[the air is scowling again at least, so there's that.]
Do you know why I died? I'll tell you—I was stabbed to death.
[yike]
But even before that, I was dying. Every particle of my body was ripping itself apart. I could see through my own hand. Every single day I could feel the time I had left running out.
I looked up your earth science—and it doesn't work anything like ours. There's no fonons, no fomicry, no fontech. If I go to another world, I won't survive. My body would just go back to being ripped apart.
[yike!!!]
So, whose world do you recommend I travel to, to live out my few remaining days?
She can't imagine that kind of situation - the amount of fear you'd experience, how you'd have to face your own death every single day. Even for her, here, she's been holding onto hope regardless. It's what she does.
And it's what she does now.]
One like this - because you are here, and you are not dying. Жизнь. You are living here, and Blue and the others know how they did it. To swing between life and death - it is not something that has not been done already.
After that, you can go to the world you want to. Reito has many people going with him, could go with Luna, with Isaac.
Мне. You could come with me.
[Because no matter how mad at him she is, she's not about to leave Asch to die.]
with the amount of magic the house used—Blue used—to summon them here... to summon him, out of death, into life, into a ghostly realm, and then back alive again...
it would be a snap.
what was his chemical makeup and life force in the face of that much power?
he was just...
angry. tired. embarrassed. exhausted. upset.
scared?
there's an inhale—and a long sigh.
and in the empty space, Asch suddenly appears—looking at the mask as he turns it in his hands.]
[ - honestly, seeing him at all manages to get Anya to deflate a little. There's no doubting the slight exhaustion in her eyes, it's probably not going to go away until Zenitsu gets an apology - but Anya, at the end of the day is a pushover and a sap.]
Почему? Why not?
[She'll let him explain then, before she makes any guesses.]
he runs a hand through his hair, and frowns, staring at something that doesn't exist to his left.]
...There's... There's no point. We don't know if it works, and there's nothing there for me, anyway. I can't be a citizen of a world I've never existed in until then.
Попытка? So you will not try before you decide it cannot happen?
[she tilts her head, a bit confused]
... Can be scary - to start new life somewhere else. Even if not very same... I moved to many places to get even more far and far away from my family. But... Начните. The start can be something even more exciting than it is scary.
Mm, I do.... Love Mama and Papa very much, and Grandma and Grandpa. But... when Anya was 10, we left Russia. Дальняя. Went to Hokkaido instead... but Anya did not have many friends there - and was not happy... So when someone told me to be idol, I did.
Went to Tokyo instead - but now Mama and Papa are very far, so it is just me in the city with Producer and my friends.
But I think it is why I can say... Even more than being afraid, better to chase new chance. I learned that here too.
[yea, she's been admitting it's not the same - but the idea of it is, she thinks. she looks a little surprised when he asks her opinion of her, but it's fine. anya's always pretty willing to lovemail her friends.]
Think right now you still need to say sorry to Zenitsu.
[SHE'S GOING TO BE VERY CLEAR SHE IS NOT LETTING HIM OFF THE HOOK FOR THAT. She really isn't stubborn about many things - you can appeal to Anya fairly easily, except when it comes to her friends. There's a decent chance she won't forgive Asch until he genuinely says sorry to Zenitsu.
... but well, it's just one part.]
В противном случае... More than that, I think you are someone who is very smart, and tries very hard to help others even if you are not clear with your actions or words. So it is why even though you did something that made me unhappy today because it happened to someone important to me, I think you did not mean bad by it.
Think you fight often and get mad, but it is not always bad. Words can be harsh, but feeling is always good, and you will try to fix what goes wrong. Молчаливый. Even when people do not ask.
I think you are good person, and I want you to have long life where you can be happy.
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Do Anya's words go through one ear and out other?
[Like. Just wondering!]
You do not have to die. Bселенная. You can go to other world with other people - it is what Reito is trying to do with Chuuya and Osamu.
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Do you know why I died? I'll tell you—I was stabbed to death.
[yike]
But even before that, I was dying. Every particle of my body was ripping itself apart. I could see through my own hand. Every single day I could feel the time I had left running out.
I looked up your earth science—and it doesn't work anything like ours. There's no fonons, no fomicry, no fontech. If I go to another world, I won't survive. My body would just go back to being ripped apart.
