constellates | [ what's up with nie anyway ]

[ - wait

oh god she didn't mean that, she's just going to immediately bow her head in apology]

Sorry, sorry - I did not mean to say so...

[shE WAS JUST SO SURPRISED]

She told you about that--?

[HE LOOKS EQUALLY SURPRISED?

-but he can't exactly blame her. he's refused to speak about this to anyone else until just now, but he knows beau has others she's leaned on, that it's something people might speak about.

it's just not something he really expected to hear.]

[she lifts her head then, pouting]

We were talking about dokidokis...

[AND NOW SHE FEELS BAD.]

Mmm... Glad you are still close but - душа? Is your heart okay?

Ah... it will be fine, Anya. You really don't need to be concerned.

[you know. sometimes you meet someone who gets you in literally every way no one else does but it's never gonna work out and that's

totally fine.]

I've always known that was the case, after all.

[so really, whose fault is it that he caught feelings anyway.]

[ . . . she gives his hands a squeeze then, then reciting something:]

"What is given and received can't be controlled. Never won't last, and it is not always when you want it, and it's not always what you want either."

... Someone told me that yesterday, about love.

Even if you know... You cannot help what you feel. I know it will be fine but... понятно. I hope you can still take care of your heart, and your feelings.

You should be happy too.

[there's a faint little huff of a laugh, there, actually.]

My feelings are more resilient than that, I promise.

[they have been through A Lot. he's very used to just setting them aside. using them when he needs to. also fine.]

We'll be fine, despite that. I've already given her my family name-- that isn't something that will be so easily broken.

[wh

what]

Ehhhh? Family name - you are married?! Adopted?!

[whICH ONE IS IT]

I- no, no, not quite... either of those.

[another very quick headshake.]

Absolutely not adoption. It's more-- acceptance into my sect. Acknowledgement of her as one of our own.

[...there's a pause, though, before he continues.]

We both have our own duties to return to. But if there's any way to meet, after that, there's no one else I would rather lead the QingheNie Sect with.

[so, you know. maybe platonic marriage later. if it's possible and she agrees.]

[Oh.... That actually gets her to relax a little, nodding in some kind of understanding.]

Ah.... I see. [a beat] Монтаж. I think... leading family with you would fit Beau very well.

[

and she smiles, perking up a bit - ]

If there is way to visit after this, I was going to see if I could come to see Ling - so even happier to meet Beau there.

I think it would, too. She'd do well.

[there's a bit more of that fond smile again, especially at the mention of her wanting to visit jin ling.]

And I think it might do him some good if you're able to, as well. That boy really never has had any friends, at home... you would get along well with some of the other junior cultivators too, I'm sure. Has he told you much about the GusuLan Sect?

She is amazing - she can do anything. But will be happier to do it with you, I think.

[anya just loves beau so much it's unreal. though at the question, she's just going to shake her head]

Нет. No... Do not know much about cultivation still too. [jl just yells things and she rolls with it] But he told me he does not have my friend. Does he have more people he knows at home?

There are a couple of them I'm aware he spends time with, as well as his dog.

[JIN LING REALLY JUST DOES NOT HAVE FRIENDS it's terrible.]

Lan Sizhui and Lan Jingyi. You and Sizhui would be friends, I believe... the Lan Sect has something of a focus in music-based cultivation.

Ah - want to meet Fairy!!

[but all of that - she looks very fascinated and smiles brightly]

Eh? Sounds lovely... В восторге. Then I am very excited to go - it will have to be after I talk to Mama and Papa but...

[though that seems to remind her of something - ]

Oh... do you know anything of Ling's Uncle Jiang?

Jiang-xiong--? I studied with him when we were closer to Jin Ling's age, yes. Him and his brother both. I mainly see him for Sect business these days, though...

[a curious tilt of his head, there.]

Why do you ask?

Oh...! Friends in teens? Милая. That is sweet.

[she gives a smile though - even though it's a little bit embarrassed? anya?]

