[slkdjkljf there's just a happy giggle at that to match beau's before anya lets her free hand twine around the other end of her shawl, and uses it to gently brush against beau's cheek to get her attention]
Нет. No, I would never.
I think Anya's heart is more silly than Beau's... but I will not say until you first.
[ wow a low blow, because beau really wants to know also. she tugs the beanie up just a little, peeking at anya. ]
It's dumb because it won't ever happen, and I don't even know if she's even - like, I don't know, it's weird, and maybe I'm weird? [ clears throat. ] I might kind of. Have a thing for Peach.
anya is just going to smile at that - because honestly beau being all blushy and sweet and embarrassed truly makes her so soft. she hums thoughtfully at that, before saying very earnestly:]
[ ABSOLUTELY NOT SHE'D DIE AND THEN WE'D BOTH BE GHOSTS ]
No. Of course not, who fucking crushes on the hosts of the murder mansion? She's not interested, there's no way, and this is really kind of my whole fucking thing, honestly? Like either I get crushes on people who don't want that or someone just straight up tells me they love me and I can't do anything about it because they're a dude!
[ beau flushes again!! rude, don't just compliment her, what does she do with that. ]
Stop, you're biased. [ she says, helplessly. ] I didn't want to say anything because there's bigger stuff to worry about, you know? If I can get her out safe with the rest of you guys... that'd be enough.
[okay a little biased, beau has been one of anya's favorite people in the whole manor since the first day? but she will think about that for a moment.]
... and you will not tell her? Even at the end? Because I think... to know someone cares for you - and that you are important to them...
Значимое. It will always mean something. It is always a sweet thing to know.
... Yeah, maybe. Maybe at the very end, if things go right. [ ugh, this ghost stuff sucks, because beau just really wants to be fidgety with her physical affection. she can't do anything more than hand hold and it's driving her nuts!! ]
[ . . . okay, that manages to get anya to be a little soothed]
... Mm. Still think sooner is good too but... know it is hard right now.
Сроки... Timing not easy but... I hope you will get more time with each other after this. Because you deserve doki dokis as much as others do - if not more.
I do not know it closely but... I think feeling of love and being loved is special.
What do you mean, you don't know it closely? You have like four boys falling all over themselves for you. [ she says, vaguely amused. ] I'll - figure something out. Once the danger's over.
You won't. [ don't be sad!! beau gives her a reassuring grin. ] They'll figure it out. Most of it is puppy crushes anyway - I doubt they've had a girl be nice to them before.
Ah - not serious, like playing... [anya is 100% going to be a goddamn heartbreaker] Mammon said one night, "We play game!!" after drinking. Brought us bottle and started spinning it.
When Anya spun - landed on Osamu. Was only going to be kiss on cheek but - проскользнул. Slipped, and...
[accidental smooch.]
... but he laughed. Very cute laugh, very... warm. [and she'll place her free hand on her chest] Heart skipped - doki. Just a little.
[it was literally such a shoujo moment and anya is very 15, she cannot be blamed for this doki]
[ WAAAAAAH. beau is too soft for this shit, she's supposed to be Tough and Hardened and here's anya just ruining her with smooch lore. ]
Ahhh, that's fucking cute though. That's good - Mammon, that's such a him thing to do. [ she's amused. ] I didn't really talk to Dazai much, but - I'm glad you got a doki for that. You deserve it.
[ that is very genuine. ] Even if it is just playing.
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beau stutters to a stop - and then laughs, slapping a hand up to her face to pull the beanie down over it!! ]
Nobody, it's stupid. You're gonna make fun of me.
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Нет. No, I would never.
I think Anya's heart is more silly than Beau's... but I will not say until you first.
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It's dumb because it won't ever happen, and I don't even know if she's even - like, I don't know, it's weird, and maybe I'm weird? [ clears throat. ] I might kind of. Have a thing for Peach.
It's just a crush, though! That's all. [ HUFF ]
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anya is just going to smile at that - because honestly beau being all blushy and sweet and embarrassed truly makes her so soft. she hums thoughtfully at that, before saying very earnestly:]
Признайтесь? Did you tell her?
If it is what your heart says - it is not weird.
