well, i didn’t at least not for a while she didn’t tell me about it until you guys had prom because she thought I’d react badly
And...I won’t lie, I did react badly but it wasn’t because they were dating the fact she kept a secret from me hurt a lot i understand what you went through isn’t comparable but the point is...when you keep secrets from friends, it hurts when they inevitability find out it’ll make them feel like you don’t trust them so it’s fine if you don’t want to talk about things at length but if anyone asks, just tell them the truth no secrets, okay? you went through a lot, you got hurt, but you’ll be fine none of this “I won’t make people worry” stuff
if someone asks me i always tell them because i do not like lying but people do not always ask so i thought it is ok to not always say because then they will not find out and they will not need to know about a sad thing
but i think i understand it is hurtful not to know
but aki sometimes people have sad things happen but they do not tell me i think that is okay too if they do not want me to know they might have their reasons
it is not the same ?
[it's a little hard for her to reconcile. she'll tell people things that they want to know now... if they tell her that they want to know. aki, mochi, she will try to tell them from now on.
but she's never been the type to push or demand. should she always be offering up information instead?]
it depends on the person you’re not the type to push, so people don’t feel the need to tell you i guess and if you know someone is like you, it’s fine if you don’t say anything
but it’s better to err on the side of caution, anya you ever know with some people
personally... id prefer to be in the know okay? i can’t speak for anyone else
[ . . . and that message comes first, because it's what she can agree to easily. if someone tells her something that they want, anya can't say no.
but there are still some things that she keeps close to the chest. that might not be right though. it'll take time, but she'll try.]
i do not know if i can tell everyone everything bad that happens to me because sometimes people will do things that i do not like or do not ask for to try to protect me
but i know it hurts to be in the dark so i will do better
i guess to answer your question, i would the person i was wasn't a particularly good person im not entirely sure letting that kind of man roam around again free to do as he pleases is a good idea so ideally it'll end before i
i dont know turn back into that person? if that's how this works
[One day we'll all learn Nobunaga Oda was a woman but until then...]
to tell you the truth...i worry, too and i know im the type of person who always tries to have all the answers but... when it comes to what to do, i don't really know what to do, either it sounds like everyone with memories of themselves being knockoff shounen protagonists...they used to be these remarkable people who got used to all this kind of weird stuff but we weren't, for most of our lives so we're all a little out of our leagues here
not being able to take action is the worst part, huh?
hm well, when you put it that way, it sounds like that isn't really the problem, anya the problem is your perspective
don't ask yourself how to help gods or with powers or amazing people you can't give them the answers they're looking for, so at the very least you can do what anya does best
it means being their friend, dummy you didn't make friends with gods or people who are magical you made friends with normal, every day people and unless anyone's radically different from how they were when you met them, how you approach the situation doesn't have to change all that much
don't think about why they're upset or angry or confused just think about the fact that they are and do what you'd normally do to help with that
if you can't help with their specific problems, you can at least do that much and it's better than sitting on your hands in frustration, right?
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at least not for a while
she didn’t tell me about it until you guys had prom
because she thought I’d react badly
And...I won’t lie, I did react badly
but it wasn’t because they were dating
the fact she kept a secret from me hurt a lot
i understand what you went through isn’t comparable
but the point is...when you keep secrets from friends, it hurts when they inevitability find out
it’ll make them feel like you don’t trust them
so it’s fine if you don’t want to talk about things at length
but if anyone asks, just tell them the truth
no secrets, okay?
you went through a lot, you got hurt, but you’ll be fine
none of this “I won’t make people worry” stuff
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because i do not like lying
but people do not always ask
so i thought it is ok to not always say
because then they will not find out
and they will not need to know about a sad thing
but i think i understand
it is hurtful not to know
but aki
sometimes people have sad things happen but they do not tell me
i think that is okay too
if they do not want me to know
they might have their reasons
it is not the same ?
