there is the feeling of someone who KNOWS, COMPLETELY KNOWS what she's blinking about, but is digging his metaphorical heels in deeper because he has already completely fucked up and there's no going back now unless he admits to it.
she's only stubborn about very specific things, and this is not one of them. she makes sure that he still has his page marked in the book before leaving it on the chaise, going to join him on the bed and she'll just
wait patiently because she didn't bring a second set of utensils]
[he looks pointedly at the balcony door like it is simultaneously the most interesting thing in the room right now, and also that it has somehow deeply wronged him.
but she didn't call him on it. that's. nice of her.]
he looks at the fork in his hand, and glances away.]
...Most people have done everything for themselves throughout their lives.
Having someone come in, and try and help... it can feel embarrassing, as if you're suggesting the person can't do it for themselves. Or suspicious—as if you have ulterior motives.
[...
"would you let someone help you like that?" is what he wants to ask, but the answer is looking like "yes".]
the answer is totally yes, because anya loves to be doted on and spoiled. though as she listens to his explanation, she hums thoughtfully at that]
... not meant to be embarrassing. I think you can do everything, if you need to. Everyone I met here... They know much more than Anya. Could do it all alone.
Помощь. But... do not have to, because I am here to help. It is... only way I know to do something for people.
[it's the only way she can feel useful, instead of just taking up space]
Maybe you do not agree with him, but he is more than idiot. Warm. Kind. Good at heart. Замечательный. He is Greatest Mammon. [she says this FULLY CONVINCED]
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opens his mouth to lecture about giving him food but not eating because that's how you show someone you give a shit???
and stops
wait
WAIT
THE
THEY DON'T EVEN NEED? TO EAT?? WHAT IS HE??? SAYING?????
nope too fuckin deep in now!! TIME TO COMMIT!!!]
...Come on.
We can share it.
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making sure here
... If you are sure?
[she doesn't mind but like,]
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there is the feeling of someone who KNOWS, COMPLETELY KNOWS what she's blinking about, but is digging his metaphorical heels in deeper because he has already completely fucked up and there's no going back now unless he admits to it.
so.]
Of course. I wouldn't have said it otherwise.
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she's only stubborn about very specific things, and this is not one of them. she makes sure that he still has his page marked in the book before leaving it on the chaise, going to join him on the bed and she'll just
wait patiently because she didn't bring a second set of utensils]
Да. Okay.
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FUCK
he just
hands her the utensils
without a word.]
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she'll take the utensils with a nod of her head, but she's definitely giggling a little bit]
Смешной. Asch is funny.
[but she'll help herself to some of the food, humming happily because she knows she's a good cook, thanks]
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[he looks pointedly at the balcony door like it is simultaneously the most interesting thing in the room right now, and also that it has somehow deeply wronged him.
but she didn't call him on it. that's. nice of her.]
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it's coming
but for now she'll let him live in a false sense of security, before then putting another bite on the utensil and then
offering it up to him, completely innocently
he can totally take the fork from her if he wants but she also kind of wants to see his reaction to this]
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...What?
[what's??? this??????]
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[easily! and she'll continue to lift the fork up to his mouth]
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leans back???
what
is happening???]
I-- [he what??] It's fine! I can--
[he literally dodges the fork like a cat avoiding being pet]
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well she's not going to force it on him, even though she doesn't really understand the reaction, pulling the fork back a bit]
... do not want more? Does not taste good?
Улучшение. Ah, I will do better next time...
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It's fine-- No! I meant...!
[he grabs her hand, and carefully extracts the fork from her (small, cute, lovely) fingers, frowning the entire time he does.
nom,
the food is hot still which is why there's color in his cheeks now.
anyway.]
It's good.
[...]
...I meant that I can feed myself!
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but at the explanation
she laughs a little]
Смущенный... Everyone embarrassed when I try to help them... is it odd?
[her work is filled with a bunch of other cute idol girls who are happy to help each other]
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he looks at the fork in his hand, and glances away.]
...Most people have done everything for themselves throughout their lives.
Having someone come in, and try and help... it can feel embarrassing, as if you're suggesting the person can't do it for themselves. Or suspicious—as if you have ulterior motives.
[...
"would you let someone help you like that?" is what he wants to ask, but the answer is looking like "yes".]
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the answer is totally yes, because anya loves to be doted on and spoiled. though as she listens to his explanation, she hums thoughtfully at that]
... not meant to be embarrassing. I think you can do everything, if you need to. Everyone I met here... They know much more than Anya. Could do it all alone.
Помощь. But... do not have to, because I am here to help. It is... only way I know to do something for people.
[it's the only way she can feel useful, instead of just taking up space]
Maybe it is only for my own feelings that way....
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You've been doing a lot of things for people.
[he knows because even he was subjected to Anya back in real life land.
he looks at the plate, and frowns.]
Has anyone been taking care of you?
For your own feelings or not, you'll get burned out if you try to take care of everyone yourself.
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she blinks a little bit at it first, but then answers immediately - ]
Toi helped with my hand. Beau and Mammon give me many hugs. Zenitsu would hold my hand, when I was scared.
Довольно... Anya is taken care of. I... am not yet someone who is so good at helping others that I do not receive.
]she's seen that happen too - she just doesn't think it'll ever apply to her, because she's not working hard enough for it to count]
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[He leans towards her to glance at her hand—even though it's healed, the mention merits a reflexive look. After all, was the cause...]
What about here?
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Mammon is here. Утешение. I am less scared, if he is here.
[it's unreal how much she loves this demon make it stop
but she also follows up with]
And you are here.
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That trash?
[ah.
hm.
well, he is also trash.
so he ignores that part.]
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she frowns]
Do not call him that please. Not to me.
[she knows they yell at each other and she stays out of it but she will not tolerate it directly to her own ears]
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[he frowns back!!!]
He's an idiot. Trust me, I've checked.
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Maybe you do not agree with him, but he is more than idiot. Warm. Kind. Good at heart. Замечательный. He is Greatest Mammon. [she says this FULLY CONVINCED]
Not trash.
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he actively presses one hand against his own forehead, eyes closed, and shakes his head.]
The Greatest Mammon? More like the greatest moron...
[but before she can say anything in rebuttal, he exhales, and opens his eyes, meeting hers.]
...Fine. He's more than an idiot.
We can at least agree on that.
[mysterious! but he's already moving on.]
As long as you have someone.
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