I want to know others too but... does not change that I think you are - важный. Important. I think you are smart, and kind - even if ways of showing are different. I do not know why you are 'drug dealer' [look, she can read] or why you can use gun, but...
Did not change my mind. Друг. You are still my friend. I care for you, Toi, and not knowing you would make my time here very different. Абсолют. I know for certain.
it's a good question though - and anya will hum thoughtfully]
... could be... It is why I need to be smarter than now.
[she knows that it'd be better for her to take more precautions, to be more wary at least on thursday nights given that they seem to run on a schedule]
But... To be idol, means to be everyone's надежда. To be hope. So I want to believe more in good than bad, until I cannot.
[ ... he has to glance away. something about those words tug at him, leaving an ugly feeling in his chest, and it takes a few seconds for toi to be able to look at her again. ]
I hope that actually works out for you.
[ that she doesn't end up regretting that kind of view ]
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... I - could do it....
[probably]
Oружие? ... Does Toi know how to use gun?
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... yeah, actually.
Although now I'm pretty sure people think I can't.
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Исправление? What are you telling them?
[a beat]
... Anya will say what you say.
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[ he shrugs ]
It's easier that way, anyway. You don't have to answer any questions.
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[she
isn't sure, given that he's told her the truth?]
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Is learning about someone else really that important to you?
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she looks thoughtful about that question though - and will actually start to have some soba to sort of fill up the space]
... Да. Even if we have to say bye later... or something happens...
I still want to know you now.
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What's the point if we never see each other again?
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Mm... Even if we do not meet again -
Забыть? Will you forget this time?
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[ even if he would prefer to ]
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but she nods]
Mm. So you will carry memories with you, even when not together.
Cвязь... Even when apart, I will remember you. And care for you. So I want to know you, more and more.
[she would admittedly say this to anyone but poor toi was the one who got on this topic with her, so here's max embarrassing]
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he actually starts coughing ]
Who the hell says things like that?!
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she picks up a napkin to offer to him]
Травма... Your injury...
[anyway welcome to idolm@ster, where monologues are about friendship and dreams instead of murder and corpse mountains]
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[ it HURT him ]
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Do what...?
[what did she doooooo]
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but he just shakes his head ]
Nothing.
There's no point in getting to know me.
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Почему нет? Why do you say that?
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If that person is you.
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Why...?
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[this is always the hardest part for her but]
I want to know others too but... does not change that I think you are - важный. Important. I think you are smart, and kind - even if ways of showing are different. I do not know why you are 'drug dealer' [look, she can read] or why you can use gun, but...
Did not change my mind. Друг. You are still my friend. I care for you, Toi, and not knowing you would make my time here very different. Абсолют. I know for certain.
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[ he's quiet after saying that, and instead busies himself with his food as he tries to figure out a response. or if he even wants to respond. ]
The unknown doesn't scare you? There could be a lot of bad people here.
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it's a good question though - and anya will hum thoughtfully]
... could be... It is why I need to be smarter than now.
[she knows that it'd be better for her to take more precautions, to be more wary at least on thursday nights given that they seem to run on a schedule]
But... To be idol, means to be everyone's надежда. To be hope. So I want to believe more in good than bad, until I cannot.
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I hope that actually works out for you.
[ that she doesn't end up regretting that kind of view ]
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... I hope so too.
[a beat, like she's trying to decide whether or not it's okay to ask but - ]
Созерцательный? What does Toi think?
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