[ anya wants to know dazai's gay drama ]

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To give someone a home.... Щедрый. It is a very kind thing.

[she can get some grasp of how important that can be - she doesn't know dazai or chuuya's backstories well, but from what she knows of ayabe.... he would only want to give someone better than what they currently have.]

... Is your heart okay?

[or does it feel like it's breaking]

[shortfornow]

I told them I wasn't going home with them in the letter I sent to Ken.

[ Living in a place that's normal and peaceful would be boring. Especially when the idiot couple wouldn't even have time for him. ]

I don't have much of one in the first place, but it will be fine.

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[ - eh? she pauses at that, and then tilts her head in confusion.]

... Почему? Why? You do not want to be with them?

[that sounds... odd to her. to choose to be away from the people you care for... though at the suggestion that he doesn't have a heart, he might be able to feel the way that her hands tense just a little bit around his]

... You have heart. And if it will be fine later - it means it is not fine now?

[shortfornow]

It wouldn't be wise if I went with them.

[ It's complicated, but the biggest thing is that Ayabe only wants to take him home because he likes taking care of others. ]

It's not logical right now. I know that that you don't pick the victim, but I am still mad at whomever did it.

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Does it have to be wise? Желание? You cannot go only because you want to?

[what's wrong with that? if the home is there, and if dazai wants to go....

but she's just going to frown]

... does not have to be logical. If you feel, you should be able to feel. Head and heart can make sense later.

[shortfornow]

Even if I wanted to go, it's no longer necessary. What they wanted from me they can now get from each other.

[ Not dokis since that's still something far off for him. ]

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... Неправда. But that is not true - because even if they like each other, they are still not you.

Who you are cannot be replaced, it is not about what you can or cannot give.

[it doesn't matter if he can't doki? they can still want him in their lives - anya understands that much]