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[ anya and hunter gonna be besties ]

there will be a shitpost here once i find a relevant one

[ . . . Slowly, she shakes her head.]

I did not talk... for long time. Because... напугана. Scared.

But if I did not talk... no one would come to me either.

[ . . . ]

Anya moved to Tokyo - later. Since someone said... I should be idol.

[and maybe she wanted to be someone worth something]

[He frowns.]

Did it stop once you did? I mean, the... not talking. The whole being scared thing. [All the same—] By the way, you can stop me if it's something you don't want to talk about.

[she shakes her head]

... I can talk now.

[to which she offers a soft smile - almost sheepish]

... I did silly things. Like at first um... autograph sign, tried to ask Producer to let me speak only in Russian, because I did not want... Неуклюжий. I did not want cool idol to sound... [she hesitates around the word, 'stupid' rests on the tip of her tongue - ] Not good.

But... is better now.

That's not silly. I mean, not to say you should still think that, but... I get why. It must have been tough for you.

[He might not understand how the language barrier can factor into it, but - that feeling of self consciousness, of embarrassment, is something he can sympathize with. A little bit softer:]

But, hey. I can promise you, you always sound cool.

[ . . . ]

Do not think so, but thank you.

[the words at least get her to smile] Непосредственный. I like... to have words to express my heart to people. Not through translator, just... me.

[so she looks a little embarrassed but - ]

Will learn more, so I can tell what I want to feel to people I want to hear it.

[He nods.]

I wonder if there are books for that in the library. I mean, if you ever wanted any pointers, I could totally help you out. Not that I'm, like, a teacher or anything, but - well, you get it.

Oh... I already study, but I could study more.

[she offers a soft little smile]

Заинтересованы? Could teach Russian or Japanese too - if you want to learn.