[HE'S REALLY TRYING, WOW. There's no way to really keep the surprise of her face - even as she'll let her hand rest in his more properly, fingers curling into proper hand-holding if he'll let her. She tenses a little bit only when he explains that people used to taunt him, though she is immediately distracted when he says that she made him happy. There's a lot of emotions to go through, very quickly - though it seems to settle into simple fondness.]
... If I ever meet people who said those things to you, I would be very - суровый... Stern with them.
[No bully her friends!!]
... Your mama sounds like very good person. I do not know if I am that good. [she looks sheepish - it sounds like a high compliment and she's not sure if it's good enough for her] Having friends, and people who like me is... new.
[her injured hand comes up to her hair, like how she normally plays with it self-consciously]
I look different from most people in Japan, because Anya is only half. And I cannot talk well, because there is many language to learn. So... странный. People thought I am weird, or strange. Did not talk to me, and said cold things... It was very lonely, and felt very dark. I did not think you were rude to me the same way that they were - so I did not mind.
But... it is better now - and I think, if I can make other people happy, and make you happy... I am glad to be Anya, the way I am. And... you make me happy too, the way you are. I do not dislike you. Your words warm my heart.
[He shakes his head dismissively.] Nevermind. I'm going to prove them wrong--everyone else. I don't care what they say about me. They're wrong... [It still hurts, sometimes, but, he hadn't lied when he said he'd keep going.] You, too. Whatever they say, they're... stupid. Don't listen to them. The people who matter won't treat you like that.
...
Someone from home told me... there are two phrases people never wanted to say, but they would have to say sometime in their life. "Thank you," and, "I'm sorry." I thought he was a lunatic, but... now I understand what he meant.
[But he gets it.]
I'm sorry I ran away. It was weird to hear... someone who knew how it felt, but someone who wanted to treat me as kindly as you did. That's what I want to thank you for. You and Reito... I didn't take the time to tell you what I should have. So I will... try to do better.
[Oh.... she lets out a short breath at that, even as her expression softens even more, if at all possible. She gives him a smile and tries to squeeze his hand through the shawl - she really hates being a ghost.]
... Maybe not too much better - heart might skip if you are too nice to me. But... I like when you are.
[it'd be nice if she had a little more shame but she does not.]
You remind me of... person very important to me. Always trying to do better, and learn more. But... that person got sick once, because I did not take good care of her like she took care of me and others. So... I hope you know that even if you want to do better, you are still good.
Поддержка. I will always support you - but think you can be mean to yourself too. I will get mad, if you are too harsh.
[Listen, he had to get all of that out of the way first and foremost. It had been eating at him for a long time, and he couldn't even really put it into a simple letter.
He's back to turning red for the hundredth time since he's been haunted by Anya's ghost on the living side.]
Th-Thanks...
[Embarrassing. When will he stop being red? Anyway, more importantly:]
She seems thoughtful about it for a second - like she's trying to find the right words. It's a bit different, and strange for her, because currently she is a ghostie and he is not.]
Недобросовестная. That is not fair... You did not answer.
[But well... she doesn't mind speaking first, because she is a very direct girl. All it really takes to get through to her is to be direct yourself.]
Mm... I could, I think and - I do, a little. It is a little more... сложный? Hard to explain. It is hard to say 'love' very quickly, because - apart for many weeks, and many weeks did not speak clearly to each other. [jin ling did not have a single fucking chance before he died, because she's not an M
Though as she continues - she joins him in being just a little bit red, just a little pink.]
But... now I think - might be fun, to go on date, if we had more time. I like you as friend - very certain but... think I could like you even more than that, too.
The mouth he had opened to respond falters. She'll have to be careful; he's not supposed to run away, but he's getting overheated. They're just ping ponging their embarrassment. It's fine.
In the end, she only said the exact things he had planned to say really. There can't exactly be any like when he barely spent time with her the first few weeks, and then there was nothing, and now they have a single week to speak freely again. So he's left with just nodding once, understanding. Agreeing really.]
