[Yeah, well, she giggled like a stupid girl, and then she practically wheezed out the rest, and so he's back on the argument again.
Unfortunately, he is...... a fifteen year old boy who hasn't done a single damn romantic thing in his life, much less anything like that with the girl. He hasn't even LOOKED at a girl. So Anya gets the most unromantic soup stir with the spoon............. and then ignored as he tries the first bite to make sure it's fine.
And then hands the spoon off to her so she can eat herself. Very funny.]
so she doesn't look too disappointed or anything - she'd be considerably more shocked if he actually had a suave bone in his body. instead she'll take the spoon with a soft little 'spasiba' before trying some herself.]
Острый... Did I get it right?
[and she'll stir it again, before getting another spoonful
and offering it up to him just because she thinks passing the spoon back and forth will get tiring. there is no ulterior motive. she just doesn't care.]
[He watches the bowl idly while she tries it, but he definitely startles when the spoon comes nyooming into his field of vision. He reaches up, but pauses; she doesn't look like she's handing it off at all. He sort of just... stares between her and the spoon like ??? And he gets red in the face.
[Very slowly, he sort of... looks around like he's expecting someone to jump out of the woodwork and holler surprise, catching them in the middle of this embarrassing endeavor. When nothing happens, he looks back.
And carefully leans forward to take the bite. He might pass out again.]
Uncle Jiang, [he tries again, better this time on his part,] said my mom liked to cook. She always made them lotus root soup. And my dad, too.
[please don't pass out again, it's a pc and she can't call for help - that said she's going to give him the scoop and hum happily when he takes it. yayyyyy.
and then will proceed to just get another scoop for herself as she listens]
Hm... if can send recipe to Anya after you go home, I tried to learn Chinese. [she's going to be quadlingual] Улучшение. So I will try to make better, and closer.
Subete... Japanese has three writing style. Hiragana, katakana, kanji. Kanji uses some symbols same as Chinese - but meaning can be different, and combination different.
[she'll have some more soup then, before continuing to explain]
But your letter to me... Самоучка. Said something I could not read, so I taught myself how to read it.
[That makes sense, but also, like... he's so ancient, what's a Japan? It's fine. Subete tried his best, and that's what matters. Even if Jin Ling and Huaisang are stupid as hell.]
Oh. [He glances away, embarrassed. He hadn't intended her to go out of her way to figure out how to read the damn tsundere apology, but whatever.] It wasn't... anything important.
[ . . . hmmm. she pauses at that before offering him up another spoonful of soup.]
... was important. Связь. What you have to say is important, so I wanted to understand it.
I... do not think I am less smart than other people - but sometimes I cannot know things if it is not in words. Even if in language I did not understand, I will learn language to hear what you say.
Because I want to know what you think - clear as I can.
[He doesn’t take it at first because he’s too busy hyperfocusing on her dumb shoujo ass. What the hell. He still doesn’t get why it’s so easy for her to be able to say these things so honestly.
And to people’s face no less!]
It said... sorry. [In case she hadn’t figured it out or something.] For what happened. That’s all.
[Well, he just sits here like a tomato. Again. It’s fine.]
I didn’t know... I mean... [His eyes lower to glance around.] The other realm. I hadn’t received any letters, so I didn’t know... how it worked. If you could see us like spirits.
I didn’t have anyone else... to send anything to really.
[He says this with such certainty. Toi, Zenitsu, Ayabe, all of them, even Huaisang, tossed by the wayside because he's too embarrassed to consider them friends, or close. It's fine.]
[His furrows his brows only because... he doesn't understand why she is asking to ask, then again, he's very use to this because of his culture. Even though... he does not expect it from others after being here so long.]
[REAL AND UNADULTERATED FEAR. His mouth drops open, but nothing at all comes out. He sort of just stares while his brain has to rewire.] Wha... [This just. Feels as if it came out of nowhere for him.
But unfortunately, now that she's brought it up, he's having to hastily recalibrate everything that's happened. What gave her this idea? He hadn't thought a single damn thing about this exactly, and now he's wondering how he really feels. Being a teenage boy is suffering.]
Anya thought the same thing. She doesn't seem bothered by the surprise or the stutter, instead explaining - ]
Mm... Maybe it is wrong. I was only thinking because....
[Her gaze drops to the soup then, stirring it as she recounts - if only because it's a little awkward, just a little, to be met only with his surprise.]
People have called Anya 'heartbreaker' lately - and I do not like it. Осторожный. If someone gave me their heart, I would rather take care, than break it. But... it is odd to think - for someone to like Anya like that, because I do not think that I am someone so cool. [she's not impressive enough to give other people the dokidokis? who would have a crush on her?] But someone told me that you might...
[She shakes her head then, looking back up at him - ]
If you do not, I do not mind. I thought it was wrong too, when first said. Early on even, you said you could not have crush on Anya. Определенность. I only wanted to ask you, and be sure.
[People calling Anya out on her heartbreaking is very valid. They're valid.]
