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Anastasia "cuddly lion pit" ([personal profile] constellates) wrote2017-08-24 06:20 pm

ic inbox 2.0.

ANASTASIA
Hello. Call me Anya. (・ω´-ゞ)^☆


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stressweets: . Always expect the best from your friends and never assume the worst. Rest assured that a good friend always has your best interests at heart. (063. party of one)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-01-31 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ you know what ]

Something like that. [ SOMETHING LIKE THAT it involves a lot of handholding maybe so ♪ ] Is that okay?
stressweets: [...] it's great to be really good at something, but it's important to act with grace and humility. (058. the mysterious mare do well)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-12 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
[ o-oh, second date idea get!! another dance...

but there it is, tsukasa's smiling wider and walking a liiittle faster ]


I'm happy to hear that, Anya...~ We're here, though.

[ c: a small gesture to the rink ]

I'll pay for everything, so don't worry about that, okay?
stressweets: The Starlight I love is passionate, lively, and yeah, sometimes angry. Those are my favorite parts of you. That, and the fact that you forgive me every time. (071. all bottled up)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-12 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ in some countries, pair skating is ice dancing, so??

he pauses at her tensing though, head tilting slightly and his smile slipping. ]


...That was the idea... [ um. ] If you don't want to, then we could do something else...?
stressweets: . Always expect the best from your friends and never assume the worst. Rest assured that a good friend always has your best interests at heart. (063. party of one)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-12 07:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ ah, she's a familiar face to them... there goes his hopes of showing off a little to her, he guesses. it isn't like his practicing went that well anyway.

tsukasa gives them a polite smile, hand leaving anya's so he can conduct Business. and once they have their skates-- ]


You're on pretty good terms with the people here, huh?
stressweets: This week my very talented friend Rarity learned that if you try to please everypony, you oftentimes end up pleasing nopony, especially yourself. And I learned this: [...] In other words, you shouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth. (008. suited for success)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-12 07:18 am (UTC)(link)
[ ......oh, she's fond of this yuratchka. sena mentioned she dated someone before, so he guesses maybe... that's him...? ]

I didn't. [ this is because of his own lack-of social skills, and he carefully laces his skates. ] Was he nice?
stressweets: It's not all about singing and presents. The singing and presents are all about celebrating the ponies in our lives. The ponies we should listen to more often: our friends. (039. a hearth's warming tail)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-12 07:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ so he's out of the city.

he's happy-- and then he's mad at himself. anya's obviously fond of him, obviously was friends (maybe more), and it must suck for him not to be around anymore. it must really, really suck, and he shouldn't feel so happy about that?

he shouldn't. it's a moment before he speaks, but she's getting treated to a small grin and a confident tone. ]


I dealt with Sena-senpai during the live pretty well... I think I'd be able to handle a little attitude. [ he thinks. maybe. he fidgets with his laces a bit, tightening them more and more. thinking.

...does he want to know? ]
Were you two close?

[ he doesn't want to know, but here he is. asking anyway. ]
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[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-12 07:54 am (UTC)(link)
[ love.

not loved.

present tense.

tsukasa feels his heart drop in his chest, then slowly restart. that's... of course, really. sena said it wouldn't be easy, right? he'd have competition. it's only natural that competition might even be an ex of some kind, especially if they didn't part on bad terms... which it doesn't seem like they have at all.

he told him he still wanted to try though. he still wants anya to consider him before she considers anyone else.

...but that was before, and he straightens up when he's sure he's got his face under control. ]


They can, can't they... I have some people I get that way around too, though one of them's because he's embarrassingly straightforward with his words. [ a weak laugh, please save him from his best friend. ] I'm glad he inspired you so much--you're a very beautiful singer, and a very wonderful dancer.

[ he clasps his hands behind his back briefly, just to stretch a bit, before he offers her one. ]

I think it's normal, though. Everyone feels a little doki-doki around the people they like, right? And it's not like those feelings just disappear as soon as they leave either.
stressweets: [...] it's great to be really good at something, but it's important to act with grace and humility. (058. the mysterious mare do well)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-12 08:11 am (UTC)(link)
...Not yet. [ he steps onto the ice after her, glancing down at his feet briefly; he's okay at skating, but he still gets a little nervous. ] I... want to wait for the right moment, I think.

[ which isn't now, and it won't be next month. a little more, a little longer, so he doesn't feel so silly about love at first sight. infatuation. ]

I'm not really sure how I want to do it too... Poems can be kind of tricky, but they're romantic? Saying it straight out would probably do the trick, but I don't think I'd have the courage for that. [ ... ] Or the shamelessness, or the charisma. Um, knowing me, I'd just mess up somehow and get the wrong message across or something...

[ ahaha, well. ]

I'll figure it out. [ a little shrug. ] Winging it isn't really an option after all.
stressweets: "You didn't do anything wrong. You're allowed to share things that don't include me." "And you're allowed to feel a little jealous about it. You just have to be able to admit that that's what you're feeling so you can let it go!" (024. what about discord?)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-12 06:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ...he opens his mouth, thinks about it, and closes it again, following her lead thoughtfully. He really doesn't consider himself courageous at all, or shameless, or charismatic; he's not like the person in his memories, who can so boldly talk to a girl he seems to like, or tease her, or stand up to people. Tsukasa purses his lips, brow furrowed, before he shakes his head.

It's fine, he guesses. ]


I've surrounded myself with such flatterers. [ He has friends who say the exact same thing. Everyone's cute. ] Thank you, Anya... Maybe I'll believe it some day. Probably when I feel like I've actually become the person everyone seems to think I am.

