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[ - he almost kissed her.
It doesn't escape her notice, because Anya is the type to watch the people she likes very closely. So she blinks in confusion, tilts her head ever so slightly. A kiss on the hand is fine but it's - well, princely. Charming. Did he want to do that to make her feel better? Ah, he's doing a lot to try to make her feel better...
She catches up on his story a little bit late, but still tries to tune in.]
Ah...
[And she laughs faintly - ]
Нет... No... Anya has been a good girl. Everyone would get mad if I was not careful when they were away so... I have been with Katya - my best friend. Staying with the people who are here...
[ . . . and she can't do anything about the monsters. Or the mayor.]
... I am proud of you, for helping. Help enough for Anya too, okay?
It doesn't escape her notice, because Anya is the type to watch the people she likes very closely. So she blinks in confusion, tilts her head ever so slightly. A kiss on the hand is fine but it's - well, princely. Charming. Did he want to do that to make her feel better? Ah, he's doing a lot to try to make her feel better...
She catches up on his story a little bit late, but still tries to tune in.]
Ah...
[And she laughs faintly - ]
Нет... No... Anya has been a good girl. Everyone would get mad if I was not careful when they were away so... I have been with Katya - my best friend. Staying with the people who are here...
[ . . . and she can't do anything about the monsters. Or the mayor.]
... I am proud of you, for helping. Help enough for Anya too, okay?
Winning and winning.... Cтильный....! That does sound very cool. Do you know if you did win? Is the senpai here in Recollé also?
[She's just curious - she's got a lot of questions. It all sounds very dramatic and all but - ]
It sounds like a movie...
[at least she's entertained??]
[She's just curious - she's got a lot of questions. It all sounds very dramatic and all but - ]
It sounds like a movie...
[at least she's entertained??]
I don't know if we did, actually, and—yes, he is, it's Sena.
[ ...Which is kind of an issue, because it's not like they really like each other. On the other hand... Urrgh. ]
I have another one here too, apparently... I've met him and I'm still not impressed. [ He's not actually that impressed with either of them, though Sena's probably. slightly higher. ] Well, he said we were part of the same unit, and my memories are inclined to agree... It's frustrating. I wish I had nicer senpai—I wonder if that's something the other me thinks, too.
[ Food for thought. He tilts his head towards her, blinking slowly. ]
Do you have any? Senpai, I mean. Either here or in your memories.
[ ...Which is kind of an issue, because it's not like they really like each other. On the other hand... Urrgh. ]
I have another one here too, apparently... I've met him and I'm still not impressed. [ He's not actually that impressed with either of them, though Sena's probably. slightly higher. ] Well, he said we were part of the same unit, and my memories are inclined to agree... It's frustrating. I wish I had nicer senpai—I wonder if that's something the other me thinks, too.
[ Food for thought. He tilts his head towards her, blinking slowly. ]
Do you have any? Senpai, I mean. Either here or in your memories.
[ Yato has actually been in town for a couple hours already but he hasn't called Anya yet with GOOD REASON!! Here's him calling now though: ]
Good magical morning, Anya! Know who's back in town?! If you guessed "your favorite Yato-chan," then you'd be right! When can I come see you?!
Good magical morning, Anya! Know who's back in town?! If you guessed "your favorite Yato-chan," then you'd be right! When can I come see you?!
[why hasn't he called her.
IT'S NOT LIKE SHE'S BEEN WAITING FOR THIS OR ANYTHING EXCEPT - ]
Yato...!!! Теперь! Now - please...!
[she's totally been waiting for this
she's missed him so much cry]
IT'S NOT LIKE SHE'S BEEN WAITING FOR THIS OR ANYTHING EXCEPT - ]
Yato...!!! Теперь! Now - please...!
[she's totally been waiting for this
she's missed him so much cry]
[ - well this is awkward.
Anya blinks. Right. Sena. It takes a second longer for her smile to reach her eyes but it does - eventually.]
Sena... is? Mm... was...? A modeling senpai for Anya too. He is not nice to you...?
[It sounds familiar.
She doesn't say that out loud. Her hand in his tenses just a little bit, holding on just a little bit tighter - it's... complicated. Very complicated.]
Anya blinks. Right. Sena. It takes a second longer for her smile to reach her eyes but it does - eventually.]
Sena... is? Mm... was...? A modeling senpai for Anya too. He is not nice to you...?
[It sounds familiar.
