It is okay, because it is better now. Do not worry.
Why did senpai ask...?
Probably.... that is okay, now you will be like her!
[And Anya thinks that's great?? If Naoto has a simple set of memories like dancing, that's fine, right?]
Жанр... The type today is not ballet, but I think it will be more fun? Easy modern! We should stretch first, then dancing, okay?
[And Anya thinks that's great?? If Naoto has a simple set of memories like dancing, that's fine, right?]
Жанр... The type today is not ballet, but I think it will be more fun? Easy modern! We should stretch first, then dancing, okay?
[SHE CLINGS ON FOR AN EXTRA SECOND - just because she's so reluctant to let Yato go these days. But then she pulls back and giggles faintly, shaking her head.]
Yato...!
If you say it like that, it feels like... назад? Anya is going backwards a little bit.
Yato...!
If you say it like that, it feels like... назад? Anya is going backwards a little bit.
It's just...
[ sigh. it's been a few days since his initial freakout and though he's gotten multitudes of support from friends and strangers alike, it's still hard getting used to seeing it in the mirror every morning ]
I'm not sure if you've seen me around the agency lately, but... Here.
[ give him a moment to send her a selfie of his silver-haired self and his icy blue eyes, temporarily back because of it being a photograph. ]
I woke up like this a few days ago.
[ sigh. it's been a few days since his initial freakout and though he's gotten multitudes of support from friends and strangers alike, it's still hard getting used to seeing it in the mirror every morning ]
I'm not sure if you've seen me around the agency lately, but... Here.
[ give him a moment to send her a selfie of his silver-haired self and his icy blue eyes, temporarily back because of it being a photograph. ]
I woke up like this a few days ago.
[Ah - she blinks in confusion as she sees it and.... then giggles faintly when she responds.]
.... лунный свет.
When it happened to Anya, someone important to me said - ah, it looks like moonlight. Or maybe starlight. The one that I thought was prettier.
I see it now, on senpai.
It is scary... but I hope you do not think it is bad.
.... лунный свет.
When it happened to Anya, someone important to me said - ah, it looks like moonlight. Or maybe starlight. The one that I thought was prettier.
I see it now, on senpai.
It is scary... but I hope you do not think it is bad.
Moonlight...
[ he's never thought of it that way, to be honest. keito had described it as actual silver - a precious metal sought after by everyone, but this is entirely different. a good kind of different. there's a bit of a smile in his voice when he speaks again. ]
Your friend's rather eloquent, I can give them that. I'm still getting used to it myself, but I can't say that I like it just yet. Maybe it'll grow on me in time.
Apparently this silver-hair blue-eye color is common enough in both our worlds...? I don't get it myself, but knowing that I'm not the only one looking like this out there puts me at ease.
Thank you, Anya. ♪
[ he's never thought of it that way, to be honest. keito had described it as actual silver - a precious metal sought after by everyone, but this is entirely different. a good kind of different. there's a bit of a smile in his voice when he speaks again. ]
Your friend's rather eloquent, I can give them that. I'm still getting used to it myself, but I can't say that I like it just yet. Maybe it'll grow on me in time.
Apparently this silver-hair blue-eye color is common enough in both our worlds...? I don't get it myself, but knowing that I'm not the only one looking like this out there puts me at ease.
Thank you, Anya. ♪
Well, of course first I want to know how you are. What's been happening and all. And secondly I have some news to share.
[being an aunt first is what matters.]
[being an aunt first is what matters.]
[ . . . um.
Well she's honest so.]
... Anya got to date someone for a month.
[ . . . but, well.]
Well she's honest so.]
... Anya got to date someone for a month.
[ . . . but, well.]
...Oh, katzi.
[suddenly, she feels a bit guilty for her news.]
What happened? Did he fall asleep?
[suddenly, she feels a bit guilty for her news.]
What happened? Did he fall asleep?
[ . . . her voice is softer, humming faintly.]
Mожет быть... He left - but he is traveling to dance! [and her voice picks up somewhere along the way - ]
Big dreams... Yuratchka is doing good things.
[so.
so she can't be sad. this is what he wanted.]
Mожет быть... He left - but he is traveling to dance! [and her voice picks up somewhere along the way - ]
Big dreams... Yuratchka is doing good things.
[so.
so she can't be sad. this is what he wanted.]
[Anya laughs faintly at that - Yuri did have good words that day, even if it's partially because they were the only words she understood clearly without translation.]
Mm, now it is согласование! We are matching.
You do not need to worry, senpai, you still are not alone.
Mm, now it is согласование! We are matching.
You do not need to worry, senpai, you still are not alone.
...So it was him, huh?
[she can't blame Anya for not saying anything, it's been a crazy month.]
Boys. They tell you one thing and go off and do another. If he ever comes back, you're within your rights to yell at him for this. I'm sorry, my dear, I know it's not easy to ever say goodbye to someone. Was he at least a man and said it to your face?
[how she wishes she could hug Anya right now.]
[she can't blame Anya for not saying anything, it's been a crazy month.]
Boys. They tell you one thing and go off and do another. If he ever comes back, you're within your rights to yell at him for this. I'm sorry, my dear, I know it's not easy to ever say goodbye to someone. Was he at least a man and said it to your face?
[how she wishes she could hug Anya right now.]
[there is a little laugh at that - ]
Ah - Yuratchka is always good. Fair. We both said....
[she trails off - but the point is clear, she thinks. it was mutual.]
He said before - even if we are not close, we are always friends.... Кроме. Sometimes things are done away from each other, but that is okay. [She rests a hand over her heart even as she holds the phone to her ear. It aches a little bit.] ... I want to believe him.
He is doing good things. I want to be happy for him.
It is okay. I can miss him and support at the same time.
Ah - Yuratchka is always good. Fair. We both said....
[she trails off - but the point is clear, she thinks. it was mutual.]
He said before - even if we are not close, we are always friends.... Кроме. Sometimes things are done away from each other, but that is okay. [She rests a hand over her heart even as she holds the phone to her ear. It aches a little bit.] ... I want to believe him.
He is doing good things. I want to be happy for him.
It is okay. I can miss him and support at the same time.
Not alone, huh...
[ he realizes that now - that even with total strangers he's never met outside the app before or even aggravating characters like yato, they all still support him in a way. even if he's always presented himself as a total asshole. ]
Well, I'd better get going. I've bothered you for too long - take care of yourself as always, okay?
[ he realizes that now - that even with total strangers he's never met outside the app before or even aggravating characters like yato, they all still support him in a way. even if he's always presented himself as a total asshole. ]
Well, I'd better get going. I've bothered you for too long - take care of yourself as always, okay?
...If that is what your heart tells you, then I won't go and get angry on your behalf. I don't think it's fair, but that you two can still know each other is a precious, precious thing. Means you two were meant to be linked in your hearts, just perhaps not in that particular way.
[and who knows, she thinks. he could come back, beg her forgiveness. but that sort of thing happens in books only, she thinks.]
Still. If it lingers in your head and you need to get your feelings out, you know you can always call. I know that such a thing...you need time before it stops feeling so new, longer than you might think. Or even if it does not linger, still call.
[and who knows, she thinks. he could come back, beg her forgiveness. but that sort of thing happens in books only, she thinks.]
Still. If it lingers in your head and you need to get your feelings out, you know you can always call. I know that such a thing...you need time before it stops feeling so new, longer than you might think. Or even if it does not linger, still call.
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