[it's a little hard for her to reconcile. she'll tell people things that they want to know now... if they tell her that they want to know. aki, mochi, she will try to tell them from now on.
but she's never been the type to push or demand. should she always be offering up information instead?]
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you’re not the type to push, so people don’t feel the need to tell you i guess
and if you know someone is like you, it’s fine if you don’t say anything
but it’s better to err on the side of caution, anya
you ever know with some people
personally...
id prefer to be in the know
okay?
i can’t speak for anyone else
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i will tell aki
[ . . . and that message comes first, because it's what she can agree to easily. if someone tells her something that they want, anya can't say no.
but there are still some things that she keeps close to the chest. that might not be right though. it'll take time, but she'll try.]
i do not know if i can tell everyone
everything bad that happens to me
because sometimes people will do things that i do not like
or do not ask for
to try to protect me
but i know it hurts to be in the dark
so i will do better
i will do my best
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as long as you understand that then it’s fine, I guess
i know it’s messy but people are complicated that way
it sucks to deal with
i don’t like this kind of thing myself
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i do not like it when i have to hide things
it would be easier if bad things do not happen
but life is not that way right now i think
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i dont know how, but one day this'll all end
im holding onto that hope
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i think
for the people who have hard things to remember
i want it to be over too
clarity, clarity...
and what if it wasn't for their sake? are you saying you wouldn't want it to be over?
[She'll ignore the question given to her for now, but she'll get back to it in a moment.]
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the things that i remember
they are
bright ?
sparkling ?
i do not know if i will forget them if everything is over
but
it is okay if i do
because i think i will find them again
a different way
it does not matter so much for me
i will always be okay
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well
i guess to answer your question, i would
the person i was wasn't a particularly good person
im not entirely sure letting that kind of man roam around again free to do as he pleases is a good idea
so ideally it'll end before i
i dont know
turn back into that person? if that's how this works
[One day we'll all learn Nobunaga Oda was a woman but until then...]
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can i tell aki something else ?
something that happened
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go on
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has memories like that
where they were not very good
and they told me
something bad happened to them
i think it is because of the memories
because they kept looking for the memories
and i did not tell them to stop
they got hurt
it was scary
i do not know what to do
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to tell you the truth...i worry, too
and i know im the type of person who always tries to have all the answers but...
when it comes to what to do, i don't really know what to do, either
it sounds like everyone with memories of themselves being knockoff shounen protagonists...they used to be these remarkable people who got used to all this kind of weird stuff
but we weren't, for most of our lives
so we're all a little out of our leagues here
not being able to take action is the worst part, huh?
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i do not have memories like that
the other anya is
brighter ?
she can use a gun maybe
but for powers
and gods
and amazing people
i do not always know what to do
or how to help
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well, when you put it that way, it sounds like that isn't really the problem, anya
the problem is your perspective
don't ask yourself how to help gods or with powers or amazing people
you can't give them the answers they're looking for, so at the very least you can do what anya does best
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what i do best ?
i still do not know what that is ...
it is not helping ?
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you didn't make friends with gods or people who are magical
you made friends with normal, every day people
and unless anyone's radically different from how they were when you met them, how you approach the situation doesn't have to change all that much
don't think about why they're upset or angry or confused
just think about the fact that they are
and do what you'd normally do to help with that
if you can't help with their specific problems, you can at least do that much
and it's better than sitting on your hands in frustration, right?
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i think i understand
being friends will never change
aki gives good advice
i will try to remember
when there are times where i do not know what to do
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i dont know much about the other anya, but
you definitely can shine a lot brighter than she can
so im sure you'll do fine
even without a gun
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really ?
[she never thought about that....]
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i dont know the other anya but i know this anya
so im biased
you definitely can surpass yourself
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then i will try my best
i never thought of it before
but i will hope
i hope the aki in this life can surpass the other aki too
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im not sure id want to though
id be happy being perfectly average my whole life
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