I think... Uncle Jiang would... uh, approve of you, [wow] but... I... [WOW, his face turns super red.] Nevermind. You're right. We can... should... try friends... first. Not that--I want to--not that we have to-- Fuck.
[ . . . . this is so funny - but also really embarrassing. Wow! She kind of hates the way that she's embarrassed too, because it means she can't purely enjoy Jin Ling being embarrassed but -
Well, the fluttering feeling in her chest isn't exactly unwelcome. It makes her heart beat a bit harder, but it's not painful, so she knows it's not her rib injury. A hand comes up to her mouth to try to obscure the smile on her face at his stumbling, but she gives him a smile regardless. There's a lot that he went back and forth on there - and she actually wasn't sure if he even remotely liked her before now, but... if he's mentioning his uncle's approval...
She leans in a little bit closer - partially to play, partially so she can see his face better.]
[NO, do NOT look at his FACE. He sort of hides it down until he can't really do that anymore, so he's forced to hike his chin up again proudly.]
...I--I could! [STOP. Once he stopped being a stupid, embarrassed teenage boy.] But it isn't... that simple! If I'm--I have to return home. And you have to return home.
You have family, remember? You can't abandon them.
[She needs to tease him or else she'll die from her own embarrassment - but at the mention of that, she nods.]
... I know. I would never leave. There are people waiting for me - and a job they want me to do, that I think I finally have courage for. I do not think it is simple, or easy. Even now - have to stop being a ghost to go home.
[there's quITE A FEW BARRIERS HERE, but - ]
But... Упрямый. I think I get stubborn for what is important. So I will be stubborn in trying to see you again - like I said that I would.
I do not like saying goodbye - so I will try not to. Only... До свидания. Similar to 'goodbye' but really means 'until next we meet'.
She listens to him butcher it - before she repeats it again, slowly for him.] Da-svi-dan-ya. [ . . . but she smiles anyway, because she always likes to hear people borrow her language for the words they want to say.]
.... I will carry you in my heart, even if it takes very long time.
But... important then - to enjoy time together until we part, yes?
Edited (leave me alone sometimes you change your dialogue hours later) 2020-04-05 05:01 (UTC)
Though at that - she can't help but smile again, even if it looks like the edges want to leak out into laughter. She barely suppresses it, before giving him a smile.]
I hope not... Or I will have to be even faster to find you again, before you can.
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... If I ever meet people who said those things to you, I would be very - суровый... Stern with them.
[No bully her friends!!]
... Your mama sounds like very good person. I do not know if I am that good. [she looks sheepish - it sounds like a high compliment and she's not sure if it's good enough for her] Having friends, and people who like me is... new.
[her injured hand comes up to her hair, like how she normally plays with it self-consciously]
I look different from most people in Japan, because Anya is only half. And I cannot talk well, because there is many language to learn. So... странный. People thought I am weird, or strange. Did not talk to me, and said cold things... It was very lonely, and felt very dark. I did not think you were rude to me the same way that they were - so I did not mind.
But... it is better now - and I think, if I can make other people happy, and make you happy... I am glad to be Anya, the way I am. And... you make me happy too, the way you are. I do not dislike you. Your words warm my heart.
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...
Someone from home told me... there are two phrases people never wanted to say, but they would have to say sometime in their life. "Thank you," and, "I'm sorry." I thought he was a lunatic, but... now I understand what he meant.
[But he gets it.]
I'm sorry I ran away. It was weird to hear... someone who knew how it felt, but someone who wanted to treat me as kindly as you did. That's what I want to thank you for. You and Reito... I didn't take the time to tell you what I should have. So I will... try to do better.
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... Maybe not too much better - heart might skip if you are too nice to me. But... I like when you are.
[it'd be nice if she had a little more shame but she does not.]
You remind me of... person very important to me. Always trying to do better, and learn more. But... that person got sick once, because I did not take good care of her like she took care of me and others. So... I hope you know that even if you want to do better, you are still good.