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No. Of course not, who fucking crushes on the hosts of the murder mansion? She's not interested, there's no way, and this is really kind of my whole fucking thing, honestly? Like either I get crushes on people who don't want that or someone just straight up tells me they love me and I can't do anything about it because they're a dude!
[ HUFF ]
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my god]
Конечно? You are for certain she is not interested...?
[she gives beau's hand another little encouraging squeeze though]
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... Yeah? I mean, why would she be? [ genuinely... confused... ]
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and pOINT BLANK:]
Because Beau is one of best people in manor.
Глупо. To not want to be with you is... silly.
[she said "foolish",]
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Stop, you're biased. [ she says, helplessly. ] I didn't want to say anything because there's bigger stuff to worry about, you know? If I can get her out safe with the rest of you guys... that'd be enough.
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[okay a little biased, beau has been one of anya's favorite people in the whole manor since the first day? but she will think about that for a moment.]
... and you will not tell her? Even at the end? Because I think... to know someone cares for you - and that you are important to them...
Значимое. It will always mean something. It is always a sweet thing to know.
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... Yeah, maybe. Maybe at the very end, if things go right. [ ugh, this ghost stuff sucks, because beau just really wants to be fidgety with her physical affection. she can't do anything more than hand hold and it's driving her nuts!! ]
Maybe I can tell her then.
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... Mm. Still think sooner is good too but... know it is hard right now.
Сроки... Timing not easy but... I hope you will get more time with each other after this. Because you deserve doki dokis as much as others do - if not more.
I do not know it closely but... I think feeling of love and being loved is special.
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What do you mean, you don't know it closely? You have like four boys falling all over themselves for you. [ she says, vaguely amused. ] I'll - figure something out. Once the danger's over.
And you still have to tell me who yours is.
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what]
.... Eh....?
[she doesn't mean to cuck beau from an answer but
she's so confused at the idea that people are falling over themselves for her?]
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beau just bursts out in like, legit giggles. anya is the only person who ever gets this from her, i swear. ]
You're so oblivious. It's cute, that's so fucking cute.
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BEAU BURTS OUT INTO GIGGLES but anya just looks sO DISTRESSED. she squeezes beau's hand almost urgently as she just. frets. she's fretting intensely]
Ehhh? Кто? Who? Meltryllis said - Anya could be heartbreaker but -
I do not want that...!
[noooOOOO HOW DOES SHE TAKE CARE OF THESE HEARTS, WHOSE ARE THEY]
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Shh, it's fine. They're too dumb to ever say anything and I doubt they even realize it themselves. Don't worry about it, boys are fucking dumb.
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she's POUTING, beau. you made her pout.]
Mm? Eh.... Meltryllis said that too....
[that boys are dumb,]
But... do not want to be bad, or hurt them...
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[ she KNOWS that's jin ling's case. god. ]
[1/2]
but she looks thoughtful about that... before she hums softly.]
Да... Mm... If you say so.
[she only believes this bc it's beau, really]
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Anya had first kiss here. Несчастный случай. On accident.
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Oh shit, really? [ GASSPPPP ] With who? Was it nice?
[ it better have been or beau's gonna find whoever did it ]
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anya is
laughing at that and shaking her head]
Ah - not serious, like playing... [anya is 100% going to be a goddamn heartbreaker] Mammon said one night, "We play game!!" after drinking. Brought us bottle and started spinning it.
When Anya spun - landed on Osamu. Was only going to be kiss on cheek but - проскользнул. Slipped, and...
[accidental smooch.]
... but he laughed. Very cute laugh, very... warm. [and she'll place her free hand on her chest] Heart skipped - doki. Just a little.
[it was literally such a shoujo moment and anya is very 15, she cannot be blamed for this doki]
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Ahhh, that's fucking cute though. That's good - Mammon, that's such a him thing to do. [ she's amused. ] I didn't really talk to Dazai much, but - I'm glad you got a doki for that. You deserve it.
[ that is very genuine. ] Even if it is just playing.
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[but she's going to doxx him, because she loves him]
Beau and I both... will find love too, I think. Even if not here, one day. I think I would like to find someone to love.
[she's a romantic....]
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