he looks at the fork in his hand, and glances away.]
...Most people have done everything for themselves throughout their lives.
Having someone come in, and try and help... it can feel embarrassing, as if you're suggesting the person can't do it for themselves. Or suspicious—as if you have ulterior motives.
[...
"would you let someone help you like that?" is what he wants to ask, but the answer is looking like "yes".]
the answer is totally yes, because anya loves to be doted on and spoiled. though as she listens to his explanation, she hums thoughtfully at that]
... not meant to be embarrassing. I think you can do everything, if you need to. Everyone I met here... They know much more than Anya. Could do it all alone.
Помощь. But... do not have to, because I am here to help. It is... only way I know to do something for people.
[it's the only way she can feel useful, instead of just taking up space]
Maybe you do not agree with him, but he is more than idiot. Warm. Kind. Good at heart. Замечательный. He is Greatest Mammon. [she says this FULLY CONVINCED]
[SHE'S STILL POUTING AT HIM AT THE GREATEST MORON COMMENT - NOT NICE!!!
though she sighs a little bit, deciding not to fight anymore as long as asch agrees that mammon is more than just an idiot. maybe eventually he'll see how good and wonderful he is >:^( ]
Mm... I do...
Meltryllis is nice to me too. [is she] I think... people here are kind, even if hard to see at first.
[he's obstinate about this for multiple extremely good reasons
in any case, huffs an exhale of a sigh, and swings his legs over the side of the bed, leaving Anya with the tray.]
You're naive—or maybe, you're pointedly ignoring everyone's negative traits in order to get along with everyone instead. Naivety can be positive.
[he talks as he walks over to the chaise to pick up the book he was reading—and another, underneath of it, flipping through the first to recover his spot.]
You know we don't need to eat, yet you took time to cook something and bring it to me—undoubtedly to others, too. [you? made?? cookies???] You make friends with everyone, and dote on them.
But I'm starting to get the feeling that it's more for your benefit than for theirs. As if caring for others is your hobby—a kind of stress relief from, this place.
[he flips the book open. it's to the moon landing, people walking out. one small step etc.]
... It started as a job. To be an idol is to do many things. Многогранный. Sing, dance, model, act - but most of all, make others happy. Carry hope for them, when they cannot find their own, like a light in the dark.
[she explains, if only because he's calling her out. to some degree, it's for herself. she cares for others so intensely because she feels like it's the least that she can do]
But people like Anya too... как-то. Somehow. That was not always true. People would laugh at me, or not talk to me. To have people who will not leave me alone... I want to say thank you, for giving Anya a chance. Give the same love I receive.
[because everyone deserves it, and she's been in that place where no one paid attention to her, or they thought bad things about her. she doesn't want anyone else to ever feel that, as long as she can help it. no matter what.
but she'll let her fingers fall over the images of the moon landing, not looking up during her explanation as if revealing she's not a perfect idol might get him to change his mind about being nice to her]
but, well, the general idea is there, even if it's.......... ridiculous? it sounds like someone pumping out princesses as a profession, which is ludicrous? but ok. earth is absolutely bananas insane]
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leans back???
what
is happening???]
I-- [he what??] It's fine! I can--
[he literally dodges the fork like a cat avoiding being pet]
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well she's not going to force it on him, even though she doesn't really understand the reaction, pulling the fork back a bit]
... do not want more? Does not taste good?
Улучшение. Ah, I will do better next time...
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It's fine-- No! I meant...!
[he grabs her hand, and carefully extracts the fork from her (small, cute, lovely) fingers, frowning the entire time he does.
nom,
the food is hot still which is why there's color in his cheeks now.
anyway.]
It's good.
[...]
...I meant that I can feed myself!
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but at the explanation
she laughs a little]
Смущенный... Everyone embarrassed when I try to help them... is it odd?
[her work is filled with a bunch of other cute idol girls who are happy to help each other]
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he looks at the fork in his hand, and glances away.]
...Most people have done everything for themselves throughout their lives.
Having someone come in, and try and help... it can feel embarrassing, as if you're suggesting the person can't do it for themselves. Or suspicious—as if you have ulterior motives.
[...
"would you let someone help you like that?" is what he wants to ask, but the answer is looking like "yes".]
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the answer is totally yes, because anya loves to be doted on and spoiled. though as she listens to his explanation, she hums thoughtfully at that]
... not meant to be embarrassing. I think you can do everything, if you need to. Everyone I met here... They know much more than Anya. Could do it all alone.
Помощь. But... do not have to, because I am here to help. It is... only way I know to do something for people.
