constellates | [ ayabe is anya's impulse control ]

[ An only child, it's pretty easy to tell, sort of like how it's easy to tell Ayabe is the exact opposite of that. ]

Anya, then. Don't you think your mama and papa are the happiest when you're happy? For me, I have five younger brothers and sisters. Nothing makes me happier than seeing them smile and grow up well.

[ It's familial love, which doesn't exactly translate to this place full of strangers, but it's the same sort of concept. Putting other people's happiness first, making sure they're all okay, ensuring that the world is both safe and happy to the best of his ability, and only then will he feel satisfied enough to be happy himself. ]

[that

is a difficult question to answer for her, so she leaves it alone for now. though at the mention of his family, she supposes that does make a little bit more sense. it's a very giving, generous kind of love that she imagines would be much easier to understand if it came down to someone who always looked after others, as opposed to someone who always received that love like anya

the topic of family distracts her ENTIRELY]

Семья... Their names? How old? You are oldest?

[ He'll just believe that Anya agrees with him wholeheartedly and she's seen the light, because he loves his family a lot and would talk about them forever, even if he does stop washing all together and lets the water run over his hands without realizing. ]

I'm the oldest. I have three brothers: Umetsugu, who's 12, and Koshiro and Akimi— the're twins— they're both 8. And two sisters: Ichika who's 13, and Kosue who just turned 7.

[look if he seems happier to talk about it, then she is too. she'll keep making these credit card cookies because she likes mammon so much it makes no logical sense]

You are... Сплоченный? Very close to each other?

[it sounds so nice.... she's almost jealous]

[ Credit card cookies for Mammon... cute.

The question makes his head dip a little, though, falling quiet so only the rush of water can be heard- and then the clank of plates as he starts washing them again so he doesn't keep the water running and waste it. ]

They're pretty close to one another, I guess. The twins play with each other the most, but for the rest of them, their ages are far enough apart that they have their own friends. Ichika would have friends over, and Umetsugu would go out.

[ And Ayabe is not in the equation at all. ]

[ . . . . hm.

That does manage to make her tilt her head.]

"To one another".... not you?

...I moved out to live in the dormitory at school, so I don't see them anymore.

[ It's a half truth, it's what he did. But he doesn't know if he can say he got along with his siblings before all of that. It always felt like, first and foremost, he was a parent to all of them before he was a brother or a friend or anything close like that. ]

[oh.... her expression drops a little bit, and a guilty feeling sits in her chest as she thinks that she would've liked to keep the softer expression on his face for longer]

... Извините. I am sorry to ask something that made you sad. School is far from home?

[ Soft Ayabe is limited to around five minutes a day, and he's maxed out, it's not Anya's fault. ]

I'm not sad... [ But he's. something. ] It's about two hours by train, it's pretty close.

[ But he never goes home to visit, and his siblings don't come visit him, it's that sort of relationship now. It'll get resolved in the manga in like the next chapter if he manages to make it out of this place alive. ]

For now, this is fine. Everybody is doing well without me.

[ ayabe is anya's impulse control ]

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