constellates | [ anya wants to know dazai's gay drama ]

[i'm going to be real i don't know which day the sleepover is we can timey wimey if you want to talk about Living Shenanigans

but anya is going to actually go ahead and make two bowls of ice cream after she changes into her pajamas, and will knock lightly on dazai's door]

Hello - it is Anya. Вступление? Okay to enter?

[ He's in a pair of fancy pajamas and isn't in his bandages beyond the head and cheek one. It gets hot sleeping in them even in death.

Opening the door and waving her in. ]

It's fine.

[ He's's going to pause to look out in the hall to see if Asch is looming. It looks like they are Asch-less. ]

Looks like he really did give up.

[the bandages are such a fashion statement - but she's going to go ahead and enter, laughing a little]

I think so. Стойкие. Do not why he was so stubborn. He should get to sleep in own bed sometimes.

[which is the main reason why anya even wandered off on her own for a night - ]

Chocolate drizzle sundae okay for dessert?

[ Closing the door behind her. ]

Ah, maybe he's worried you'll tackle me.

[ He keeps his tone and expression even as he says that. He'll hold out a hand take one of the bowls. ]

It's good~ Been a long time since I've had ice cream.

[okay that makes her laugh - ]

Ah, because Anya is big and strong like rugby player. Понимаю. I see.

[very real concern that she'd tackle people - but she's going to handle one of them to him and give a bright smile]

It is nice that kitchen has sweets here - feels a little like old house.

That's it. I would be no match against your strength.

[ Asch is just worrying about him coming out in one piece.

He will walk further into the room to sit on the chaise to dig into the ice cream. ]

It is pretty stocked. It's pretty odd when you think about it.

Mm... but no Peach and no Plum - maybe because we make less mess, and do not need food.

[that's her guess]

[anyway anya is going to be looking for dazai at some point after the body announcement - she's empty-handed for now, but probably not for long.

but she's going to gently tap him on the shoulder to get his attention]

Osamu...?

[ He'll hear her approach thankfully. His tail is swishing and his ears are flat on his head. Someone isn't really happy.

There's a very subtle lean towards her as she says his name though. ]

Were you close to either of them?

[ Time to make it about her instead of his own feelings. ]

.... a little. Connected to Reito during the share week.

[but she wouldn't say that they were super close - not in the way that dazai clearly was. it's why she feels better equipped in this situation to not let herself be distracted, instead going to reach to gently take his hand if he'll let her]

... Вы? How do you feel?

[ Poor Anya. Dazai pressed so many buttons of Ayabe's that week. ]

Ah, that was probably a tiring week.

[ He's keeping his tone of voice even, but she'll feel a slight tremble when she does touch his hand.]

I feel like Chuuya may kill someone during trial.

... it felt like I could not breathe many times.

[but she'll just admit that quietly before she notices the tremble of his hand - and then she will carefully hold it between both of her own, steady as she watches his expression]

... Chuuya cares very much for him. Также? Do you want that too?

[ That is unsurprising. ]

Reito needs to learn how to relax- well...I suppose he can try on this side.

[ He knows what happened while he was a monster, so what did Reito go through during his final moments? That's a dark thought. ]

He does. [ Which is a whole other mixed set of feelings. ] I might.

... we will see him soon.

[which she knows isn't enough - really. she can only imagine what they're all feeling at the moment. if zenitsu, toi, or beau were to be announced dead....

. . . . ]

You care very much for both of them. [it's quiet, but certain] ... I am sorry, for how it must feel now.

[ He can't even muster the usual expression of disgust or disinterest at that.

He cares for them very much, and he hates it. ]

Chuuya is an idiot, but he was the only one I trust. While Reito is the nosy idiot who wants to take us home.

[ . . . ]

To give someone a home.... Щедрый. It is a very kind thing.

[she can get some grasp of how important that can be - she doesn't know dazai or chuuya's backstories well, but from what she knows of ayabe.... he would only want to give someone better than what they currently have.]

... Is your heart okay?

[or does it feel like it's breaking]

I told them I wasn't going home with them in the letter I sent to Ken.

[ Living in a place that's normal and peaceful would be boring. Especially when the idiot couple wouldn't even have time for him. ]

I don't have much of one in the first place, but it will be fine.

[ - eh? she pauses at that, and then tilts her head in confusion.]

... Почему? Why? You do not want to be with them?

[that sounds... odd to her. to choose to be away from the people you care for... though at the suggestion that he doesn't have a heart, he might be able to feel the way that her hands tense just a little bit around his]

... You have heart. And if it will be fine later - it means it is not fine now?

It wouldn't be wise if I went with them.

[ It's complicated, but the biggest thing is that Ayabe only wants to take him home because he likes taking care of others. ]

It's not logical right now. I know that that you don't pick the victim, but I am still mad at whomever did it.

Does it have to be wise? Желание? You cannot go only because you want to?

[what's wrong with that? if the home is there, and if dazai wants to go....

but she's just going to frown]

... does not have to be logical. If you feel, you should be able to feel. Head and heart can make sense later.

Even if I wanted to go, it's no longer necessary. What they wanted from me they can now get from each other.

[ Not dokis since that's still something far off for him. ]

... Неправда. But that is not true - because even if they like each other, they are still not you.

Who you are cannot be replaced, it is not about what you can or cannot give.

[it doesn't matter if he can't doki? they can still want him in their lives - anya understands that much]

[ anya wants to know dazai's gay drama ]

what week is it. four?? sometime during week four

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what fucking week is it, 5??? post-deda

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