She doesn't say that out loud. Her hand in his tenses just a little bit, holding on just a little bit tighter - it's... complicated. Very complicated.]
[ In front of Anya, there's a bright flash of light, a chiming FWOOSH, and then Yato trotting into existence with a small tupperware container in hand. ]
-- tight?
[ He narrowly manages to stop himself before he can run Anya over. He stares at her, confused and disoriented.
hi yato can teleport now ]
-- tight?
[ He narrowly manages to stop himself before he can run Anya over. He stares at her, confused and disoriented.
hi yato can teleport now ]
[did he just get his lunch interrupted
Anya is just as startled - blinking in confusion because there is a surprise Yato?]
Ya...?
[oh whatever.
she pockets her phone almost immediately then to be honest, immediately throwing her arms around him for a hug without thinking for even a second because there are some things more important than LOGIC and PHYSICS]
Yato...!!
Anya is just as startled - blinking in confusion because there is a surprise Yato?]
Ya...?
[oh whatever.
she pockets her phone almost immediately then to be honest, immediately throwing her arms around him for a hug without thinking for even a second because there are some things more important than LOGIC and PHYSICS]
Yato...!!
He's...
[ Tsukasa falters, trying to sort through his complicated feelings—because that's what they are, between his memories and his memories. Mizuki Sena isn't someone he'd normally go out of his way to interact with, probably.
Or maybe it's more like, normally, he's not the kind of person he'd be able to interact with. In a way, neither is Anya, though. He was just lucky—it was just chance—so much has been up to fate. He responds to the tenseness of her hand with a squeeze, looking up at the ceiling instead of at her. ]
Sena-senpai [ because saying that feels right—better, even, even though technically he isn't his senpai anymore, with the live over, even if he's that in his memories ] is difficult, I guess. I don't think he likes me very much, but he's taken advice and stuff from me... and he's given me peptalks about some stuff, too. He calls me by a nickname, both here and in my memories... I feel like in those, I'm also frustrated, but I admire him, too.
[ ... ]
There's a memory I have of when I first went to join that unit. [ Softer, closing his eyes to see it better. ] I didn't have eyes for anyone but Sena-senpai—I even ignored someone who I called "oniisama," who seemed amused that I hadn't even noticed him, because Sena-senpai was the leader of that unit then. I was really excited about mastering what he told me to so he'd have to let me join, and I was very happy when he treated me like I was a kouhai instead of some sort of noble... I guess. I think that's why. The other me's very well-off, so I bet he has a lot of people who treat him differently...
[ He trails off, lips pursing, and shakes his head before he finally turns back to her. ]
It's not that... He isn't nice, not really, but it's like... [ ...Urgh. ] He's not outright mean? Something like tough love, or something... Sena-senpai's rough around the edges, and honestly, it's really irritating? I never get this huffy about anyone though, I don't think it's right to. [ Because he's a polite boy who was raised with manners and a penchant for respecting those older than him. And to not be competitive. And to not take after his older sibling at all, essentially. ] It's just...
[ He squeezes her hand again, sighing. ]
Difficult. Please don't tell him that I'm truly thankful for what he's said to me, since I think he'd get a really big head if he knew that... I mean, I did thank him, but... [ A huff. ] He'd tease me for still thinking about all of that, since I'm sure it's no big deal to him at all.
[ Tsukasa pauses then, studying her, and tries to smile a little. ]
Sorry if I worried you. It's nothing compared to all the cheek-pulling I get from Hinata, or all the dragging around I get from Mafuyu—Sena-senpai has to compete with real bullies~. Though, they're my friends, so...
[ Tsukasa falters, trying to sort through his complicated feelings—because that's what they are, between his memories and his memories. Mizuki Sena isn't someone he'd normally go out of his way to interact with, probably.
Or maybe it's more like, normally, he's not the kind of person he'd be able to interact with. In a way, neither is Anya, though. He was just lucky—it was just chance—so much has been up to fate. He responds to the tenseness of her hand with a squeeze, looking up at the ceiling instead of at her. ]
Sena-senpai [ because saying that feels right—better, even, even though technically he isn't his senpai anymore, with the live over, even if he's that in his memories ] is difficult, I guess. I don't think he likes me very much, but he's taken advice and stuff from me... and he's given me peptalks about some stuff, too. He calls me by a nickname, both here and in my memories... I feel like in those, I'm also frustrated, but I admire him, too.
