[ she doesn't want to, is the thing. she doesn't want to feel any of this. ]
He's. He's a good kid, Anya. [ she says, closing her eyes. she allows the touch. ] Thing is, you spend a week in someone else's emotions and it's - fucking impossible to think otherwise.
[ . . . she nods. and will continue to just gently wipe at beau's face, trying to help ease the tears away even if she can only help in the most basic, most literal sense]
... I know. He is my friend.
[she likes hunter. a lot.]
But... Неполное. Not over yet. Do not need to say goodbye yet.
I know. I hope the antidote works. I don't know what I'm gonna do if it doesn't. [ a hoarse sort of laugh. ] He's still in there, you know? I can - I can feel what he's feeling and it isn't monstrous.
[she probably does - and to hear the word in her own language manages to get anya to smile. she gives beau's hand a squeeze before her other arm gets brought around her neck to pull her in for a hug]
Пожалуйста. ["You're welcome."]
... you do very much for us, Beau. Very strong, and very good.
Because you are still here... I can think that everything will be okay. So please do not hurt more...
[sure she can, anya made a vodka pun once in an idol intro
and honestly anya figures that where beau's eventually going - as long as she's being even vaguely smart about it, it doesn't occur to her to stop her this time. she gets it. it's hunter.]
Bacon it is. Вкусные. Will try to make it very tasty.
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I'm scared of hurting you. [ beau says, after a moment. but. ] I'm - I'm fine. Fine enough. I've been through worse.
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... If Beau is not fine, it is okay.
You can feel, too.
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He's. He's a good kid, Anya. [ she says, closing her eyes. she allows the touch. ] Thing is, you spend a week in someone else's emotions and it's - fucking impossible to think otherwise.
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... I know. He is my friend.
[she likes hunter. a lot.]
But... Неполное. Not over yet. Do not need to say goodbye yet.
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I know. I hope the antidote works. I don't know what I'm gonna do if it doesn't. [ a hoarse sort of laugh. ] He's still in there, you know? I can - I can feel what he's feeling and it isn't monstrous.
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[and she falls a little quiet - ]
To not notice all week, when he is our friend is... Пугающий. Scary.
But... when he is okay, and when antidote works, we can say welcome back - and he can try to help make all monsters disappear from this place again.
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... Yeah. [ she reaches to take the hand wiping her tears away, linking their fingers. ] You're right, I know.
[ sniff. ] Thank you.
[ actually, i'm gonna assume she knows this much: ] Спасибо.
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Пожалуйста. ["You're welcome."]
... you do very much for us, Beau. Very strong, and very good.
Because you are still here... I can think that everything will be okay. So please do not hurt more...
We need you very much. Я делаю. I need you.
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I need you, too. [ she mumbles, shoulders slumping. ] It's nice to have a bit of starshine around.
I'll survive. I can't let you guys down.
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... You will not. I will not let you down too.
Вместе. We will find a way out of this together.
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Yeah. [ she smiles just a little. ] Do you wanna go downstairs and maybe make some food? I should... probably eat, before I sit up tonight.
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Mm. Beau's favorite food is...?
[she feels like she should know this]
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Anything greasy. [ her favorite food is alcohol but she can't tell anya that. ] Bacon's good?
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and honestly anya figures that where beau's eventually going - as long as she's being even vaguely smart about it, it doesn't occur to her to stop her this time. she gets it. it's hunter.]
Bacon it is. Вкусные. Will try to make it very tasty.
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You can't really fuck up bacon -- [ she stops herself. ] Actually, no, it will be, because you're making it for me.