Поддержка. I will always support you - but think you can be mean to yourself too. I will get mad, if you are too harsh.
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He's back to turning red for the hundredth time since he's been haunted by Anya's ghost on the living side.]
Th-Thanks...
[Embarrassing. When will he stop being red? Anyway, more importantly:]
Do you... like me or something...?
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She seems thoughtful about it for a second - like she's trying to find the right words. It's a bit different, and strange for her, because currently she is a ghostie and he is not.]
Недобросовестная. That is not fair... You did not answer.
[But well... she doesn't mind speaking first, because she is a very direct girl. All it really takes to get through to her is to be direct yourself.]
Mm... I could, I think and - I do, a little. It is a little more... сложный? Hard to explain. It is hard to say 'love' very quickly, because - apart for many weeks, and many weeks did not speak clearly to each other. [jin ling did not have a single fucking chance before he died, because she's not an M
Though as she continues - she joins him in being just a little bit red, just a little pink.]
But... now I think - might be fun, to go on date, if we had more time. I like you as friend - very certain but... think I could like you even more than that, too.
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The mouth he had opened to respond falters. She'll have to be careful; he's not supposed to run away, but he's getting overheated. They're just ping ponging their embarrassment. It's fine.
In the end, she only said the exact things he had planned to say really. There can't exactly be any like when he barely spent time with her the first few weeks, and then there was nothing, and now they have a single week to speak freely again. So he's left with just nodding once, understanding. Agreeing really.]
I think... Uncle Jiang would... uh, approve of you, [wow] but... I... [WOW, his face turns super red.] Nevermind. You're right. We can... should... try friends... first. Not that--I want to--not that we have to-- Fuck.
[Nailed it.]
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Well, the fluttering feeling in her chest isn't exactly unwelcome. It makes her heart beat a bit harder, but it's not painful, so she knows it's not her rib injury. A hand comes up to her mouth to try to obscure the smile on her face at his stumbling, but she gives him a smile regardless. There's a lot that he went back and forth on there - and she actually wasn't sure if he even remotely liked her before now, but... if he's mentioning his uncle's approval...
She leans in a little bit closer - partially to play, partially so she can see his face better.]
Should I ask different question?
Do you think you could like me, Ling?
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...I--I could! [STOP. Once he stopped being a stupid, embarrassed teenage boy.] But it isn't... that simple! If I'm--I have to return home. And you have to return home.
You have family, remember? You can't abandon them.
[Family is important in his culture, okay. ]
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... I know. I would never leave. There are people waiting for me - and a job they want me to do, that I think I finally have courage for. I do not think it is simple, or easy. Even now - have to stop being a ghost to go home.
[there's quITE A FEW BARRIERS HERE, but - ]
But... Упрямый. I think I get stubborn for what is important. So I will be stubborn in trying to see you again - like I said that I would.
I do not like saying goodbye - so I will try not to. Only... До свидания. Similar to 'goodbye' but really means 'until next we meet'.
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[Oh, whew. At least she... understands. But then that just makes everything worse in the long run. Truly missed connections.]
До свидания. [He butchers it, but whatever.] Fine... До свидания when this is all over, even if... it isn't possible to speak again.
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fine.
She listens to him butcher it - before she repeats it again, slowly for him.] Da-svi-dan-ya. [ . . . but she smiles anyway, because she always likes to hear people borrow her language for the words they want to say.]
.... I will carry you in my heart, even if it takes very long time.
But... important then - to enjoy time together until we part, yes?
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Yeah... [His face is hot again. Wow, he won’t EVER get how she can say things like that so boldly with a straight face.] I..
I lied before. [Obviously.] I won’t forget you.
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Though at that - she can't help but smile again, even if it looks like the edges want to leak out into laughter. She barely suppresses it, before giving him a smile.]
I hope not... Or I will have to be even faster to find you again, before you can.