Who said that?! [WOW. What person is out here trying to put him in the damn ground from embarrassment! They didn't even talk to him about it! Not that... he would talk about it, clearly. Haha.] Who-- [But then he thinks about her "I am not someone so cool," and he makes a face.]
What? [It's disbelief, not confusion.] But everyone likes you. They always talk to you, or see if you're okay. [Which he is sort of envious of, but he's a scorpio, so of course he is.] And--Kuji Toi? And Agatsuma Zenitsu? Haven't you seen them? The way they look at you? [Maybe not, like, fully Toi, but whatever.]
Though at the rest of it - now she's the one looking surprised, blinking as he happily namedrops so many people that she cares about. But...]
It is different kind of like.... Between friends and lovers. [SHE WON'T DENY A LOT OF PEOPLE CHECK ON HER - ] Also I think because... слабый. People know that I cannot protect myself well, unless I have gun. Sometimes even then...
[their break-in....]
Toi does not look at me any way... Zenitsu looks at all girls that way... What did Asch do?
Don't be stupid. How can you not see it? He was looking at you--! In the kitchen, like--! [It's to embarrassing to describe.] Like he likes you! Didn't you see how much he yelled at everyone else all the time, and then he wasn't...
[Wait.
He's fucking stupid. He immediately and quickly backtracks on what he was explaining because it's too familiar.]
An-anyway, why am I any different? You do this for everyone else, right? You made everyone their favorite foods, and you worried about them, so why are you asking me like it matters? Everyone is going home... and then what!
It's clear on her face that she's not sure what Jin Ling is talking about. Asch has always been nice to her, and she's just assumed that's because they're friends. It's not like there haven't been times that he's yelled at her and been angry....
Though - he does ask the golden question, right? Why is she asking him and not everyone else - well.]
... do not think anyone else likes me - did not even think you did until told...
[he was the first to get namedropped, that's literally it. but.]
But... I only ask because - душа. Your heart matters and what you feel matters. If it is wrong, and you do not like me, that is okay. But if you do.... I care about you, and want your heart to be treasured.
[Though she'll raise both her hands up then - in an almost placating gesture, finally allowing herself a smile.]
... it is silly though. Sorry to ask something weird.
[Someone else told her that some boys who had crushes on her might not even realize it - but if they don't realize it, can it really be a crush? She supposes she just made more trouble, but... she just wanted to be sure, before anyone got hurt if she could help it.]
Самонадеянно. ["Presumptuous."] I stepped too far.
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I am okay...
[is she.
but she'll go to sit down opposite him - before scooting the chair closer if they're going to share.]
Будет. No more worry please.
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Unfortunately, he is...... a fifteen year old boy who hasn't done a single damn romantic thing in his life, much less anything like that with the girl. He hasn't even LOOKED at a girl. So Anya gets the most unromantic soup stir with the spoon............. and then ignored as he tries the first bite to make sure it's fine.
And then hands the spoon off to her so she can eat herself. Very funny.]
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this is literally what she was expecting.
so she doesn't look too disappointed or anything - she'd be considerably more shocked if he actually had a suave bone in his body. instead she'll take the spoon with a soft little 'spasiba' before trying some herself.]
Острый... Did I get it right?
[and she'll stir it again, before getting another spoonful
and offering it up to him just because she thinks passing the spoon back and forth will get tiring. there is no ulterior motive. she just doesn't care.]
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...I don't know. Uncle Jiang said my mom--
[He watches the bowl idly while she tries it, but he definitely startles when the spoon comes nyooming into his field of vision. He reaches up, but pauses; she doesn't look like she's handing it off at all. He sort of just... stares between her and the spoon like ??? And he gets red in the face.
Again.]
You... You eat it.
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. . . but he sure is getting red again. she doesn't seem as confused as she normally would be over that though - instead just gently amused]
It is okay. Have it - passing spoon back and forth seems silly.
[she's just going to outright encourage him, not backing down this time. at least not yet.]
Was this soup Ling's Mama's - специальность? Specialty?
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And carefully leans forward to take the bite. He might pass out again.]
Uncle Jiang, [he tries again, better this time on his part,] said my mom liked to cook. She always made them lotus root soup. And my dad, too.
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and then will proceed to just get another scoop for herself as she listens]
Hm... if can send recipe to Anya after you go home, I tried to learn Chinese. [she's going to be quadlingual] Улучшение. So I will try to make better, and closer.
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[If he passes out, I don't have to find out what you're really here for, it's fine.]
Are you the one who... sent the Chinese writing? [He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand.] The one that said "prey," and something else...?
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super no - she shakes her head]
Subete... Japanese has three writing style. Hiragana, katakana, kanji. Kanji uses some symbols same as Chinese - but meaning can be different, and combination different.
[she'll have some more soup then, before continuing to explain]
But your letter to me... Самоучка. Said something I could not read, so I taught myself how to read it.
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[That makes sense, but also, like... he's so ancient, what's a Japan? It's fine. Subete tried his best, and that's what matters. Even if Jin Ling and Huaisang are stupid as hell.]
Oh. [He glances away, embarrassed. He hadn't intended her to go out of her way to figure out how to read the damn tsundere apology, but whatever.] It wasn't... anything important.