[ Because he really doesn't feel deserving of those nice words, no matter how many times he's told it. He's ordinary, after all. He's a loser, after all. ]

I'm working hard to that end though~. The other me, um... Suou, he was kind of like that, I feel. Well, he was really resolute, at least. [ eheh. ] It got him in trouble though... His group was under threat of disbandment because of his smart mouth.
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[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-13 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ A troublemaker... Probably. ]

I think so. I mean, he wanted to join that unit for a while, it seems... He was really excited to be part of it in one of my memories. [ Knights, that wonderful unit that Sena keeps telling him they're in together. Tsukasa tilts his head as they skate, thoughtful. ] But in another, he was really angry at its leader... and he was scared that they really would be disbanded, just because he'd gotten mad.

[ A little laugh. ]

He said— I remember this really clearly— he said that he wouldn't be able to face his ancestors, or any of his unitmates, if that happened... if they lost because of him. His senpai told him not to worry about it though, because it wasn't his fault, and that they'd win like they always do... because that's just what they did.

[ ... ]

It was really cool sounding, actually. ♪ I wasn't expecting that kind of thing out of that senpai, but I guess he's had some cool moments aside from that too.
stressweets: . Always expect the best from your friends and never assume the worst. Rest assured that a good friend always has your best interests at heart. (063. party of one)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-21 05:47 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know if we did, actually, and—yes, he is, it's Sena.

[ ...Which is kind of an issue, because it's not like they really like each other. On the other hand... Urrgh. ]

I have another one here too, apparently... I've met him and I'm still not impressed. [ He's not actually that impressed with either of them, though Sena's probably. slightly higher. ] Well, he said we were part of the same unit, and my memories are inclined to agree... It's frustrating. I wish I had nicer senpai—I wonder if that's something the other me thinks, too.

[ Food for thought. He tilts his head towards her, blinking slowly. ]

Do you have any? Senpai, I mean. Either here or in your memories.
stressweets: The Starlight I love is passionate, lively, and yeah, sometimes angry. Those are my favorite parts of you. That, and the fact that you forgive me every time. (071. all bottled up)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-21 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
He's...

[ Tsukasa falters, trying to sort through his complicated feelings—because that's what they are, between his memories and his memories. Mizuki Sena isn't someone he'd normally go out of his way to interact with, probably.

Or maybe it's more like, normally, he's not the kind of person he'd be able to interact with. In a way, neither is Anya, though. He was just lucky—it was just chance—so much has been up to fate. He responds to the tenseness of her hand with a squeeze, looking up at the ceiling instead of at her. ]


Sena-senpai [ because saying that feels right—better, even, even though technically he isn't his senpai anymore, with the live over, even if he's that in his memories ] is difficult, I guess. I don't think he likes me very much, but he's taken advice and stuff from me... and he's given me peptalks about some stuff, too. He calls me by a nickname, both here and in my memories... I feel like in those, I'm also frustrated, but I admire him, too.

[ ... ]

There's a memory I have of when I first went to join that unit. [ Softer, closing his eyes to see it better. ] I didn't have eyes for anyone but Sena-senpai—I even ignored someone who I called "oniisama," who seemed amused that I hadn't even noticed him, because Sena-senpai was the leader of that unit then. I was really excited about mastering what he told me to so he'd have to let me join, and I was very happy when he treated me like I was a kouhai instead of some sort of noble... I guess. I think that's why. The other me's very well-off, so I bet he has a lot of people who treat him differently...

[ He trails off, lips pursing, and shakes his head before he finally turns back to her. ]

It's not that... He isn't nice, not really, but it's like... [ ...Urgh. ] He's not outright mean? Something like tough love, or something... Sena-senpai's rough around the edges, and honestly, it's really irritating? I never get this huffy about anyone though, I don't think it's right to. [ Because he's a polite boy who was raised with manners and a penchant for respecting those older than him. And to not be competitive. And to not take after his older sibling at all, essentially. ] It's just...

[ He squeezes her hand again, sighing. ]

Difficult. Please don't tell him that I'm truly thankful for what he's said to me, since I think he'd get a really big head if he knew that... I mean, I did thank him, but... [ A huff. ] He'd tease me for still thinking about all of that, since I'm sure it's no big deal to him at all.

[ Tsukasa pauses then, studying her, and tries to smile a little. ]

Sorry if I worried you. It's nothing compared to all the cheek-pulling I get from Hinata, or all the dragging around I get from Mafuyu—Sena-senpai has to compete with real bullies~. Though, they're my friends, so...
stressweets: The Starlight I love is passionate, lively, and yeah, sometimes angry. Those are my favorite parts of you. That, and the fact that you forgive me every time. (071. all bottled up)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-02-27 03:40 am (UTC)(link)
[ Tsukasa's quiet, watching her as she speaks—the smile that isn't all there, the wince. He squeezes her hand, turning away and turning the memory of standing with Sena backstage over in his head instead. He had mentioned that, hadn't he. That he used to have a very strong opinion against idols. That he hadn't wanted her to pursue this road.

But— ]


We talked about that, at the live. He agreed with me when I said it felt like you were born for that kind of thing, and he said he was glad that nothing stopped you from going for it. He called you a powerhouse. [ A little smile. He isn't sure if this is anything she wants to or needs to hear, but it's what they discussed. ] Um... For what it's worth, I think he really is happy about that. I think he wants to support you, even if he doesn't know how. And...

[ Tsukasa trails off, thinking about it, and leans closer like he's telling her a secret. ]

I think he wants to be one, too. He looked pretty happy at the live, didn't he? So I think he doesn't hate idols as much as he used to, and I think a lot of that might be because of you. You look so radiant on stage, Anya. It'd be hard not to be inspired by you like that. All your hard work, your dedication... [ ...um— ] That's, um, just my two cents, though. I can't say I know Sena-senpai's real feelings or anything like that...? But, um...

[ .....he's leaning away again, clearing his throat. ]

Yeah.

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