but she'll glance over when she hears her name called, she was probably looking for a place to stargaze outside. so when he greets her, she waves before wandering over to him]
[well he'd be correct because it's not like she thought she was more brash or anything, but - ]
When we were on bridge and the sled fell... Слабый. ["Weak."] ... I could not hold on.
[and sure, there were like 20394 reasons for that, including the fact that she only had one good hand, and jin ling also grabbed onto toi, and they were literally suspended in the air by scarf vines, but - ]
... I let go. And then - I broke my word to you after.
[when she said she wouldn't go, unless he left first.]
I knew Meltryllis would write to you each week... so I asked her to say sorry for me in her letter, and she said she would help, but - I also want to say sorry to you now.
there are a lot of things he could say right now. there were things that he wanted to tell her, if he had the chance, but now that he does... he isn't sure what to say. ]
... think everyone did all they could. [even she did - she obviously wouldn't have dropped them if she had a chance, but still - ] Everyone says sorry to me for what happened.
Ты сделал. Even you.
But why? No one meant it to happen. I did not. But I still did not stay with people I wanted to be with.
We were sorry because it shouldn't have happened. When all of this is over, and we beat the house and go home, you're going home with the memory of what happened to you. It's still shitty, even if we didn't mean for it to happen.
So... sorry.
[ even though she was still around and got to be with people after, and even has a chance to get revived now.... she still died. ]
[she literally just said that everyone is saying sorry to her - but she's just going to look to the ground then, sighing a little.
there are a couple of things she wants to say - that she's relieved that it's her, and not him or jl or nhs. because even if she has her own hopes and dreams, she thinks she can cope with failure a little better, and she thinks she can move forward with less grudges. because at the end of the day, she'll always choose for herself to be hurt instead of one of her friends, because emotionally it would've been a lot worse for her if something happened to one of them.]
... I forgive. You know this, yes? If it is what you need to hear, I forgive you.
Not mad... Воздержитесь. So please do not say sorry again.
[ honestly, if she said that out loud he would try to hit her, so it's a good thing she is transparent right now. ]
I don't need you to forgive me.
[ forgiveness won't make it better. the only thing that might is sending her back home, and that she's happy wherever she is. but being forgiven has never even registered on his radar of things he wanted. ]
But how can you try to apologize, but then turn around and say we can't?
Did not say you cannot... but it is what I hear most. Many times.
[that people are just. sorry. they keep being sorry.
actually - she's going to reach into her ghostie purse that she brought along with her, and then bring out a very neatly folded letter. it's one with everything at the beginning scribbled out, leaving only one word: 'sorry'.]
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week 6, monday
as in, toi is at the playground, swinging lightly. it has been a very busy day and they've gotten the 6pm news by this point, so
hm. he will look up when he sees anya going by. ]
Yo.
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but she'll glance over when she hears her name called, she was probably looking for a place to stargaze outside. so when he greets her, she waves before wandering over to him]
Hello. Присоединиться? Can I sit with you?
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[ it is a free playground
he will just swing a bit more ]
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[she'll go sit on the swing next to him then, moving back and forth idly]
Мысли? Anya has no penny... but what is in your thoughts?
[since, so much is happening, and all]
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[ toi don't be a jerk and answer her question ]
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No yen coin....
[she lets him get away with so much]
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[ ... ]
When are you going?
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[it's nostalgic,]
Завтра. Tomorrow. With Ling, Zenitsu, and Asch.
You?
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[ he just continued to not answer her question but it's fine. he answered the other one. ]
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Oh - then you will be safe. Освобожден. I worry less.
[because she knows for a fact that melt would take care of toi and assumes agni would too. and mammon is good.]
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Don't do anything dumb, okay?
[ SHE DIED THE LAST TIME SHE DID SOMETHING LIKE THIS ]
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just kidding. probably.
but she'll give him a sheepish smile - ] Will not...
[smashcut to anya launching herself into the air on accident bc of scythe gun.
though... she does seem to think of something then, and it makes her pause.]
... I - wanted to say sorry for last time too.
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[ he is clearly trying to figure out what exactly she is apologizing for, because she didn't seem to do anything out of the ordinary. ]
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When we were on bridge and the sled fell... Слабый. ["Weak."] ... I could not hold on.
[and sure, there were like 20394 reasons for that, including the fact that she only had one good hand, and jin ling also grabbed onto toi, and they were literally suspended in the air by scarf vines, but - ]
... I let go. And then - I broke my word to you after.
[when she said she wouldn't go, unless he left first.]
I knew Meltryllis would write to you each week... so I asked her to say sorry for me in her letter, and she said she would help, but - I also want to say sorry to you now.
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[ she's so stupid
there are a lot of things he could say right now. there were things that he wanted to tell her, if he had the chance, but now that he does... he isn't sure what to say. ]
Jin Ling and I could have done something else.
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... think everyone did all they could. [even she did - she obviously wouldn't have dropped them if she had a chance, but still - ] Everyone says sorry to me for what happened.
Ты сделал. Even you.
But why? No one meant it to happen. I did not. But I still did not stay with people I wanted to be with.
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So... sorry.
[ even though she was still around and got to be with people after, and even has a chance to get revived now.... she still died. ]
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there are a couple of things she wants to say - that she's relieved that it's her, and not him or jl or nhs. because even if she has her own hopes and dreams, she thinks she can cope with failure a little better, and she thinks she can move forward with less grudges. because at the end of the day, she'll always choose for herself to be hurt instead of one of her friends, because emotionally it would've been a lot worse for her if something happened to one of them.]
... I forgive. You know this, yes? If it is what you need to hear, I forgive you.
Not mad... Воздержитесь. So please do not say sorry again.
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I don't need you to forgive me.
[ forgiveness won't make it better. the only thing that might is sending her back home, and that she's happy wherever she is. but being forgiven has never even registered on his radar of things he wanted. ]
But how can you try to apologize, but then turn around and say we can't?
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[that people are just. sorry. they keep being sorry.
actually - she's going to reach into her ghostie purse that she brought along with her, and then bring out a very neatly folded letter. it's one with everything at the beginning scribbled out, leaving only one word: 'sorry'.]
Was this you?
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Why do you think it was me?
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seems to try to think about the best way to phrase this and then she answers:]
You are tsundere.
[a beat]
And Ling sent me letter week after with Chinese.
[so that accounts for both tsunderes she knows
and there's one other candidate, honestly, but anya doesn't think that person would care enough to write to her at all]
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[ anya is once again lucky that he cannot hit her. ]
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I thought it was okay.
[she tilts her head]
Некорректное? Was not you?
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[ she seems smart, probably. his faith in people varies by the day on that front. ]
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