[it's hard, when she wants to take beau's hand into both of hers - but she can't, too worried that her other hand will make her upset, an unfortunate reminder of the ways that anya rushed a little too quickly into danger's way.
so instead she just gives her a gentle squeeze with her good hand, holding onto it securely, warmly]
When scared, hold onto Anya. I will know, but will not tell others.
[she pauses for a moment before offering a soft smile]
Восхитительный. Beau is strong, and good. But even strong and good cannot be alone. So I will support you too.
Okay to be scared... okay to want to cry. But I am with you, always.
the look on beau's face the whole time anya's talking is - weird. strained, maybe, the sort of expression someone keeps when they're desperately holding back tears. she's already cried so much since the end of the trial and she doesn't want to do it anymore, but she might not have a choice.
deep, deep breath. it shudders. ]
You're too sweet for your own good. [ beau says, voice gritty and hoarse. ] You know that? Nobody's taken that from you. I admire that, Anya, I really do.
[ she reminds her so much of jester and it's killing her a little bit. ]
I'm gonna be okay. And I want you to know it's the same for you. If you're - if you get scared, just come find me and I'll hold on, okay?
[ . . . the smile that pulls out of anya is a soft one, even if it's a little bit sad. she's scared more than she wants to admit, in a place like this, and she can't hold beau's hand all the time. she's not like beau. she's not strong or capable or able to help in the ways that matter - she hasn't really earned the right to crumble.
especially not when - ]
To be an idol... It means to be everyone's надежда. To carry hope. [and this - she says with a little bit more pride] So it is my job to be good.
[she takes it seriously, even if there's no real need for an idol. the songs, the dances, the superfluous stuff.... but she can still take ahold of what it means to her]
Even if I worry... I know that I cannot be too scared - because there are people who care for me here. Святилище. I feel safer, with that.
Even so. Lean on me when you need, okay? I don't want it to weigh too heavy on you. [ she offers a little smile. ] Do you mind if I follow you around a bit? I don't know what you were gonna go do, but. I'd like to come with you and - maybe teach you more Halfling.
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so instead she just gives her a gentle squeeze with her good hand, holding onto it securely, warmly]
When scared, hold onto Anya. I will know, but will not tell others.
[she pauses for a moment before offering a soft smile]
Восхитительный. Beau is strong, and good. But even strong and good cannot be alone. So I will support you too.
Okay to be scared... okay to want to cry. But I am with you, always.
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the look on beau's face the whole time anya's talking is - weird. strained, maybe, the sort of expression someone keeps when they're desperately holding back tears. she's already cried so much since the end of the trial and she doesn't want to do it anymore, but she might not have a choice.
deep, deep breath. it shudders. ]
You're too sweet for your own good. [ beau says, voice gritty and hoarse. ] You know that? Nobody's taken that from you. I admire that, Anya, I really do.
[ she reminds her so much of jester and it's killing her a little bit. ]
I'm gonna be okay. And I want you to know it's the same for you. If you're - if you get scared, just come find me and I'll hold on, okay?
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especially not when - ]
To be an idol... It means to be everyone's надежда. To carry hope. [and this - she says with a little bit more pride] So it is my job to be good.
[she takes it seriously, even if there's no real need for an idol. the songs, the dances, the superfluous stuff.... but she can still take ahold of what it means to her]
Even if I worry... I know that I cannot be too scared - because there are people who care for me here. Святилище. I feel safer, with that.
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Even so. Lean on me when you need, okay? I don't want it to weigh too heavy on you. [ she offers a little smile. ] Do you mind if I follow you around a bit? I don't know what you were gonna go do, but. I'd like to come with you and - maybe teach you more Halfling.
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... Звезды. I was going to see stars. They always make me feel safe, even if these are not my stars.
To share with Beau would make me happy.