[ ...She wants to get off this topic, he can tell.
Tsukasa opens his mouth and... shuts it again, squeezing her hand tighter. Is this something he should push, or is it something he should let go? It's not like they know each other very well, and this is a good time for that, but—if she doesn't want to talk about it, should he... ]
That doesn't mean you can't be upset about it anyway, and—people shouldn't smile when they say things like that, either, [ he finally decides, though he's clearing his throat a moment later. ] That's, um, my final word on it... Sorry, I didn't mean to make this weird or... bring anything down.
[ Because the mood's—different. He's head-over-heels, but he isn't stupid. Well, he's sort of stupid, but— ]
I'm sorry, Anya. Do you want to do something else? [ ... ] I can walk you home, if you want.
[ - can she, though? Can she be upset about it? it's hard to navigate on her own, when there's a language barrier and too many nuances. There's more she hasn't said also but - for once she doesn't think she needs to say anymore. Sena is a good person. She knows that.
She should let go of everything he'd said to her. It's old anyway. A month at this point. So she hears the change from Tsukasa and -
Abandons the topic entirely. There's the shake of her head and a smile.]
Нет... No. Why are you sorry? You did not say anything bad. [So she'll skate in front of him and take both of his hands then, if he'll let her.] Sorry, Anya should not overthink - when I am with you, you should have my attention, yes?
I do not want to go home yet... Not when I have made you sad. Is that okay?
[ He didn't say anything bad, but that doesn't mean he said anything good, either. Tsukasa'll let her take both of them, though he stares at them for a moment and tries not to blush at when I am with you, you should have my attention, yes? ]
You haven't made me sad, don't worry. [ A little... confused and uncertain—it's hard navigating things with people his own age, when he has someone like Hinata around, who straight up doesn't think about sad things. Who thinks he should be happy as long as the people he likes are happy, that he shouldn't be sad if his love's ever unrequited.
(Tsukasa doesn't know it yet, but he has a disconcerting amount of people in his life like that.)
And Mafuyu, too—who also bulldozes, who doesn't let things get her down... who cries when she's denied fun, even though she did it to herself. And there's Anya, lovely Anya, who shines like stars, who he can't imagine doing anything but ignoring unfair words. Maybe that's unfair of him, really.
...He shakes his head again and, a little more firmly: ] You didn't. I promise, okay? And... if you really want to stay, then we can stay. I do want to dance with you again... It might be a little weird on ice, but I think it's not as hard as it seems.
[At the end of the day - Anya is always softer than most people think, and that's even when people think she has the consistency of frozen yogurt. For the people she loves, she holds their opinions in high regard and turns to them for guidance. Even when they might lead her astray.
But she gives him a smile - because that's what idols are meant to do. Bring joy to others. If she can do that, then she can still be happy with today instead of bringing down the atmosphere over.... nothing.
It was nothing.]
I do want to stay. С тобой. I want to be with you.
[ Even if... Tsuaksa exhales softly. Inhales softly. Swallows back his reservations and his questions and that stupid desire to try and drag the topic back, despite his fears...
And nods, pulling her a little closer. ]
Well... Maybe. Ice dancing is a kind of pair skating... Although, now that I think about it, I don't think it's the same as normal dancing. [ A beat, and he glances down at their skates. Uh. ...He didn't. think this through. ] Well—I think I can lift you and spin, if you want to try that kind of stuff... We'll go slowly? I wouldn't want to you to get hurt or anything.
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When he asks, she blinks. She didn't expect to stay on the topic.
She has no idea what Tsukasa thinks of her.]
... he said it with a smile. Because it is what is best for Anya. I should listen to him, because he cares about me.
Ослушаться.... I did not, because I promised Yato first. But I thought... Maybe I did not understand what he is saying. Cold words but warm smile...
[Her brow furrows.]
I did not understand.
[ - but she shakes her head, trying to dislodge the topic again.]
But that is Anya. I need to study more.
[because sena is a fond senpai to tsukasa, right? that's what he was trying to do, probably. tsukasa can handle it. anya can too.]
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Tsukasa opens his mouth and... shuts it again, squeezing her hand tighter. Is this something he should push, or is it something he should let go? It's not like they know each other very well, and this is a good time for that, but—if she doesn't want to talk about it, should he... ]
That doesn't mean you can't be upset about it anyway, and—people shouldn't smile when they say things like that, either, [ he finally decides, though he's clearing his throat a moment later. ] That's, um, my final word on it... Sorry, I didn't mean to make this weird or... bring anything down.
[ Because the mood's—different. He's head-over-heels, but he isn't stupid. Well, he's sort of stupid, but— ]
I'm sorry, Anya. Do you want to do something else? [ ... ] I can walk you home, if you want.
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She should let go of everything he'd said to her. It's old anyway. A month at this point. So she hears the change from Tsukasa and -
Abandons the topic entirely. There's the shake of her head and a smile.]
Нет... No. Why are you sorry? You did not say anything bad. [So she'll skate in front of him and take both of his hands then, if he'll let her.] Sorry, Anya should not overthink - when I am with you, you should have my attention, yes?
I do not want to go home yet... Not when I have made you sad. Is that okay?
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You haven't made me sad, don't worry. [ A little... confused and uncertain—it's hard navigating things with people his own age, when he has someone like Hinata around, who straight up doesn't think about sad things. Who thinks he should be happy as long as the people he likes are happy, that he shouldn't be sad if his love's ever unrequited.
(Tsukasa doesn't know it yet, but he has a disconcerting amount of people in his life like that.)
And Mafuyu, too—who also bulldozes, who doesn't let things get her down... who cries when she's denied fun, even though she did it to herself. And there's Anya, lovely Anya, who shines like stars, who he can't imagine doing anything but ignoring unfair words. Maybe that's unfair of him, really.
...He shakes his head again and, a little more firmly: ] You didn't. I promise, okay? And... if you really want to stay, then we can stay. I do want to dance with you again... It might be a little weird on ice, but I think it's not as hard as it seems.
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But she gives him a smile - because that's what idols are meant to do. Bring joy to others. If she can do that, then she can still be happy with today instead of bringing down the atmosphere over.... nothing.
It was nothing.]
I do want to stay. С тобой. I want to be with you.
Do you think we can dance like this...? Really?
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And nods, pulling her a little closer. ]
Well... Maybe. Ice dancing is a kind of pair skating... Although, now that I think about it, I don't think it's the same as normal dancing. [ A beat, and he glances down at their skates. Uh. ...He didn't. think this through. ] Well—I think I can lift you and spin, if you want to try that kind of stuff... We'll go slowly? I wouldn't want to you to get hurt or anything.
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Я доверяю тебе. I trust you.
[wiTHOUT EVEN FLINCHING]
We will do our best together, Tsukasa.
[and we should wrap up this thread before i give in to the urge of having anya land flat on her tuckus, bella]