I want to know others too but... does not change that I think you are - важный. Important. I think you are smart, and kind - even if ways of showing are different. I do not know why you are 'drug dealer' [look, she can read] or why you can use gun, but...
Did not change my mind. Друг. You are still my friend. I care for you, Toi, and not knowing you would make my time here very different. Абсолют. I know for certain.
it's a good question though - and anya will hum thoughtfully]
... could be... It is why I need to be smarter than now.
[she knows that it'd be better for her to take more precautions, to be more wary at least on thursday nights given that they seem to run on a schedule]
But... To be idol, means to be everyone's надежда. To be hope. So I want to believe more in good than bad, until I cannot.
[ ... he has to glance away. something about those words tug at him, leaving an ugly feeling in his chest, and it takes a few seconds for toi to be able to look at her again. ]
I hope that actually works out for you.
[ that she doesn't end up regretting that kind of view ]
... Anya will hold on to hope for Toi too - until you find it.
[since it sounds like maybe having that hope didn't work for him before - but it's still such a fragile, important thing that she wants to give it a try]
Mm... This place not good for people. Побег... We can find escape.
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[ even if he would prefer to ]
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but she nods]
Mm. So you will carry memories with you, even when not together.
Cвязь... Even when apart, I will remember you. And care for you. So I want to know you, more and more.
[she would admittedly say this to anyone but poor toi was the one who got on this topic with her, so here's max embarrassing]
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he actually starts coughing ]
Who the hell says things like that?!
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she picks up a napkin to offer to him]
Травма... Your injury...
[anyway welcome to idolm@ster, where monologues are about friendship and dreams instead of murder and corpse mountains]
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[ it HURT him ]
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Do what...?
[what did she doooooo]
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but he just shakes his head ]
Nothing.
There's no point in getting to know me.
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Почему нет? Why do you say that?
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If that person is you.
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Why...?
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[this is always the hardest part for her but]
I want to know others too but... does not change that I think you are - важный. Important. I think you are smart, and kind - even if ways of showing are different. I do not know why you are 'drug dealer' [look, she can read] or why you can use gun, but...
Did not change my mind. Друг. You are still my friend. I care for you, Toi, and not knowing you would make my time here very different. Абсолют. I know for certain.
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[ he's quiet after saying that, and instead busies himself with his food as he tries to figure out a response. or if he even wants to respond. ]
The unknown doesn't scare you? There could be a lot of bad people here.
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it's a good question though - and anya will hum thoughtfully]
... could be... It is why I need to be smarter than now.
[she knows that it'd be better for her to take more precautions, to be more wary at least on thursday nights given that they seem to run on a schedule]
But... To be idol, means to be everyone's надежда. To be hope. So I want to believe more in good than bad, until I cannot.
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I hope that actually works out for you.
[ that she doesn't end up regretting that kind of view ]
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... I hope so too.
[a beat, like she's trying to decide whether or not it's okay to ask but - ]
Созерцательный? What does Toi think?
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[ he just repeats himself, unhelpfully
... ]
I think more people might die before we actually figure anything out. But we have to get out of here.
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... Anya will hold on to hope for Toi too - until you find it.
[since it sounds like maybe having that hope didn't work for him before - but it's still such a fragile, important thing that she wants to give it a try]
Mm... This place not good for people. Побег... We can find escape.
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so he chooses not to. ]
It's either escape or die. So... we escape.