constellates | [ anya spends the entire time trying to find kanesan for hori ]

[hello hori, Anya's hand has been patched up!! she still looks.... unfashionably sad, but surely that will pass. it actually looks like she's gathered up some items - her notepad and a crayon, and tucked them under her arm - and might be on her way outside

it's a bit dark out though

so she'll peer out and linger at the door before she heads out all the way, like she's trying to make a choice]

[ ANYA...... hori's on a cleaning spree, ducking in and out of the furries, clearly in the need to do Something but he sure is just getting in the way instead. he stops though when he spots a familiar head by the windows and power walks his way over, making sure to step loud enough so that she knows he's approaching ]

Would you like some company...?

[it seems to take her a little bit to respond to the noise, like she's out of it - but she'll turn when he speaks. and she offers him a small, tired smile]

... if you are feeling better...

[she knows trial started off pretty hard on him]

Депрессии. Right now, I... may not be good to talk to though.

It's alright. We can simply watch the stars if you'd like.

[ let him return the favor from earlier ]

[well... that is what she'd like so.

she nods a little bit and automatically reaches for his hand with her good one but -

actually pulls back this time before she makes it and just starts to head out]

Okay...

[ oh..................... :( ]

Come on, let's find a good spot then.

[ he continues to smile gently at Anya even if his heart breaks. humans don't repair like they do he doesn't know what to say to reassure her. and thus, he does what he does best and stays by her side until she's able to smile again. ]

Do you think the stars are the same here?

[ . . . well, ]

... they are not.

[that's actually something she can answer, and holds her notebook closer to her as she looks up at the sky.]

Полярная звезда... North Star is not here. Constellations different.

[a beat, and then softly as she looks up]

... it was Anya's dream to find new star. But... did not think it would be like this.

[ oh.................. sad, he wanted ~~the comfort of~~ to find Sirius. ]

How strange. I wonder where we are.

[ that aside, his heart breaks for her all over again. ] ...This place is difficult, isn't it? [ especially for ones like you, goes unsaid. ]

[ . . . She is quiet then, holding her notebook tighter to her.]

... Все. Hard for everyone.

[even if she knows that she's out of her depth, even if she knows that her own strength has limitations.]

... Idol is meant to be надежда. Hope... But - I do not know if I am good at it.

[she doesn't know if she's good enough, to provide hope in even these situations.]

So.. how do give everyone hope?

You continue.

[ he doesn't even have to think about it. there are some things that just don't change no matter what title he has now ]

When everything looks to be against you and the odds look scary, you look it in the eye and continue as you are because the other option is letting the others win.

[ he smiles reaching holding out his hands for her to take ]

Even though smiling hurts and hope is hard, right now just being Anya is enough.

[ . . . she's still just a little too nervous to be willing to take both of his hands but - she's not the type to deny affection or physical touch when it's offered. she reaches out then, to hold onto his hand with her uninjured one

even if she still looks a little crestfallen]

... Is it? [she's not sure, if it's really okay for her to believe that] I do not feel like... I do enough for people.

Mm! [ he'll hold her uninjured hand like the most precious of jewels, squeezing it reassuringly ]

As long as Anya continues to do her best, then so will everyone else, right? That's the true strength of being an idol.

[ wow how does he know about that huh ]

[ anya spends the entire time trying to find kanesan for hori ]

week one, post-trial

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