[ ... ]
There's a memory I have of when I first went to join that unit. [ Softer, closing his eyes to see it better. ] I didn't have eyes for anyone but Sena-senpai—I even ignored someone who I called "oniisama," who seemed amused that I hadn't even noticed him, because Sena-senpai was the leader of that unit then. I was really excited about mastering what he told me to so he'd have to let me join, and I was very happy when he treated me like I was a kouhai instead of some sort of noble... I guess. I think that's why. The other me's very well-off, so I bet he has a lot of people who treat him differently...
[ He trails off, lips pursing, and shakes his head before he finally turns back to her. ]
It's not that... He isn't nice, not really, but it's like... [ ...Urgh. ] He's not outright mean? Something like tough love, or something... Sena-senpai's rough around the edges, and honestly, it's really irritating? I never get this huffy about anyone though, I don't think it's right to. [ Because he's a polite boy who was raised with manners and a penchant for respecting those older than him. And to not be competitive. And to not take after his older sibling at all, essentially. ] It's just...
[ He squeezes her hand again, sighing. ]
Difficult. Please don't tell him that I'm truly thankful for what he's said to me, since I think he'd get a really big head if he knew that... I mean, I did thank him, but... [ A huff. ] He'd tease me for still thinking about all of that, since I'm sure it's no big deal to him at all.
[ Tsukasa pauses then, studying her, and tries to smile a little. ]
Sorry if I worried you. It's nothing compared to all the cheek-pulling I get from Hinata, or all the dragging around I get from Mafuyu—Sena-senpai has to compete with real bullies~. Though, they're my friends, so...
[ Tsukasa is stupid—anxious, but stupid, except being around Anya worsens the second one even as it (gently, like stoking a fire place) betters the first. He doesn't notice she's thinking, not when he's much too happy to be holding her hand like this, standing in her doorway for real, having her so close when just last night he'd been feeling so sorry for himself not being able to take her out on a Valentine's date...
...a Valentine's friend date, because he made a mistake, but it's probably better like this, for now. If he keeps thinking that, maybe it'll come true. ]
Of course. I'll pick a safe, but important, task next time as well... This Tsukasa Suzakura will do his best for the both of us. [ That makes it sound so cheesy...~ ] For now, though... Allow him to escort you to wherever your heart desires. I'd like to be out while the sun is, after all. Not that the dark is bad, but there's a lot of it underground...
[ Besides, Anya looks best under natural lighting ♪ ]
...a Valentine's friend date, because he made a mistake, but it's probably better like this, for now. If he keeps thinking that, maybe it'll come true. ]
Of course. I'll pick a safe, but important, task next time as well... This Tsukasa Suzakura will do his best for the both of us. [ That makes it sound so cheesy...~ ] For now, though... Allow him to escort you to wherever your heart desires. I'd like to be out while the sun is, after all. Not that the dark is bad, but there's a lot of it underground...
[ Besides, Anya looks best under natural lighting ♪ ]
[ Yato is still confused but he CAN'T COMPLAIN!! He quickly pockets his own phone before throwing his free arm around Anya for the half-hug of a lifetime. Thank god that showering was the first thing he did when he got back home, because he snuggles her good.
Yato is in pretty good shape overall; he's been fortunate enough that the worst he's had to endure was a tedious puzzle or two. ]
Hey, kiddo!! The big man let us come back for a day 'cause we were doing a good job. Been keeping your nose out of trouble?
Yato is in pretty good shape overall; he's been fortunate enough that the worst he's had to endure was a tedious puzzle or two. ]
Hey, kiddo!! The big man let us come back for a day 'cause we were doing a good job. Been keeping your nose out of trouble?
i do not know ?
(・・。)ゞ i saw shuji today at the store
and we talked for a little
now we are
stuck ?
i cannot leave him ....
(・・。)ゞ i saw shuji today at the store
and we talked for a little
now we are
stuck ?
i cannot leave him ....
[it sure is time for snuggles?? thank goodness he's not hurt - and she's immediately going to cling onto him because he's hoooome. her yato is hoooooome and she makes a happy little noise against the fabric of his sweatsuit]
Да! Anya has been good, I promise.
You are only here for a day...?
Да! Anya has been good, I promise.
You are only here for a day...?
!! ice cream please !
°˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°
you will have to tell me all your adventures
i want to hear everything
is it fun ? did you see monkeys ?
°˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°
you will have to tell me all your adventures
i want to hear everything
is it fun ? did you see monkeys ?