[yike!!!]
So, whose world do you recommend I travel to, to live out my few remaining days?
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She can't imagine that kind of situation - the amount of fear you'd experience, how you'd have to face your own death every single day. Even for her, here, she's been holding onto hope regardless. It's what she does.
And it's what she does now.]
One like this - because you are here, and you are not dying. Жизнь. You are living here, and Blue and the others know how they did it. To swing between life and death - it is not something that has not been done already.
After that, you can go to the world you want to. Reito has many people going with him, could go with Luna, with Isaac.
Мне. You could come with me.
[Because no matter how mad at him she is, she's not about to leave Asch to die.]
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she's not wrong.
with the amount of magic the house used—Blue used—to summon them here... to summon him, out of death, into life, into a ghostly realm, and then back alive again...
it would be a snap.
what was his chemical makeup and life force in the face of that much power?
he was just...
angry. tired. embarrassed. exhausted. upset.
scared?
there's an inhale—and a long sigh.
and in the empty space, Asch suddenly appears—looking at the mask as he turns it in his hands.]
No.
I can't.
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Почему? Why not?
[She'll let him explain then, before she makes any guesses.]
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[Ggghnnnnhghhghh
...
he runs a hand through his hair, and frowns, staring at something that doesn't exist to his left.]
...There's... There's no point. We don't know if it works, and there's nothing there for me, anyway. I can't be a citizen of a world I've never existed in until then.
[hypocrisy
thy name is asch]
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Попытка? So you will not try before you decide it cannot happen?
[she tilts her head, a bit confused]
... Can be scary - to start new life somewhere else. Even if not very same... I moved to many places to get even more far and far away from my family. But... Начните. The start can be something even more exciting than it is scary.
Because it means you will get to be alive.
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what?]
...You said you got along with your family.
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Mm, I do.... Love Mama and Papa very much, and Grandma and Grandpa. But... when Anya was 10, we left Russia. Дальняя. Went to Hokkaido instead... but Anya did not have many friends there - and was not happy... So when someone told me to be idol, I did.
Went to Tokyo instead - but now Mama and Papa are very far, so it is just me in the city with Producer and my friends.
But I think it is why I can say... Even more than being afraid, better to chase new chance. I learned that here too.
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...This is a little farther away than Hokkaido to Tokyo.
[he looked at an earth atlas!! but. the point. stands.
...]
What do you think of me—about me, Anya.
[it's. a little out of the blue??]
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Think right now you still need to say sorry to Zenitsu.
[SHE'S GOING TO BE VERY CLEAR SHE IS NOT LETTING HIM OFF THE HOOK FOR THAT. She really isn't stubborn about many things - you can appeal to Anya fairly easily, except when it comes to her friends. There's a decent chance she won't forgive Asch until he genuinely says sorry to Zenitsu.
... but well, it's just one part.]
В противном случае... More than that, I think you are someone who is very smart, and tries very hard to help others even if you are not clear with your actions or words. So it is why even though you did something that made me unhappy today because it happened to someone important to me, I think you did not mean bad by it.
Think you fight often and get mad, but it is not always bad. Words can be harsh, but feeling is always good, and you will try to fix what goes wrong. Молчаливый. Even when people do not ask.
I think you are good person, and I want you to have long life where you can be happy.
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oh, to have someone fight this hard in your corner.
the fight drains out of him almost visibly, and he closes his eyes.
what would that be like.]
Fine.
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Regardless, she seems to accept that - and will reach out to let her fingertips brush against the back of his hand if he'll let her.]
... Искренняя. Still meant the rest, you know.
Why did you ask?
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he doesn't move, as she touches him—no real resistance, or external reaction. on the contrary, a knot builds up in his throat.
he just shakes his head.]
Call it morbid curiosity.
[here lies his stupid life choices, RIP in pieces.]
You should go to bed. We likely have to sleep again, now.
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Ночь. It is okay - I like being awake in the night more.
Will you talk to Blue and staff to make sure you are safe tomorrow? Are you coming to Tokyo with me?
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[half lidded, his eyes look anywhere but Anya.]
Whatever tomorrow brings. We'll see.
[We'll see.]