she still wants to argue - even though she sort of understands what he means. but it upsets her, just a bit. the idea that she should just accept that it's a little worse this time around compared to others, and losing loved ones is something to get used to. but she gets his logic, and she doesn't think it would particularly help to fight.
so instead she pauses for a little bit before holding her hand out to him, palm up]
Соболезнования. I am still sorry - you cannot see someone you like anymore.
It is not right. Even if it how things are... it is okay to feel hurt.
she's surprised, but not particularly scared. instead her expression remains in the same frown, coupled with a tilt of her head.]
Безжалостный. ... It is relentless? To have bad things happen.
[at least, from what she understands. to be in so many difficult situations that it's hard to even have hope... she reaches out instead then - only to let her fingertips on her left hand brush over the back of his hand. a brief gesture]
Then if do not want to talk - what do you want to do?
[ toi, at least, makes it known when he is deeply frustrated or bothered by something by being a crabby bitch. does he talk about it? no. but you can usually tell if something is bothering him.
Do not have to, but want to. [she pauses, like she's trying to figure out how to word it]
... Трудно. Life has not been nice to you, yes? I...
[there's a tilt of her head coupled with a furrow of her brow - ]
Maybe I do not know the words, and maybe my understanding is small. But I think in place like this, until we leave, it is possible to only have bad memories. I do not want that... for anyone.
But I do not want it for you - because you are kind, good person, even if situation is not one you deserve.
[she knows quite well about herself that she's not always this pushy. in fact, she lets most things go because it doesn't occur to her to disagree or be stubborn. she let toi hit her with a chair with pretty much nonexistent consequences
[because anya will consider a lot of people her friends and she knows that, but she has a feeling he doesn't want her to list every person she's talked to in the mansion]
... You. Beau. Mammon. Goro. Hunter. Zenitsu. Stefano. [unfortunate] Jin Ling, even if he yells at me. Horikawa. Galo.
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she still wants to argue - even though she sort of understands what he means. but it upsets her, just a bit. the idea that she should just accept that it's a little worse this time around compared to others, and losing loved ones is something to get used to. but she gets his logic, and she doesn't think it would particularly help to fight.
so instead she pauses for a little bit before holding her hand out to him, palm up]
Соболезнования. I am still sorry - you cannot see someone you like anymore.
It is not right. Even if it how things are... it is okay to feel hurt.
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[ it comes out harshly, and he regrets saying it as soon as it's out. he balls his hands into fists, unclenches them, and repeats the gesture. ]
It's-- fine if you want to get your emotions out, or talk about it, but I'm so tired of it.
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she's surprised, but not particularly scared. instead her expression remains in the same frown, coupled with a tilt of her head.]
Безжалостный. ... It is relentless? To have bad things happen.
[at least, from what she understands. to be in so many difficult situations that it's hard to even have hope... she reaches out instead then - only to let her fingertips on her left hand brush over the back of his hand. a brief gesture]
Then if do not want to talk - what do you want to do?
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[ like, forever
he takes a step back, and rubs at his hands. there's no tears, but they feel irritated-- from the lack of sleep, maybe. ]
Figure out what happened.
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... We will.
[ . . . ]
If you are tired - stay with me and Zenitsu? Компания. So... you are not alone.
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[ he lets his hands drop back to his side ]
And shouldn't you be watching out for yourself? I know you're sad.
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... Почему? Why do you think you would be in the way? I feel better knowing if you are okay but...
[honestly she has a feeling he's not okay but he doesn't want to talk about it so]
... Did something happen to your hand?
[she's not even going to touch on talking about herself anymore because two can play at that game]
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[ ... ]
I'm just kind of sore. It's actually nothing.
[ stupidity, really. ]
You're sad.
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[anya is so bad at pushing people i hate this
anyway she's just going to frown a little bit before sighing]
If Toi does not want to talk about feelings, I will not too. Ровный. It does not matter.
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[ toi, at least, makes it known when he is deeply frustrated or bothered by something by being a crabby bitch. does he talk about it? no. but you can usually tell if something is bothering him.
anya, however... ]
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I am not okay, but I cannot do anything to fix. Ушел. My friends are still not here, and we do not know why.
[it's frustrating, and saddening, and she's thinking about everything she didn't think about saying before they left, and what a mistake that was]
So I am sad, but I worry more for you - because you do not want friends, but I think you are hurting still to lose.
And I do not know how to help.
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[ although he's not sure if anya can manage not trying to help. it... is starting to seem like she needs to or else she might lose it. ]
I don't know what will make this better besides us getting out.
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... Трудно. Life has not been nice to you, yes? I...
[there's a tilt of her head coupled with a furrow of her brow - ]
Maybe I do not know the words, and maybe my understanding is small. But I think in place like this, until we leave, it is possible to only have bad memories. I do not want that... for anyone.
But I do not want it for you - because you are kind, good person, even if situation is not one you deserve.
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and he wonders how long she would have survived like that. ]
Are you always this pushy? [ he doesn't sound annoyed about it, at least. ] You'd be good at retail.
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[she knows quite well about herself that she's not always this pushy. in fact, she lets most things go because it doesn't occur to her to disagree or be stubborn. she let toi hit her with a chair with pretty much nonexistent consequences
except - ]
Only about my friends.
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and closes it, thinking. ]
Who are your friends here?
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[because anya will consider a lot of people her friends and she knows that, but she has a feeling he doesn't want her to list every person she's talked to in the mansion]
... You. Beau. Mammon. Goro. Hunter. Zenitsu. Stefano. [unfortunate] Jin Ling, even if he yells at me. Horikawa. Galo.
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[ well
jin ling is questionable. and actually toi thinks stefano was a weirdo but he's dead now. ]
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except]
You still do not want to be friends...
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I can't just say that we're friends and then we are.
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... Mm. I will try harder then. I ask very much of you...
[so the imbalance is on her end]
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stares]
... which is it...
[anya literally never knows how to read toi and she's pretty sure it's not the language barrier]
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[clears that up, hopefully]
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