it's good that Anya can't see his face right now, because he's gaping at her like she's lost her mind.]
Zenitsu's been trying to draw your romantic attention from day one! Dazai has been flirting the entire time we were in the other house—and who knows what your relationship is, now! Even Jin Ling has been trying to woo you, unless you completely missed him getting idiotically jealous when I mentioned I made you a meal!
You have men fawning all over you! If you really couldn't tell until now, then Meltryllis was more right about you than anyone!
There's so much yelling at her and she's just going to look EXHAUSTED right back.]
Zenitsu only ask to marry because he thinks he will die soon - but he will not, because he is stronger than he thinks. Ближайший. He is my closest friend. I know Osamu flirts with me, but he has feelings for Reito and Chuuya that are even stronger. I will not involve myself when I know they are trying to reach him. When we talk, it is only playing - I know he does not mean it.
[and what about jin ling, well obviously there's nothing there right—]
Ling and I did yesterday talk when I heard he liked me. But even if we like each other - время. Very little time. But that is not your business if you try to lecture me.
[did you know asch is the fucking first person to get this lore]
You're guessing too little about the feelings of people around you! Open your eyes, or whatever you need to do to figure it out—he was upset because he was afraid you'd reject him, not because I said it!
"He has never said that to me, and he will not"?! Who's putting words in his mouth, now?
... Please say sorry to him - even if only for making his choice for him in the middle of very public trial. Will not make you, but would like it if you did.
I didn't make any choice for him. I didn't force either of you to do anything. I said the truth. What the two of you do or don't do with it is up to you. But I won't make you talk to each other.
[that was apparently why he went quiet!!!]
After tomorrow, it won't even matter.
None of this will.
[it's the same tone—angery, heated—as the rest of his words
but something seems to drop off the edge—like the coastal shelf of an island, dropping into a deep trench, dark, echoing, and empty.]
[the air is scowling again at least, so there's that.]
Do you know why I died? I'll tell you—I was stabbed to death.
[yike]
But even before that, I was dying. Every particle of my body was ripping itself apart. I could see through my own hand. Every single day I could feel the time I had left running out.
I looked up your earth science—and it doesn't work anything like ours. There's no fonons, no fomicry, no fontech. If I go to another world, I won't survive. My body would just go back to being ripped apart.
[yike!!!]
So, whose world do you recommend I travel to, to live out my few remaining days?
She can't imagine that kind of situation - the amount of fear you'd experience, how you'd have to face your own death every single day. Even for her, here, she's been holding onto hope regardless. It's what she does.
And it's what she does now.]
One like this - because you are here, and you are not dying. Жизнь. You are living here, and Blue and the others know how they did it. To swing between life and death - it is not something that has not been done already.
After that, you can go to the world you want to. Reito has many people going with him, could go with Luna, with Isaac.
Мне. You could come with me.
[Because no matter how mad at him she is, she's not about to leave Asch to die.]
with the amount of magic the house used—Blue used—to summon them here... to summon him, out of death, into life, into a ghostly realm, and then back alive again...
it would be a snap.
what was his chemical makeup and life force in the face of that much power?
he was just...
angry. tired. embarrassed. exhausted. upset.
scared?
there's an inhale—and a long sigh.
and in the empty space, Asch suddenly appears—looking at the mask as he turns it in his hands.]
[ - honestly, seeing him at all manages to get Anya to deflate a little. There's no doubting the slight exhaustion in her eyes, it's probably not going to go away until Zenitsu gets an apology - but Anya, at the end of the day is a pushover and a sap.]
Почему? Why not?
[She'll let him explain then, before she makes any guesses.]
he runs a hand through his hair, and frowns, staring at something that doesn't exist to his left.]
...There's... There's no point. We don't know if it works, and there's nothing there for me, anyway. I can't be a citizen of a world I've never existed in until then.
Попытка? So you will not try before you decide it cannot happen?
[she tilts her head, a bit confused]
... Can be scary - to start new life somewhere else. Even if not very same... I moved to many places to get even more far and far away from my family. But... Начните. The start can be something even more exciting than it is scary.
Mm, I do.... Love Mama and Papa very much, and Grandma and Grandpa. But... when Anya was 10, we left Russia. Дальняя. Went to Hokkaido instead... but Anya did not have many friends there - and was not happy... So when someone told me to be idol, I did.