[Anya gives him a smile at that - nodding easily even as she goes to shut the door of her home behind her. She doesn't need much, everything that she could really need is already on her person. Phone, check. House keys, check! So she'll otherwise squeeze his hand in hers and hum happily.]
Then to the sun we will go.
Лошади? We can still go see the horses? Does Tsukasa still want to?
Then to the sun we will go.
Лошади? We can still go see the horses? Does Tsukasa still want to?
[That sounds familiar too. Anya listens, she listens and she listens and she listens - and it makes sense to her. She nods along, because she thinks that Sena is a nice person. Of course she does. He'd been kind to her and called her his kouhai and they'd had their siblings photo shoot so long ago—
Before he panicked on her.
Then their next meeting was in a hospital room after Yato was in a coma, after Chuuya had died, and Anya wasn't able to support Sena through his own experiences. She blinks through those memories as she listens and nods....]
He is... неуклюжим? Not always graceful with his words. Even if he means good things, I think.
[ . . . a nod.]
I am happy - if he is an idol in another life.
He hated them here.
[She nearly stops there.
... but Tsukasa had said - if Anya wants to talk about something, she can talk to him. Right? She needs to tell people things. That is what her closest friends have told her. She needs to... get better at that. So she manages a small smile even if it crumples a little weakly around the corners.]
He did not want me to be one... [ - but that sounds mean, doesn't it? She doesn't want to make anyone think that. So she winces and amends:] Um. But he did not... mean for it to hurt, so....
Before he panicked on her.
Then their next meeting was in a hospital room after Yato was in a coma, after Chuuya had died, and Anya wasn't able to support Sena through his own experiences. She blinks through those memories as she listens and nods....]
He is... неуклюжим? Not always graceful with his words. Even if he means good things, I think.
[ . . . a nod.]
I am happy - if he is an idol in another life.
He hated them here.
[She nearly stops there.
... but Tsukasa had said - if Anya wants to talk about something, she can talk to him. Right? She needs to tell people things. That is what her closest friends have told her. She needs to... get better at that. So she manages a small smile even if it crumples a little weakly around the corners.]
He did not want me to be one... [ - but that sounds mean, doesn't it? She doesn't want to make anyone think that. So she winces and amends:] Um. But he did not... mean for it to hurt, so....
[ BUT he's with Anya now, so no time for frowns!! He beams again and presents her with the tupperware. It's full of chocolate-covered strawberries with a hint of balsamic flavoring!! Each one is randomly decorated with an "I", "❤", or "U" in white chocolate... ]
Let's make every second count! Happy late Valentine's, Anya!! I made these for you as soon as I could. I put 'em together in a hurry, but they still contain just as much love!!
Let's make every second count! Happy late Valentine's, Anya!! I made these for you as soon as I could. I put 'em together in a hurry, but they still contain just as much love!!
[ Tsukasa's quiet, watching her as she speaks—the smile that isn't all there, the wince. He squeezes her hand, turning away and turning the memory of standing with Sena backstage over in his head instead. He had mentioned that, hadn't he. That he used to have a very strong opinion against idols. That he hadn't wanted her to pursue this road.
But— ]
We talked about that, at the live. He agreed with me when I said it felt like you were born for that kind of thing, and he said he was glad that nothing stopped you from going for it. He called you a powerhouse. [ A little smile. He isn't sure if this is anything she wants to or needs to hear, but it's what they discussed. ] Um... For what it's worth, I think he really is happy about that. I think he wants to support you, even if he doesn't know how. And...
[ Tsukasa trails off, thinking about it, and leans closer like he's telling her a secret. ]
I think he wants to be one, too. He looked pretty happy at the live, didn't he? So I think he doesn't hate idols as much as he used to, and I think a lot of that might be because of you. You look so radiant on stage, Anya. It'd be hard not to be inspired by you like that. All your hard work, your dedication... [ ...um— ] That's, um, just my two cents, though. I can't say I know Sena-senpai's real feelings or anything like that...? But, um...
[ .....he's leaning away again, clearing his throat. ]
Yeah.
But— ]
We talked about that, at the live. He agreed with me when I said it felt like you were born for that kind of thing, and he said he was glad that nothing stopped you from going for it. He called you a powerhouse. [ A little smile. He isn't sure if this is anything she wants to or needs to hear, but it's what they discussed. ] Um... For what it's worth, I think he really is happy about that. I think he wants to support you, even if he doesn't know how. And...