Mm... Maybe jumping too ahead - but Ling said something where I think I might have to meet him...

You two don't have any romantic involvement, do you...? Mm, though I suppose Jiang Cheng would want to meet any girl Jin Ling knew.

[a brief pause.]

I do have to tell you, Jiang-xiong is absolutely terrible with girls, so please don't let him offend you too much-- he really is like that with everyone.

[wow he just

asked

and anya looks even more embarrassed, actually blushing a bit this so rarely happens but it's happening now as she laughs....]

Ah... сложный. Hard to explain. Maybe....

[shE'S GOING TO

JUMP TO THE NEXT TOPIC]

But that is okay, Ling is bad with girls too. Makes sense.

[she calms herself down by roasting jl]

[oh no?? oh no, that's cute, but she's not getting out of that this easily when she asked him about beau.]

Ah, only maybe? I can't blame you for needing to think about it, that entire family is awful when it comes to expressing their feelings properly.

[teasing, just a bit, but he's still curious.]

Would you try explaining, Anya?

[sdklfjsdkljsf dAMMIT. she doesn't seem to mind though, instead just laughing a little bit when he refuses to let her escape. fine....

the heat comes back to her cheeks, but she fights through it.]

Ah... we only talk about it yesterday. It is still...

[she... shrugs a little, but it doesn't pull from the smile on her face]

Время. Not enough time... Someone told me that Ling might like me... so I asked him. [shE'S TOO FORWARD FOR HER OWN GOOD] It is not... 'I am sure I like you' but 'I think I could like you.'

But... I do not want to talk for him too much. I only know my own feelings.

You're both still young, you know. There's more than enough time after this, if you're able to see each other-- and from him, 'I think I could like you' is saying something, I believe.

[he has the feeling that's BASICALLY asking someone out, for jin ling.]

What are your feelings?

... is big 'if' - to see each other again. I want to hope for it, and I will, and I will work hard for it to be true if I must but... I know he does not hope as high as Anya.

[jl is a realist and she's learned that, but she doesn't mind. she'll hold onto hope enough for both of them. she's learned more and more here, that's what idols are meant to do. to carry hope.]

Mm, I think... лучше. He grows fast, and is trying even more now to be better to people. Said he would try to be better to me... so how can I not like that?

[she gives a sheepish smile, but she's honest. how can she not a ) find character development attractive and b ) respond to someone who specifically says that they'll improve for her? she is but a simple, soft-hearted teenaged girl]

He is type of person I like, when he is not being rude to others... and makes me want to do better too. So I hope that it will be okay for us.

...he's been growing, I think. And he may be a Sect Leader in his own right soon, if I haven't misread the situation at home... though I think that will be a responsibility he can bear. I've already told him he'll have my Sect's support.

[he's noticed the development, here and there, though they're still not exactly close. there's still a distance at which he needs to keep jin ling, for the sake of everything he's done-- for jin ling's sake as well.]

I think that having someone to remind him he wants to try to be better would do him a lot of good.

[and there's a slightly longer pause, there, before he adds:]

And I think that if it would make the two of you happy, then you should reach for it while you can.

[ . . . it's the pause and the ordering of those things that makes anya note, just a little quietly - ]

Приоритет. You... are very responsible. [to list improvement and the status of the sect before happiness.] Mm... I think I will have very many things to say thank you for in future.

Please support Ling until I can be there - and take care of Beau until I get to see her again too. Обмен. I will try to do my best to support you in turn too.

Ah, well-- someone's had to be.

[he never wanted to have to be someone responsible, but here he is running a sect anyway... his own happiness is something he's long since put aside, but it would be nice if they don't have to. if the world could be kinder to this generation than it was to him and his peers.

nie huaisang hopes, at least, that they'll be making it into a slightly better one by the time things come to their conclusion back home.]

But thank you as well, Anya. Try not to keep him waiting too long, and we'll try to make sure everything's settled by the time you manage to find your way there.

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