Went to Tokyo instead - but now Mama and Papa are very far, so it is just me in the city with Producer and my friends.
But I think it is why I can say... Even more than being afraid, better to chase new chance. I learned that here too.
[yea, she's been admitting it's not the same - but the idea of it is, she thinks. she looks a little surprised when he asks her opinion of her, but it's fine. anya's always pretty willing to lovemail her friends.]
Think right now you still need to say sorry to Zenitsu.
[SHE'S GOING TO BE VERY CLEAR SHE IS NOT LETTING HIM OFF THE HOOK FOR THAT. She really isn't stubborn about many things - you can appeal to Anya fairly easily, except when it comes to her friends. There's a decent chance she won't forgive Asch until he genuinely says sorry to Zenitsu.
... but well, it's just one part.]
В противном случае... More than that, I think you are someone who is very smart, and tries very hard to help others even if you are not clear with your actions or words. So it is why even though you did something that made me unhappy today because it happened to someone important to me, I think you did not mean bad by it.
Think you fight often and get mad, but it is not always bad. Words can be harsh, but feeling is always good, and you will try to fix what goes wrong. Молчаливый. Even when people do not ask.
I think you are good person, and I want you to have long life where you can be happy.
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THAT DENSE!!!
it's good that Anya can't see his face right now, because he's gaping at her like she's lost her mind.]
Zenitsu's been trying to draw your romantic attention from day one! Dazai has been flirting the entire time we were in the other house—and who knows what your relationship is, now! Even Jin Ling has been trying to woo you, unless you completely missed him getting idiotically jealous when I mentioned I made you a meal!
You have men fawning all over you! If you really couldn't tell until now, then Meltryllis was more right about you than anyone!
[a heartbreaker, through and through.]
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My god.
There's so much yelling at her and she's just going to look EXHAUSTED right back.]
Zenitsu only ask to marry because he thinks he will die soon - but he will not, because he is stronger than he thinks. Ближайший. He is my closest friend. I know Osamu flirts with me, but he has feelings for Reito and Chuuya that are even stronger. I will not involve myself when I know they are trying to reach him. When we talk, it is only playing - I know he does not mean it.
[and what about jin ling, well obviously there's nothing there right—]
Ling and I did yesterday talk when I heard he liked me. But even if we like each other - время. Very little time. But that is not your business if you try to lecture me.
[did you know asch is the fucking first person to get this lore]
Why are you so unhappy?
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i'm so happy.]
Why wouldn't I be? You slapped me over something you already knew!
[obstinate!]
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[i mean probably not
but i fear pcs tonight]
Only slapped you because you upset someone important to me in very big way.
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[angery empty space!!!!!]
You're guessing too little about the feelings of people around you! Open your eyes, or whatever you need to do to figure it out—he was upset because he was afraid you'd reject him, not because I said it!
"He has never said that to me, and he will not"?! Who's putting words in his mouth, now?
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but instead she just sighs]
Xорошо знакомый? You know Zenitsu very well? You talk to him very much? You know how he talks about girls, and how he feels about me?
If you are so mad, I will talk to him. But does not change you should not be able to make people's choices for them. Is that not what you hate most?
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but she can probably feel the air scowling.]
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she can.]
... Please say sorry to him - even if only for making his choice for him in the middle of very public trial. Will not make you, but would like it if you did.
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I didn't make any choice for him. I didn't force either of you to do anything. I said the truth. What the two of you do or don't do with it is up to you. But I won't make you talk to each other.
[that was apparently why he went quiet!!!]
After tomorrow, it won't even matter.
None of this will.
[it's the same tone—angery, heated—as the rest of his words
but something seems to drop off the edge—like the coastal shelf of an island, dropping into a deep trench, dark, echoing, and empty.]
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Do Anya's words go through one ear and out other?
[Like. Just wondering!]
You do not have to die. Bселенная. You can go to other world with other people - it is what Reito is trying to do with Chuuya and Osamu.
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Do you know why I died? I'll tell you—I was stabbed to death.
[yike]
But even before that, I was dying. Every particle of my body was ripping itself apart. I could see through my own hand. Every single day I could feel the time I had left running out.