[it's the only way she can feel useful, instead of just taking up space]
Maybe it is only for my own feelings that way....
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You've been doing a lot of things for people.
[he knows because even he was subjected to Anya back in real life land.
he looks at the plate, and frowns.]
Has anyone been taking care of you?
For your own feelings or not, you'll get burned out if you try to take care of everyone yourself.
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she blinks a little bit at it first, but then answers immediately - ]
Toi helped with my hand. Beau and Mammon give me many hugs. Zenitsu would hold my hand, when I was scared.
Довольно... Anya is taken care of. I... am not yet someone who is so good at helping others that I do not receive.
]she's seen that happen too - she just doesn't think it'll ever apply to her, because she's not working hard enough for it to count]
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[He leans towards her to glance at her hand—even though it's healed, the mention merits a reflexive look. After all, was the cause...]
What about here?
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Mammon is here. Утешение. I am less scared, if he is here.
[it's unreal how much she loves this demon make it stop
but she also follows up with]
And you are here.
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That trash?
[ah.
hm.
well, he is also trash.
so he ignores that part.]
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she frowns]
Do not call him that please. Not to me.
[she knows they yell at each other and she stays out of it but she will not tolerate it directly to her own ears]
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[he frowns back!!!]
He's an idiot. Trust me, I've checked.
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Maybe you do not agree with him, but he is more than idiot. Warm. Kind. Good at heart. Замечательный. He is Greatest Mammon. [she says this FULLY CONVINCED]
Not trash.
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he actively presses one hand against his own forehead, eyes closed, and shakes his head.]
The Greatest Mammon? More like the greatest moron...
[but before she can say anything in rebuttal, he exhales, and opens his eyes, meeting hers.]
...Fine. He's more than an idiot.
We can at least agree on that.
[mysterious! but he's already moving on.]
As long as you have someone.
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though she sighs a little bit, deciding not to fight anymore as long as asch agrees that mammon is more than just an idiot. maybe eventually he'll see how good and wonderful he is >:^( ]
Mm... I do...
Meltryllis is nice to me too. [is she] I think... people here are kind, even if hard to see at first.
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in any case, huffs an exhale of a sigh, and swings his legs over the side of the bed, leaving Anya with the tray.]
You're naive—or maybe, you're pointedly ignoring everyone's negative traits in order to get along with everyone instead. Naivety can be positive.
[he talks as he walks over to the chaise to pick up the book he was reading—and another, underneath of it, flipping through the first to recover his spot.]
You know we don't need to eat, yet you took time to cook something and bring it to me—undoubtedly to others, too. [you? made?? cookies???] You make friends with everyone, and dote on them.
But I'm starting to get the feeling that it's more for your benefit than for theirs. As if caring for others is your hobby—a kind of stress relief from, this place.
[he flips the book open. it's to the moon landing, people walking out. one small step etc.]
Tell me about space.
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... It started as a job. To be an idol is to do many things. Многогранный. Sing, dance, model, act - but most of all, make others happy. Carry hope for them, when they cannot find their own, like a light in the dark.
[she explains, if only because he's calling her out. to some degree, it's for herself. she cares for others so intensely because she feels like it's the least that she can do]
But people like Anya too... как-то. Somehow. That was not always true. People would laugh at me, or not talk to me. To have people who will not leave me alone... I want to say thank you, for giving Anya a chance. Give the same love I receive.
[because everyone deserves it, and she's been in that place where no one paid attention to her, or they thought bad things about her. she doesn't want anyone else to ever feel that, as long as she can help it. no matter what.
but she'll let her fingers fall over the images of the moon landing, not looking up during her explanation as if revealing she's not a perfect idol might get him to change his mind about being nice to her]
... but there is much to say about space too.
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what the fuck is an idol
but, well, the general idea is there, even if it's.......... ridiculous? it sounds like someone pumping out princesses as a profession, which is ludicrous? but ok. earth is absolutely bananas insane]
Who are you saying that for?
Me?
Or yourself?
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she's literally a handpicked princess]
Explaining. You are making many guess about me - but I am telling you my truth.
Want to know yours too, if you would let me.
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[but,]
My... what?
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[she tilts her head]
Where you are from, what it was like. Предыстория. Your story.
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...Not right now.
[he sits down, book still in hand.]
I think we'd both find space more interesting.
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[but she'll hum as she goes too peer down at the book, letting her finger follow over some of the words - probably upside down]
Космос. But I like to talk about space too.
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...
he rights the book.]
Your space. It's different to ours.
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