[she can't blame Anya for not saying anything, it's been a crazy month.]
Boys. They tell you one thing and go off and do another. If he ever comes back, you're within your rights to yell at him for this. I'm sorry, my dear, I know it's not easy to ever say goodbye to someone. Was he at least a man and said it to your face?
Ah - Yuratchka is always good. Fair. We both said....
[she trails off - but the point is clear, she thinks. it was mutual.]
He said before - even if we are not close, we are always friends.... Кроме. Sometimes things are done away from each other, but that is okay. [She rests a hand over her heart even as she holds the phone to her ear. It aches a little bit.] ... I want to believe him.
He is doing good things. I want to be happy for him.
It is okay. I can miss him and support at the same time.
...If that is what your heart tells you, then I won't go and get angry on your behalf. I don't think it's fair, but that you two can still know each other is a precious, precious thing. Means you two were meant to be linked in your hearts, just perhaps not in that particular way.
[and who knows, she thinks. he could come back, beg her forgiveness. but that sort of thing happens in books only, she thinks.]
Still. If it lingers in your head and you need to get your feelings out, you know you can always call. I know that such a thing...you need time before it stops feeling so new, longer than you might think. Or even if it does not linger, still call.
[There's a little bit of a laugh there - expressing her feelings has gotten harder over time... but her heart feels warm in this moment from Grell's concern.]
... да. It is what Auntie says. Anya will call when I need to.
But that is not what you called about, is it? Did you have something new for Anya?
[She deflects - just a little. She doesn't think she's ready to talk about it right now. Not entirely sure when she will be....
[and Grell laughs, happy that Anya's happy with the news. she knows Anya had been concerned back when Ardyn had just been joking about marriage, but now...now it was real.]
We haven't thought about a wedding yet, there's more than enough time for that and you'll be told when we do - just a future someday. And there's not a ring yet because we didn't plan for it. More that it simply came up when we chose to share our hearts. When we do it over, properly romantic, there will be one.
[There's a bit of a laugh at that, but she shares in Grell's giddiness. There's no hesitation in the way that she unflinchingly supports her auntie? Listen, love is alive and well and if Grell found it then that means more to her than anything else.]
A future....
Mm. Good. [She also remembers being the one to text Ardyn about it way back when...] He is a good man. You are wonderful.
Bместе... Together is a very good future for you both. Spontaneous because it is meant to be? That sounds like something Auntie would do.
You think so? It took me a few days to really accept that it was all real.
[which is why she hadn't told Anya immediately....it needed to sink in.]
But I can't care that it wasn't planned. It feels exactly as it should be - that if we're going to talk about forever, this is just a natural part of it.
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[suddenly, she feels a bit guilty for her news.]
What happened? Did he fall asleep?
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Mожет быть... He left - but he is traveling to dance! [and her voice picks up somewhere along the way - ]
Big dreams... Yuratchka is doing good things.
[so.
so she can't be sad. this is what he wanted.]
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[she can't blame Anya for not saying anything, it's been a crazy month.]
Boys. They tell you one thing and go off and do another. If he ever comes back, you're within your rights to yell at him for this. I'm sorry, my dear, I know it's not easy to ever say goodbye to someone. Was he at least a man and said it to your face?
[how she wishes she could hug Anya right now.]
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Ah - Yuratchka is always good. Fair. We both said....
[she trails off - but the point is clear, she thinks. it was mutual.]
He said before - even if we are not close, we are always friends.... Кроме. Sometimes things are done away from each other, but that is okay. [She rests a hand over her heart even as she holds the phone to her ear. It aches a little bit.] ... I want to believe him.
He is doing good things. I want to be happy for him.
It is okay. I can miss him and support at the same time.
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[and who knows, she thinks. he could come back, beg her forgiveness. but that sort of thing happens in books only, she thinks.]
Still. If it lingers in your head and you need to get your feelings out, you know you can always call. I know that such a thing...you need time before it stops feeling so new, longer than you might think. Or even if it does not linger, still call.
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... да. It is what Auntie says. Anya will call when I need to.
But that is not what you called about, is it? Did you have something new for Anya?
[She deflects - just a little. She doesn't think she's ready to talk about it right now. Not entirely sure when she will be....
Later, maybe.
Later.]
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[even if it was news she felt almost bad about sharing, from that pang of love and concern, she can't keep it from her niece. would never, actually.]
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[No hesitation. Anya perks up immediately.]
Always! I want to know every good thing that happens to Auntie.
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[then she'll heed Anya's wishes. perhaps the news will cheer her a little instead, to know love still exists.]
I'm engaged now, Anya. Ardyn asked to marry me.
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followed by an incredibly delighted noise?!]
Auntie!! Мои поздравления!! Congratulations, I am so happy for you!
Wedding? When? How? Ring....?!
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We haven't thought about a wedding yet, there's more than enough time for that and you'll be told when we do - just a future someday. And there's not a ring yet because we didn't plan for it. More that it simply came up when we chose to share our hearts. When we do it over, properly romantic, there will be one.
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A future....
Mm. Good. [She also remembers being the one to text Ardyn about it way back when...] He is a good man. You are wonderful.
Bместе... Together is a very good future for you both. Spontaneous because it is meant to be? That sounds like something Auntie would do.
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[which is why she hadn't told Anya immediately....it needed to sink in.]
But I can't care that it wasn't planned. It feels exactly as it should be - that if we're going to talk about forever, this is just a natural part of it.
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Pеальность - it is definitely real, Auntie. You found someone who loves you very much and I am very happy for you. Congratulations on forever.
It is meant for you.