[ Tsukasa trails off, thinking about it, and leans closer like he's telling her a secret. ]
I think he wants to be one, too. He looked pretty happy at the live, didn't he? So I think he doesn't hate idols as much as he used to, and I think a lot of that might be because of you. You look so radiant on stage, Anya. It'd be hard not to be inspired by you like that. All your hard work, your dedication... [ ...um— ] That's, um, just my two cents, though. I can't say I know Sena-senpai's real feelings or anything like that...? But, um...
[ .....he's leaning away again, clearing his throat. ]
Yeah.
[ - the thing is that Anya knew all that.
Sena had said it to her too - and it was so sudden that she wondered if he'd caught a fever. It was different from everything else he'd said to her up until that point, entirely out of the blue. It was nice of him, certainly. Maybe he really did change his mind.
(... but did that erase everything else he'd ever said to her? The things that stung?)
When Tsukasa leans in closer, she matches him - and she blinks in confusion. Because of her? Sena had been to her opening concert, that had been the first time he told her to give up. Tsukasa is doing his best and Anya turns his words over in her head. Sena's a good person, Sena's a good person.
She knew that.
It's what had made all his scathing words so hard. She had wondered if she own sense of language was broken.
Instead, she's now simply convinced she shouldn't have said anything at all.
How silly of her.
Tsukasa wasn't mad about it. So it doesn't make sense for her to be unhappy about it. Anya mirrors what other people's reactions are often, and this is the first time she's talked about it to anyone and -
She won't try again.
Her smile is small, but sincere.]
... Mm. I know. He told me all those things too...
Anya is thinking too much then.
Sena had said it to her too - and it was so sudden that she wondered if he'd caught a fever. It was different from everything else he'd said to her up until that point, entirely out of the blue. It was nice of him, certainly. Maybe he really did change his mind.
(... but did that erase everything else he'd ever said to her? The things that stung?)
When Tsukasa leans in closer, she matches him - and she blinks in confusion. Because of her? Sena had been to her opening concert, that had been the first time he told her to give up. Tsukasa is doing his best and Anya turns his words over in her head. Sena's a good person, Sena's a good person.
She knew that.
It's what had made all his scathing words so hard. She had wondered if she own sense of language was broken.
Instead, she's now simply convinced she shouldn't have said anything at all.
How silly of her.
Tsukasa wasn't mad about it. So it doesn't make sense for her to be unhappy about it. Anya mirrors what other people's reactions are often, and this is the first time she's talked about it to anyone and -
She won't try again.
Her smile is small, but sincere.]
... Mm. I know. He told me all those things too...
Anya is thinking too much then.
[ Tsukasa hums slightly, swinging their hands a bit. Sena's told her all of that, but she thinks she's thinking too much...? ]
...Were you upset about it? [ Softly. ] I mean, if someone told me to ditch what I wanted to do, I would be...
[ But he has a hard time imagining Anya like that, because she seems so—determined. So ready to just go and do things. Indiscouragable. ]
...Were you upset about it? [ Softly. ] I mean, if someone told me to ditch what I wanted to do, I would be...
[ But he has a hard time imagining Anya like that, because she seems so—determined. So ready to just go and do things. Indiscouragable. ]
["Upset" is a word - and it doesn't apply to Anya often. She cries rarely, is rattled once in a blue moon, even with all the developments of the city.
When he asks, she blinks. She didn't expect to stay on the topic.
She has no idea what Tsukasa thinks of her.]
... he said it with a smile. Because it is what is best for Anya. I should listen to him, because he cares about me.
Ослушаться.... I did not, because I promised Yato first. But I thought... Maybe I did not understand what he is saying. Cold words but warm smile...
[Her brow furrows.]
I did not understand.
[ - but she shakes her head, trying to dislodge the topic again.]
But that is Anya. I need to study more.
[because sena is a fond senpai to tsukasa, right? that's what he was trying to do, probably. tsukasa can handle it. anya can too.]
When he asks, she blinks. She didn't expect to stay on the topic.
She has no idea what Tsukasa thinks of her.]
... he said it with a smile. Because it is what is best for Anya. I should listen to him, because he cares about me.
Ослушаться.... I did not, because I promised Yato first. But I thought... Maybe I did not understand what he is saying. Cold words but warm smile...
[Her brow furrows.]
I did not understand.
[ - but she shakes her head, trying to dislodge the topic again.]
But that is Anya. I need to study more.
[because sena is a fond senpai to tsukasa, right? that's what he was trying to do, probably. tsukasa can handle it. anya can too.]
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