[it's a great question - and she notices the squeeze but she just looks all the more worried, like she's sad she'll disappoint him for not being able to give an answer]
.... do not know yet.
I have a dream - to find stars that no one has seen before. But... do not know what else to do. Even before I came here... I was told to be solo idol, away from my partner.
Oдиноко - but now... even more than before, it sounds lonely.
Mm... Anya is part of duet unit. Love Laika - I did everything with Minami. Идеально. She is beautiful and brave - when Asch talks about princess, I think of Minami first. She is good at everything and means very much to me.
We are part of big project - Cinderella Girls. Many girls... but company is going through change. New director looked at Cinderella Girls and said 'Anya, go solo'. So I will be without Minami, but my friends might not get to keep being idols...
But I do not think I shine enough on my own to be good - and I do not want to be alone.
[ . . . she looks a little more bothered by the time she's done talking though, shaking her head and trying to pull her hand out of his hold]
.... Небольшой. Small, silly problem. Not like this, or what other people do.
But Anya cannot solve even small problem - so I am not good at making choice.
[freeing one hand, he reaches out—hesitates, fingers curling back—then continues forward, reaching out, tucking the edge of his fingers under Anya's chin, and gently... lifting, until her eyes meet with his.]
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he reaches up, catching the hand twirling her hair carefully, ears twitching, tail gracefully arced over his head.]
And? What have you decided for yourself, nya?
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.... Not very much.
I thought I would not be idol - but if I have my hand, maybe I can. Неуверенный. But I still do not know if that is right for me.
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[he gives her hand a squeeze—a small, utterly missable squeeze—and lets it go.]
That's the only choice you have to make for yourself.
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.... do not know yet.
I have a dream - to find stars that no one has seen before. But... do not know what else to do. Even before I came here... I was told to be solo idol, away from my partner.
Oдиноко - but now... even more than before, it sounds lonely.
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...partner?
this is NOT the right time to ask that, because he's not an uncouth boor!!!]
What's wrong with dreaming of the stars, nya?
I...
[...]
You always surround yourself with people—would you really be happy on your own, nya?
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do it
please
that said that question makes her answer very quickly:]
Нет. No. To be by myself... I would not like it.
[she says that so fast]
... but.... it is chance not all idols get.
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[hmm.]
...Look at it in a different way: if you decline the opportunity, will that give someone else who's happy on their own the chance instead, nya?
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.... Сложный. Not that easy.
Wish it was.
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[...]
Is it something to do with your partner?
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Mm... Anya is part of duet unit. Love Laika - I did everything with Minami. Идеально. She is beautiful and brave - when Asch talks about princess, I think of Minami first. She is good at everything and means very much to me.
We are part of big project - Cinderella Girls. Many girls... but company is going through change. New director looked at Cinderella Girls and said 'Anya, go solo'. So I will be without Minami, but my friends might not get to keep being idols...
But I do not think I shine enough on my own to be good - and I do not want to be alone.
[ . . . she looks a little more bothered by the time she's done talking though, shaking her head and trying to pull her hand out of his hold]
.... Небольшой. Small, silly problem. Not like this, or what other people do.
But Anya cannot solve even small problem - so I am not good at making choice.
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somehow, anya not wanting to hold hands is ten times more worrying—so instead, he wraps both hands around hers, frowning.]
It's still your worries, nya. They're not less valid, nya.
But the Anya I know wouldn't let someone push her into doing something she doesn't want to, nya.
Even on you own, you're strong, Anya-nya.
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and she pauses, frowning a little. despite that, she nods.]
... I hope I will be the person you think I am, soon.
[her whole problem is not being sure she can fulfill expectations, but she wants to. she really wants to.]
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I think you already are.
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... mm.
Well... nice of you to say....
[she just needs to believe it]
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...
...she doesn't even believe him!!!
this is so
stupid!!!!!!
it's so stupid that
he just can't contain a snort of laughter.]
You really are a monument to stubbornness, nya.
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but she will look a little amused herself - smiling anyway because he laughed a little....]
Непреднамеренное. Do not mean to be....
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this is
his opinion? that she's denying him???????]
Maybe it's a good thing, nya. After all, you said it yourself—you get stubborn for things you care about, nya.
[love yourslf you fucking fuck]