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... was important. Связь. What you have to say is important, so I wanted to understand it.
I... do not think I am less smart than other people - but sometimes I cannot know things if it is not in words. Even if in language I did not understand, I will learn language to hear what you say.
Because I want to know what you think - clear as I can.
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And to people’s face no less!]
It said... sorry. [In case she hadn’t figured it out or something.] For what happened. That’s all.
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... I know. But.... still think it is not your fault, and not to blame.
[she doesn't mind that she had to work a little harder to figure it out - but she'll offer him a smile.]
The rest of the letter made me very happy. Oдаренный. You have many skill - the art was lovely too.
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I didn’t know... I mean... [His eyes lower to glance around.] The other realm. I hadn’t received any letters, so I didn’t know... how it worked. If you could see us like spirits.
I didn’t have anyone else... to send anything to really.
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.... I still liked it. I am glad, that your important people were with you on the living side instead.
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No one was here either.
[He says this with such certainty. Toi, Zenitsu, Ayabe, all of them, even Huaisang, tossed by the wayside because he's too embarrassed to consider them friends, or close. It's fine.]
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she blinks at that for a moment before tilting her head]
I have question. Is it okay to ask?
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You can ask.
[fear]
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Влюбленность? [a beat] Do you like me?
[ah - she might need to clarify]
As more than friend? Or... just friend? Or... not that?
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But unfortunately, now that she's brought it up, he's having to hastily recalibrate everything that's happened. What gave her this idea? He hadn't thought a single damn thing about this exactly, and now he's wondering how he really feels. Being a teenage boy is suffering.]
Why...? I haven't...
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Anya thought the same thing. She doesn't seem bothered by the surprise or the stutter, instead explaining - ]
Mm... Maybe it is wrong. I was only thinking because....
[Her gaze drops to the soup then, stirring it as she recounts - if only because it's a little awkward, just a little, to be met only with his surprise.]
People have called Anya 'heartbreaker' lately - and I do not like it. Осторожный. If someone gave me their heart, I would rather take care, than break it. But... it is odd to think - for someone to like Anya like that, because I do not think that I am someone so cool. [she's not impressive enough to give other people the dokidokis? who would have a crush on her?] But someone told me that you might...
[She shakes her head then, looking back up at him - ]
If you do not, I do not mind. I thought it was wrong too, when first said. Early on even, you said you could not have crush on Anya. Определенность. I only wanted to ask you, and be sure.
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Who said that?! [WOW. What person is out here trying to put him in the damn ground from embarrassment! They didn't even talk to him about it! Not that... he would talk about it, clearly. Haha.] Who-- [But then he thinks about her "I am not someone so cool," and he makes a face.]
What? [It's disbelief, not confusion.] But everyone likes you. They always talk to you, or see if you're okay. [Which he is sort of envious of, but he's a scorpio, so of course he is.] And--Kuji Toi? And Agatsuma Zenitsu? Haven't you seen them? The way they look at you? [Maybe not, like, fully Toi, but whatever.]
Even Asch did it when we were in the kitchen!
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Though at the rest of it - now she's the one looking surprised, blinking as he happily namedrops so many people that she cares about. But...]
It is different kind of like.... Between friends and lovers. [SHE WON'T DENY A LOT OF PEOPLE CHECK ON HER - ] Also I think because... слабый. People know that I cannot protect myself well, unless I have gun. Sometimes even then...
[their break-in....]
Toi does not look at me any way... Zenitsu looks at all girls that way... What did Asch do?
[ASCH ISN'T EVEN
ON HER RADAR
DO YOU KNOW HOW BAD I FEEL]
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Don't be stupid. How can you not see it? He was looking at you--! In the kitchen, like--! [It's to embarrassing to describe.] Like he likes you! Didn't you see how much he yelled at everyone else all the time, and then he wasn't...
[Wait.
He's fucking stupid. He immediately and quickly backtracks on what he was explaining because it's too familiar.]
An-anyway, why am I any different? You do this for everyone else, right? You made everyone their favorite foods, and you worried about them, so why are you asking me like it matters? Everyone is going home... and then what!
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It's clear on her face that she's not sure what Jin Ling is talking about. Asch has always been nice to her, and she's just assumed that's because they're friends. It's not like there haven't been times that he's yelled at her and been angry....
Though - he does ask the golden question, right? Why is she asking him and not everyone else - well.]
... do not think anyone else likes me - did not even think you did until told...
[he was the first to get namedropped, that's literally it. but.]
But... I only ask because - душа. Your heart matters and what you feel matters. If it is wrong, and you do not like me, that is okay. But if you do.... I care about you, and want your heart to be treasured.
[Though she'll raise both her hands up then - in an almost placating gesture, finally allowing herself a smile.]
... it is silly though. Sorry to ask something weird.
[Someone else told her that some boys who had crushes on her might not even realize it - but if they don't realize it, can it really be a crush? She supposes she just made more trouble, but... she just wanted to be sure, before anyone got hurt if she could help it.]
Самонадеянно. ["Presumptuous."] I stepped too far.
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