I looked up your earth science—and it doesn't work anything like ours. There's no fonons, no fomicry, no fontech. If I go to another world, I won't survive. My body would just go back to being ripped apart.
[yike!!!]
So, whose world do you recommend I travel to, to live out my few remaining days?
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She can't imagine that kind of situation - the amount of fear you'd experience, how you'd have to face your own death every single day. Even for her, here, she's been holding onto hope regardless. It's what she does.
And it's what she does now.]
One like this - because you are here, and you are not dying. Жизнь. You are living here, and Blue and the others know how they did it. To swing between life and death - it is not something that has not been done already.
After that, you can go to the world you want to. Reito has many people going with him, could go with Luna, with Isaac.
Мне. You could come with me.
[Because no matter how mad at him she is, she's not about to leave Asch to die.]
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she's not wrong.
with the amount of magic the house used—Blue used—to summon them here... to summon him, out of death, into life, into a ghostly realm, and then back alive again...
it would be a snap.
what was his chemical makeup and life force in the face of that much power?
he was just...
angry. tired. embarrassed. exhausted. upset.
scared?
there's an inhale—and a long sigh.
and in the empty space, Asch suddenly appears—looking at the mask as he turns it in his hands.]
No.
I can't.
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Почему? Why not?
[She'll let him explain then, before she makes any guesses.]
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[Ggghnnnnhghhghh
...
he runs a hand through his hair, and frowns, staring at something that doesn't exist to his left.]
...There's... There's no point. We don't know if it works, and there's nothing there for me, anyway. I can't be a citizen of a world I've never existed in until then.
[hypocrisy
thy name is asch]
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Попытка? So you will not try before you decide it cannot happen?
[she tilts her head, a bit confused]
... Can be scary - to start new life somewhere else. Even if not very same... I moved to many places to get even more far and far away from my family. But... Начните. The start can be something even more exciting than it is scary.
Because it means you will get to be alive.
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what?]
...You said you got along with your family.
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Mm, I do.... Love Mama and Papa very much, and Grandma and Grandpa. But... when Anya was 10, we left Russia. Дальняя. Went to Hokkaido instead... but Anya did not have many friends there - and was not happy... So when someone told me to be idol, I did.
Went to Tokyo instead - but now Mama and Papa are very far, so it is just me in the city with Producer and my friends.
But I think it is why I can say... Even more than being afraid, better to chase new chance. I learned that here too.
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...This is a little farther away than Hokkaido to Tokyo.
[he looked at an earth atlas!! but. the point. stands.
...]
What do you think of me—about me, Anya.
[it's. a little out of the blue??]
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Think right now you still need to say sorry to Zenitsu.
[SHE'S GOING TO BE VERY CLEAR SHE IS NOT LETTING HIM OFF THE HOOK FOR THAT. She really isn't stubborn about many things - you can appeal to Anya fairly easily, except when it comes to her friends. There's a decent chance she won't forgive Asch until he genuinely says sorry to Zenitsu.
... but well, it's just one part.]
В противном случае... More than that, I think you are someone who is very smart, and tries very hard to help others even if you are not clear with your actions or words. So it is why even though you did something that made me unhappy today because it happened to someone important to me, I think you did not mean bad by it.
Think you fight often and get mad, but it is not always bad. Words can be harsh, but feeling is always good, and you will try to fix what goes wrong. Молчаливый. Even when people do not ask.
I think you are good person, and I want you to have long life where you can be happy.
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oh, to have someone fight this hard in your corner.
the fight drains out of him almost visibly, and he closes his eyes.
what would that be like.]
Fine.
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Regardless, she seems to accept that - and will reach out to let her fingertips brush against the back of his hand if he'll let her.]
... Искренняя. Still meant the rest, you know.
Why did you ask?
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he doesn't move, as she touches him—no real resistance, or external reaction. on the contrary, a knot builds up in his throat.
he just shakes his head.]
Call it morbid curiosity.
[here lies his stupid life choices, RIP in pieces.]
You should go to bed. We likely have to sleep again, now.
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Ночь. It is okay - I like being awake in the night more.
Will you talk to Blue and staff to make sure you are safe tomorrow? Are you coming to Tokyo with me?
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[half lidded, his eyes look anywhere but Anya.]
Whatever tomorrow brings. We'll see.
[We'll see.]